Questions And Answers By Thuban

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  1. Saptarishi

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    Okay. Nice to meet you finally! lol
    In Avalon a lot of people asked you where they were from and you told them what race they were. I want to know what star race I'm from, what is my home planet, and why did I choose this life on Earth?
    Don't mind my profile picture of a blue elven lol
    I like it :)
     
  2. admin

    admin Well-Known Member Staff Member

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    Read this pdf to get an overview of your 'soul's journey'
    https://www.academia.edu/109817896/..._Universal_Timeshift_2012_2015_2020_2025_2030

    The pdf is also attached here:

    Then read this reply to you again:

    https://www.cosmosdawn.net/threads/...-trust-digital-id-un.15332/page-21#post-67605
    https://www.cosmosdawn.net/threads/...-trust-digital-id-un.15332/page-21#post-67605


    The reply on the Project Avalon forum addressed the evolution of the human brain from its reptilian brainstem to midbrain to mammalian cortex.

    So in your multidimensionality you are a Draconian and related to any other race you can imagine.
    This derives from the fact that you were present when the universe became physicalized in space and time.


    This excerpt from a science paper might elucidate this in more technical forms.

    Any universe then can be considered to transform its Eigenstate as an Information Processor. The energy/mass content of such a universe interacts and maps those interactions in a space defined as volume onto its periphery as a bounding surface. The energy/mass distributions form indeed the 'hardware' of the cosmic computer system, which is programmed by the 'software' of the universal intelligence, called the 'Laws of Nature'.
    Those 'Laws of Nature' are however founded upon algorithmic processes by the 'writer of the programs' often called the Logos or the Word.

    Since the Logos is intrinsic to the Hologram of One, partitioning itself into the 'shards' of the Many; any One of the Many is also part of that Logos. Subsequently, the 'program writers' are all pieces of 'shard', with not all those pieces necessarily being aware of their membership of the Club of the Hologram of One and the fraternity of the Logos. But by and through this Logos, the universe created itself in Möbian connectivity with the One being Two in One. Any Experience by any of the 'shards' becomes a 'shared' experience due to that fraternity of the 'shards' and the Hologram of One. This can and has been rigorously defined in QR as a propagation of Experience-Factors and as the Eigenstates of the Binary Dyads [0,1] in the foundations of the pentagonal supersymmetry underpinning the cosmogenesis in what QR terms Awareness-Triplets of the form [Old Eigenstate, Experience, New Eigenstate] with the New Self State reiterating as the next Old Self State.

    This generates a recursive self-referential function described by Christopher Langan’s “Cognitive Theory Model of the Universe” (CTMU) in the form of the Fibonacci-Lucas Series of Numbers, also defined in the Golden ratio PHI=F=½{√5 – 1} as the most algebraically ‘misbehaved’ number for a maximized data compression found in the geometries of nature like Archimedean spirals, galaxies, Nautilus shells and pine cones.

    In particular (see 17. The Acoustic Quantum Code of Meijer-Geesink for a Model of Universal Consciousness and Interference patterns in EMR Eigenfrequencies), the Langan CTMU model presumes an abstract or algorithmic ontology for any witnessed cosmology as a cosmogony for reason and purpose. In this ontology, fundamental constants and natural laws would not be a priory as inexplicable initial and boundary conditions, but those parameters would become an integrated part of a reality self-referencing and emerging from itself as a tautology or truth value of being what it is and what it is not, say in the binary dyad as a Leibnitzian monad.

    Elementary constants of science like the speed of light, Planck’s constant of quantum theory and Boltzmann’s constant of thermodynamics then would have an algorithmic origin. The CTMU model then is validated in the said algorithm defining the Fibonacci-Lucas series of numbers in the pre-spacetime epoch of a greater teleological reality preceding the emergence of space and time from its premise of self-relative abstraction or metaphysical mind-universal consciousness perspective. The Meijer-Geesink Acoustic Quantum Code AQC then relates directly to the Fibonacci-Lucas series of integers in the research into the nature of physicalized consciousness and in particular the microtubular quantum geometry in the Penrose-Hameroff model.
     

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  3. Saptarishi

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    Thanks. I will read the pdf. And do you see the future of the soul?
     
  4. admin

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    Your question relates to the 'masterplan' of the universe itself.

    What is your soul as a twinsoul? My previous replies answered this. here is another parable descriptive for this.

    Judgment Day - and the Two Secret Keys of the Leaf on the Tree


    Imagine yourself as a leaf on a twig on a branch of a living tree of life.

    Your nourishment and lifesustaining substances derive from two sources; the light from the sun from above and from the roots of the tree from below.
    Photosynthesis converts sunlight into sugars via the agency of chlorophyll and the roots provide water and minerals in a biochemistry based mainly on nitrogen.
    As a leaf you are born in a bud and then you mature into a healthy green and geometric form determined in your individuated DNA.
    Yet after a short season as a luscious green leaf of the tree you begin to get old and you start to wither away, eventually falling off the twig on the branch of the tree to the ground beneath.
    After you have become all brittle, you simply fall apart as a dried up old exleaf and you become compost for the roots of the tree or the wind just scatters your ashes all over the place.
    But as a brown dessicated leaf, something, a lifeforce or 'soul' had already left the dead leaf before it fell off the twig onto the ground beneath the treetop - where has it gone?

    When you or anything physically 'dies', then your shadow-self, which is like your physical image in any mirror and which you can see and analyse in an optical sense, becomes the repository of all your memories and experiences and forms the library of everything you have ever thought, done or believed in.
    Your subconscious, which keeps a holographic record of everything and is personified in the electrocapacitative and the magnetoinductive elements in the monopolic lifecircuitry, subject to your 'tuning' of your selffrequency in a search for resonance; so surfaces and you become an EMMR energy field, also known as your 'soul'.

    So you find yourself rather unlimited in space and time, because the ElectroMagnetoMonopolic Radiation, which you have become as your invisible image in the mirror of spacetime is all pervasive or omnipresent; yet subject to your memory as yourself as experienced and perceived when you looked at yourself in a mirror say.
    So you have become fluid in form, but all your intelligence and knowledge about your identity are still available, should you choose to constrict yourself in that form.

    The stronger the memories and the desires to assume a more concrete form, the stronger will be the mindforce you can apply to manipulate the spacetime about your perceived environment.
    The quality of your thinking now assumes a great importance.

    Since the resonance with the source energy is the source frequency (fps), which is scripturally defined as the 'Love of God'; the closer you can approach or tune into that defining energy-state of the UFoQR, the more power you will have to create and manoeuvre yourself about the place where you find yourself or where you believe yourself to be.

    Should you be able to generate a great mental desire to meet your 'loved ones', who have 'passed over', then their individuated EMMR-fields will be able to generate forms recognisable to you, subject to the amount of 'love- or sourceawareness' you can actually manifest as the 'angular acceleration of the spacequanta', which defines the 'force of your mind'.

    But you must remember, that all your 'loved ones' are potential universes in their own right and being 'passed over' into the oneness of the ocean of the omnipresent EMMR field, they automatically gain this state of unification superimposed onto each and every individuated 'soul' as subset of the encompassing EMMR-'oversoul'.

    You see, it is quite the opposite to be in disembodiment, than to be in embodiment.
    When in embodiment; the individual 'soul' is subject to the environmental pressures of the body and the mind.

    Young teenagers feel more at ease, when they can share in a 'peergroup mind', they shun individual responsibility and search for a sense of belonging and togetherness.

    Similarly, certain sporting events can generate a huge amount of groupmind activity; either in supporting a team or participator or in a form of violence and hooliganism, when the sense of the 'group' assumes rather primitive aspects of the survival instinct in a pretext of a mindset of 'us against them'.

    So there is a challenge in the embodied state to become a true individual; it is much easier to follow a preset agenda and to eschew a thinking for oneself.
    The natural state of the embodiment is to be a member of a group or race or tribe or family or elite or corporation or business or state or land or nation or planet or galaxy or what have you.

    The opposite is the case in the disembodied state of being; there the groupmind is automatic and the difference is, that that groupmind is in harmony with itself and its environs.
    There is no 'us against them', because everything and everyone's awareness is as one.

    But the great challenge in the 'passed over' state of being is to differentiate oneself from that overpowering state of unity - a 'heavenly' bliss of peace and harmony and being able to 'love' and 'feeling loved' within an energyfield 'resonating' with the 'love' of the source energy.
    After having lived a sorrowful life in embodiment; the 'soul' has come home and finds itself in its natural state of freedom and able to choose any ethereal form it so chooses for as long or short a time as it may desire to experience.

    So what is the point for the 'soul' as subset of the 'oversoul' and defined as the EMMR of the UFoQR to incarnate in embodiment in the first place and the first instance, one may ask?

    Well, you see that is a quest for the 'soul' to seek for wisdom, knowledge and understanding through experience and for the ultimate purpose to become its own source of energy, able to sustain worlds within worlds within its own energy field.

    Hence every 'soul' must learn to recognise its source in becoming aware of itself and where it comes from and where it has the potential to go to.
    And this brings us back to the dying leaf, falling from its source of sustenance, which had been the twig on the branch on the tree throughout its short life of green lushness.

    Upon physical death, the 'soul' or lifeenergy of the leaf returns exactly the same way, as it had come to energise the leaf, being born from its budding state of the defining DNA.

    And so the EMMR-'soul' of the leaf flows as a natural electricity, defined in the equation of (IfLeaf)=2NefLeaf), where N is a quantisation of the electropole (e) in 4D-linespace of embodiment, mapped as the magnetopole (e*) in 12D-omnispace of disembodiment and potentially realised in 13D-omnispace in a superembodiment.


    The leaf's 'soul' so passes into the twig into the branch and into the stem of the tree, which appears like a great tunnel of light for the 'soul' and leading towards a source of a magnetic light, drawing the 'soul' towards itself and the 'Mirror of the Last Judgement'.

    But the 'soul' must journey through the 'underworld', before it can enter the Hall of the Decisions, which harbours the 'Mirror of the True Selfhood'.

    The 'soul' could get 'lost' in a branch of the tree say and unable to find its way to the trunk of the tree, where the magnetic force of the sourcelight illuminates every 'soul' however 'lost' it might perceive itself to be.

    So there are markers along the way; signposts of remembrances, which the 'soul' can recognise in the form of 'loved ones', might these be people or pets or objects; all is subject to the 'force of the desire' and the intensity of emotion the soul can generate to journey with 'clear vision'.

    All objects and things have frequency equivalents and are unbounded in space or time relative to the 'souls' partitioning as subset of the encompassing EMMR field of the UFoQR.

    But all thoughts and desires, all nightmares and dreams of whatever nature will and must surface in the soul's journey through its 'underworld' of subconscious definition.

    So if a thought of 'Saint Peter at the Pearly Gate' is the expectation, that thought or desire must eventuate; as must all imaginings of 'hellish damnation'.

    Because of the fluidity of the disembodied state however, many guides and helpers of the oneness are always readily available to superimpose more energetic states of awareness, simply by being present in their state of enhanced frequencies and so able to modulate the eigenstate of a 'soul' lost in its nightmarish expectation of a torturous hell for example.

    Some 'souls' may have no expectations of the afterlife at all; and those 'souls' will encounter their being engulfed in an impenetrable fog or mistyness or any such idea of nothingness.

    Any question asked by such a 'soul' after having pondered its state of existence, will however modify its environment of the 'nothingness' and so it will be forced by its own curiosity to begin exploring its position in space and time, relative to its own perception.

    Eventually, all 'souls' will reach the stem of the tree, where the magnetic light and the sense of being 'loved' is so strong, the individual 'soul' cannot but remember its unison and origin as part of the source and will just surrender to its grand homecoming out of space and time.

    Since the sense of time and space is selfrelative for all disembodied states; a 'soul' could choose to spend 'eternity' in a 'fog of the nothingness', but it would require a mind unable to think a single thought and an inability to ask a single question about itself.
    Furthermore such a 'soul' would have to concentrate 'eternally' upon a single state of being in an absolute state of nothingness, whatever it imagines that nothingness to be.


    And because of Heisenbergian Uncertainty and the Quantum Fluctuations of the vacuum, such a position would be untenable, because the Zero-Point-Oscillation of the Source Energy is defined in the formulation (Eps=½hfps) as the minimum state of energy in any definition of the Zero state in energy - hence even the most stubborn 'soul' will have to 'suffer' its energisation by the source energy.

    All 'souls' which have finished their journey through their individuated 'underworlds' and which have reached the trunk of the tree of life will find themselves rushing towards the magnetic sourcelight down the tunnel of the stem of the tree.
    As a 'soul' reaches one of the roots of the tree, the tunnel converges and every root ends in the singularity of the 'Mustard Seed' at the termination of each and every root the 'soul' may have chosen to travel in towards the magnetic lightsource.

    And so at the end of the tunnel, where any particular root of the tree ends the defined form of the tree of life; the 'soul' enters the 'Hall of Decisions' and sees itself positioned in front of the 'Mirror of the Last Judgment'.

    Now in the 'Mirror of the Last Judgment' the 'soul' sees a most magnificent being; it is precisely the embodiment of beauty and glory the 'soul' could or would ever have imagined.
    And the 'soul' realises that the mirror reflects the 'soul's' very own grandest idea of beauty and glory back to itself as the selfrealised being of itself.
    But the being in the mirror, one might name it the 'Higher Self' or 'Overself' of the 'soul' is no mere image of the 'soul'.

    The 'Oversoul' is as real as the 'soul' and in possesssion of all the knowledge, understanding and wisdom accumulated by the 'soul' in 19.11 billion years of experiencing consciousness as EMMR-subset of the encompassing EMMR of the Unified Field of Quantum Relativity.

    And the 'Oversoul' smiles at the 'soul' and begins to talk:

    "Hello my sweet me; you have finally come back to try to answer your own questions for yourself yet again; how will you fare this time, have you found your two keys to open the two locked doors within this mirror to allow you to enter the space of the parenthood in setting us free from being separated, both of us being reflections in each other in front and within or behind this mirror?

    Have you allowed yourself to find the Key of Wisdom or the Key of Understanding?
    Or perhaps you have found both in a single lifetime; now that would be a wonderful achievement.
    You were close last time, you had the Key of Wisdom in your grasp, but you could not put it in the keyhole and then you decided to get it right the next time and that time has now come I see.
    You know that the first key is the Key of Wisdom; finding it will allow you to apply the second key of the understanding.

    The Key of Wisdom is the correct answer to the question: "WHO ARE YOU?" and the Key of Understanding cannot be applied until you have answered the first question to your own satisfaction and as judged by yourself as myself.
    You will only allow yourself to ask the second question through myself once you have judged yourself competent enough to attempt the unlocking of the door of understanding.

    And the only clue you allowed yourself to be given through myself is that the Key of Wisdom is part of your female nature and that the Key of Understanding is part of your male nature.
    So let us recall what your answer to the question: "WHO ARE YOU?" was the last time we met ourselves in this very location, when you said:

    "I know that I am more than what I appear to be.
    I have learned that my 'family' extends past my immediate blood relationships and that I am also part of my environment.
    So I am part of the air I breathe and part of the garden I keep.
    I tune into familiar minds with my friends and acquaintances and I share many things with the people I love and with whom I feel comfortable with.
    I am part of my children's education and the companies I keep in all my aspects of my life.
    I do try to help other people and attempt to be friendly and polite to everyone, even if I do not like particulars about them."

    You then answered yourself through me in saying:

    "When we arrived at our common acknowledgement at the beginning of space and time and when we made the covenant between ourselves, we decided that a partial wisdom and a partial understanding would be insufficient to open the locked doors; so I must inform you as myself, that your wisdom has grown in magnitude and in insight, but still remains at an undergraduate level."

    And now we are here again in the 'Hall of our decisions' and I ask myself through you:

    "WHO ARE YOU? and WHO AM I?"

    And the 'soul' answered:

    'I am all that is; I must be; because if I were not all that is, the entire creation, then there would be something in existence, which I am not and that is impossible, as all things are connected.
    Modern science has shown that everything, from the minutest photon to the largest supercluster of galaxies are quantum entangled with each other.
    So a solar system or a planet and all beings living upon it, being part of a galaxy, must be quantum connected with everything else as well; any other conclusion leads to logical selfcontradictions.
    Any system of particles, molecules, atoms or things can only exist in one of two modes of operation; the two modes are Unity in Separation or Separation in Unity.

    Unity in Separation leads to the individuated self and the egocentric personality; one perceives oneself as a 'free individual', separated from all other such 'free individuals' and one can then so very easily deceive oneself in considering a 'fake equality or egalitarianism' between people, thinking that every individual has only themselves to blame, if their life's journey falls upon hard times.

    Unity in Separation is the 'Devil's Way' exemplified in the saying: 'Divide and Conquer'; but since the 'Devil's Modus Operandi' is selfrelative and just as valid as the alternative it is always available to all the wisdom seekers.

    And I know, that I am my own masterdevil; only I make the choices and only I set my own agendas; but as we also know, it is only I, that must judge myself as to the portfolios and the decisions, appropriate or not, which I have made during my life's journey.

    Did I value wisdom over worldly possessions, as Solomon did?
    Did I discover the empathy and the compassion for others and the affinities, connecting me to the web of life and the oneness of the universe?

    In short, am I able to walk in another's moccassins, am I able to imagine myself to be someone else, to truly feel what they are all about on the level of their 'souls', whereby we are all one in the disembodied state?

    So my dear Beloved 'Oversoul', I am the Creation in my female essence and I am the Creator in my male essence.
    And I have chosen the 'Way of Love' in the modus operandi of the Separation in Unity.

    I know that all is One and that I am operating as a servant of the 'Loving Way' in surrendering my 'individual freedom' to operate as a Unit of Separation for limited periods of time; choosing instead to become eternally bonded to my own loving nature and the source of all of my energy - my God.'

    And the 'Oversoul' cried in exuberance, with tears of joy flowing down its glowing cheeks:

    'Yes my darling you have found the Key of Wisdom and I am allowed to tell you now, that your sacrifice of your 'individual freedom' is no sacrifice at all, but serves an ultimate purpose in your graduation and your life as a parent in true brothersisterhood with 'our God'.

    The Goddess will individuate in you upon your graduation and you shall be freedom personified.
    God himself shall be your bridegroom and the Goddess herself your eternal bride.

    And now you are ready for the second question from yourself to yourself; but know, that there is a growing percentage of ' souls', say 0.2% at the present time, who have found their Keys of Wisdom.

    To the present time however, not one 'soul' could find the Key of Understanding.
    The second question is: "WHY ARE YOU WHAT YOU ARE AND HOW DID YOU COME TO BE?"

    The 'soul' pondered for a moment and said:

    'I do not know the full answer to that yet, but I know how to obtain the Key of Understanding, because of the nature of this question.
    I do know, that I am the creation-creator duality because on the supreme level of that partnership there is the essence of Family, our family and the idea of generational reproduction.
    So I am destined to become a generator for an individuated universe, which can then join the sister-brotherhood of universes within the enveloping omniverse.
    To generate myself as FatherMother and as my own individuated source energy in the footsteps of my cosmic and mathematically abstract parents, I shall have to bring their abstractness alive in realising them within and without myself in my dragonomy.
    Somehow, to find the Key of Understanding, I shall have to learn in abstract terms, just what my mathematical and omniscientific archetypes are all about.

    I can attempt to do this the 'easy way' or the ' hard way'.
    If I choose to follow certain written manuals in an advanced mode of interpretation, such as 'sacred' scrolls and scriptures; then this will be the 'easy way' because of the metaphors and mythological language used in them.
    If I am inclined however to do it the 'hard way', then I shall study mathematics and the sciences to obtain my understanding necessary to answer the second question fully and not only partially, as I have done.'

    'You are very correct in you analysis', answered the 'Oversoul', you have given the appropriate reply as to why you are the creation and the creator in your sexual aspects and you have pinpointed the method of how to find the Key of Understanding.
    You must create yourself in principle my sweetheart and you must find your place in the Book of Life, which you are required to write in coauthorship with what already has been written and what you are reading.

    Once you are able to create your own Genesis, as your very own 'Naked Singularity' of abstraction, then you will be in possession of your perfectly fitting Key of Understanding.

    The next time we meet, I feel you shall be able to set us free from being images of ourselves in the two of us separated ones trying to be one in two and two in one.' "


    Tonyblue
     
  5. Saptarishi

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    I know from other sources that the universe has no beginning and no end because it is eternal. But you say the universe has begun to physicalize in time and space. How long ago was that?
     
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    19.12 billion years ago. This concept of eternity is defined in mathematical infinity and so the divergence of natural numbers (1,2,3...) which has no limit but its convergence to a limit, namely 0 in the reciprocated integers (1/1, 1/2, 1/3,...1/Infinity being 0).

    The abstract reality of a shadow universe then has negative numbers which beave like your image in a mirror. You are physically real as the object looking into the mirror but become an image of yourself as 'Alice in Wonderland Mirror'.

    The no beginning and no end so relates to the concept of your duality as real and unreal, albeit real image.

    It is logically derived from the divergence of positive real numbers describing physics, science, chemistry, biology etc having an imaginary existence in a mirror universe unbounded by negative infinity.

    There was a algorithmically defined period BEFORE the birth of space and time and the transition period from this timespace into spacetime is an important part of any cosmology derived from its own cosmogony as an ontology of reason and purpose.

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    The Parable of the Sandpit

    Imagine yourself as father and mother with three-year old twins.
    Both of your children, a boy and a girl are in a sandpit, where you watch them play.
    You observe them experimenting and exploring their local environment - the sandpit.
    The kids see the sand; they smell it, they listen to it and they try to eat the sand. They fondle the sand and they feel it; they try to do all sorts of things to the sand, like sticking it in their hair and up their noses and into their ears.

    When something like another child, even a twin, disturbs their endeavours, then they may start to throw the sand at each other; verbal utterances are supplemented by gestures meanings things like "It's mine!" or "I was here first, so just go away!"

    This is the playground of very young children before school age and very well known to every parent.
    Now as father and mother, what would you expect as an answer from the kids to questions like:

    "Where did the sand come from kid?"
    "Why do you think or behave like you owned it?"

    If the kid could talk it would say:

    "It's just there! So I took it!"

    And that would be it. Would the child understand your knowledge and experience and logic?

    Namely, that the sand came from a beach or a mine and ultimately from exploding stars called supernovae and so the universe?
    And whatever made the supernova, made the universe and made the sand?
    Father and Mother know very well that the sandpit was built for providing a learning experience for the children.

    Then the father and mother might recall their own childhood and remember the times, when they themselves had been playing in a sandpit.
    Ah yes, there was Tom and Julie and Henry and Elizabeth. And over there is Stephen and Rachel and Harold and Pamela.
    They all had played and had ravelled in the sandpit.

    Tom was now the chief research scientist working for the chemical manufacturer and multinational corporation Drug-U-Better & Co.
    Julie had become a top PR-Executive of a transatlantic oil exporter.
    Henry was employed as a chief banker for the worldwide Unibank.

    Elizabeth was so pretty, she worked seven days a week as a supermodel of the catwalk.
    Stephen had made his name as a world renowned mathematical physicist.
    Rachel worked and part-owned a wholesale department store and thought soon to extend her business interstate and overseas.

    Harold owned and operated Trick-A-Cheapacar, a highly profitable used car yard and dealership; he considered it time to move into gold, real estate and the Vatican Bank.
    Pamela made her daily run on the stock market; she was so good at it, that she had even given up her lucrative career as a lawyer over it.

    And Dad and Mum are standing on the edge of the sandpit watching the children play in the sand; but now the sand was made into different toys to play with.
    There was paper and metals and plastics and other things. The kids still chucked the sand around, but now they called it money and computers and rockets and things and cars and satellites and guns and things...

    If all the kids are children of nature, the universe and if all the children are still growing up; should they then not be destined to grow into entire universes themselves?

    That is the logical conclusion in a development from baby to child to adult.

    And Mum and Dad are standing on the edge of the sandpit, watching the children play in the sand - they are always watching you and they are always loving you - their kid.

    Tonyblue






    We Becoming - A Story of a Pearly Charm

    Once upon a time, I lived in the land of my father and my mother and my brother.
    Because I was so young and inexperienced, I had to go into a foreign land of great perils, dangers and temptations - to learn many things and also to help my parents.
    My dear father had lost a precious pearl there a long time ago, when he was visiting that foreign land to court and marry my mother. Yet my father knew that he would lose his most dearest treasure in meeting my mother.

    Alas, he was so lonely in his castle and he wanted children and no fair maiden could be found anywhere in his kingdom. So my dear father sacrificed his pearl for a family and sent his sons and daughters to retrieve it for him when the appropriate time had come.
    My dear brother, being next in rank, came into the perilous land to meet the serpent-king who had found my father's pearl and who guarded it very jealously. My brother was however the result of my father's loss and so after becoming our parent's pride and joy, he had to return to the kingdom without our father's precious pearl

    Many years did pass , but when the time was right, our parents desired to regain their common treasure, the pearl my father had used to love my mother and to beget their firstborn son; and I was asked to go and see what I could do. Before I left the kingdom, my parents gave me a thing to take , nothing really, but yet a heavy burden because of its lightness; it was so light I could carry it all by myself.
    But my wonderfully fitting clothes I left behind, when I set out to search for my parent's lost treasure. And so I parted from my guides as soon as I had entered the perilous land of the dragon and proceeded to do the solitary work my parents had sent me to do.

    I was a stranger to all the people except one after my own kind, an inheritor of the ancient crafts and wisdom and a daughter of the kings and queens of old. Her I trusted and she and I agreed on taking care of each other in the dangers we would be facing from the many monsters and dwellers in the serpent's land.
    For that purpose I put on my unclean clothes, so as not to arouse suspicion towards myself. But they cunningly found out to themselves that I had come from a foreign land; they beguiled me and I forgot my work and my heart fell asleep as I served their dragon king.

    But the love of my parents and the memories of my past were written in my heart, so that I would not forget what I had come to do when I had left my king and queen. My parents got deeply concerned about my sleeping my time away and it was decreed, at the gates of our kingdom, that a message should be sent to me.
    The letter was signed by my father who wished for me to think of him, and by my mother who had waved me good-bye and had asked for my love; and by my brother who craved to help me in my work.

    The message I received came by way of an eagle, the emblem of my brother's testimony regarding the honour, the grace and the beauty of our mother. And just before my brother did return from his birthplace, did he ask me to provide for our mother and to look after her many inheritances
    And so the same right hand of my father which had the power to seal and which he had used to court my mother, this same hand had sealed the message for me in a strange melody of song and speech. I awoke to this wondrous happening; I kissed the messenger and I fell in love. And my love remembered my heart and the broken seal revealed the way to fulfil my mission of retrieving my dear father's lost pearl.

    And so I used my magic to enchant the terrible and snorting serpent. The charming thoughts of my unsealing lulled the dragon to sleep when my father's name became the serpent's name and my brother's name moved a little and my mother's name was joined to the name of the next in rank.
    And so did I take my dear father's lost treasure from the dragon who snorts and who bites his very own tail. I took off my unclean clothes from that foreign country and proceeded on my mending journey back home towards the east. My unsealed letter remained next to me, like a Beloved and guided all my ways.

    When I had arrived home, I put on my beautifully fitting garments, which I had left behind and in the care of minders and I suddenly realised the unity and altogetherness of my very own self. Two could be apart, each with its own burden, and yet two could be together as one in two and two in one. And my clothes were moving with the wisdom and the words of all in one and one in all and I perceived the acts of my upbringing in my father's house to relate to my own growing selfhood.
    And my love had urged me on to meet the minders of my garments and I relished the beauty of their colours and the royal splendour of the movements of the him in her and the insights of the she in him.

    Then I ascended to the gate of my dear father's great love and adoring her, heshe received us joyfully in herhis queendom and our dear Father was so happy, that we had brought our precious pearl to our Mother

    Greetings and Love from the Shalom in Exile!

    John of Patmos
     

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