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    Shiloh Za-Rah - Posted Oct 7th 2012

    LOVE Impressions from Hyperspace
    Mind and Body and Dreams and ?

    1. The Catwoman in the Garden of LOVE! (July 1988)

    The sun was shining brightly and the midsummer's heat could be felt everywhere. The farmer's harvest was completed and the haystacks decorated the landscape of cut grass and a land which had given its produce.
    In the distance a small collection of trees, a tract of maybe a dozen conifers formed an inviting place of shade and peacefulness.
    I made my way towards this green oasis to perhaps find some water for refreshment and to rest my weary body from the exhausting heat and my long toil of the day.
    As I reached the setting, I noticed that the trees formed an enclosure about a most exquisite garden, full of colour, smell and sound.
    The fragrances of flowers became harmonised by the melodies of all kinds of birds and otherworldly tunes permeated the serene atmosphere of this most idyllic place.
    Where was I? I pondered my experience and concluded that this must be the place of refuge for the farmer-god, the keeper of the land which had just been harvested.
    I sat down and observed the peaceful bubbling of a natural fountain in the middle of the garden when I became aware of a black cat which was looking at me just across the little well of water.

    "What is a scientist doing in my garden?", "she" said suddenly.
    A little bit baffled by this speaking cat, I gave a stuttered reply:
    "Ah, I am not one of the general sort of scientist. I am not really a materialist and I try to give meaning to analytic science in spiritualising reason and thought."
    As soon as I had said it, I became bemused by my apologetic preponderances. I was a visitor in this garden and as this cat could talk, some kind of magic or astral dimension would form this reality. Was I dreaming or had I left my body?

    "She" turned "her" head knowingly and still looking at me, the feline asked: "What is your greatest LOVE of all? And What are you?"

    I said, that my LOVE was LOVE itself and that therefore I myself had to be LOVE in my true essence.
    "She" seemed to be pleased with my response.
    The cat transformed itself into a most beautiful woman, retaining however "her" feline nature and essence.
    "She" then moved closer and began to gently run her long fingernails down my cheeks, resulting in the most sensual nervous vibration of. my inner being.
    My exhuberance increased, as "she" began to rub "her" body against mine and I experienced sexual desires and expectant fulfilments never before realised.
    Just as I started to truly enjoy this exhilerating exchange of energies and just as I envisaged what an actual sexual merger with this wonder woman would feel like; I awoke to my mundane physically aware consciousness.

    2. My VISIT of HELL! (July 1995)

    It had been a long day of thought, meditation and writing.
    I had realised that the nature of the Gods was ONE of merging opposites in ONENESS. Specifically, I had became aware, for the first time, that ones biological body served a higher purpose of recombining something lost at the beginning of space and time.

    The only thing that really mattered in anyone's "life" was how one perceived ones own consciousness - the sense of being alive and the knowing of "ME".
    It is the thought that counts. What you think that you are. Or one creates one's own reality by thought projection.
    So not knowing or remembering what you are leads to the confusions of everyday life. The question becomes of how to remember and how to get in touch with the thing inside. Since confusion breeds confusion and more of the same becomes fear and doubt and ends in despair and hopelessness; the grail of hope would become an adventure of self discovery.
    All this I had realised and put into some words of hope in the attempt to clarify the situation. But I was still restless. It is easy to say to become centred is the way to be; but the practice of it is very hard unless you live in a cave as a hermit and isolated from the razzamatazz of screaming voices and the blahblah of a multitude of diverse channels of communication.
    The harmonies of music are a miraculous tonic for the ailment of cacophony.
    The superimposed waveforms of atmospheric pressure variations seem to tranquilise a tortured mind in the search of silence and understanding.

    What is perceived as melody, rhythms and harmony merges with the electricity generated in one's brain and specifically the beta waves of so 13-28+ cycles per second and responsible for front-brain activity in conscious thought and analysis.
    When this activity slows down, the alpha waves from 8-12 cycles induce a more meditative state and this then slows to sleep below 8 cycles and the state of being, when the autonomous nervous system relaxes. No frequency implies the "death" of the brain. There are periods of deep sleep when the physical consciousness subsides completely and the self-awareness of the digital ID becomes engulfed by the higher self or super-ego.
    Then this subconscious awareness begins to surface and astral experiences like dreams, visions and out-of-body experiences can occur. Rapid-Eye-Movement (REM) accompanies the dreaming sleep and the worlds of dreams are hyperspace or the 3 dimensions of the rotational twistor-symmetry.
    All my life did I try to realise this astral world in an analytic way, but I was not prepared to get the answers as to the "reality" of "hell" in the way I did.

    Yes, I had asked questions before. Such as how does the lightbody penetrate walls; and what does it feel like to fly - to be antigravitational?
    But with my new realisation as to the requirement to spiritualise the physical body; I induced some harmony via listening to some peaceful music on the radio and thought about how to visit my own body.
    All this beta wave activity did however not lull me to sleep as it had done countless times before.
    I thought about how the collective spiritual atmosphere by all those antispiritual thought forms of death, decay of planet Earth is obstructed and misery; when suddenly I found myself within my own realm of perception of this subject matter.

    There I was completely awake and it did not matter if I had my eyes open or shut. Incredible colours and shapes and beings just came to be; but completely subjugated to whatever I desired to think about.
    I created my own scenarios and just as I pleased.
    I truly was the landlord, the king in my own castle.
    So there I was; colours all around me and ready to be shaped .
    I decided to let things shape themselves, just to experience what would eventuate. It was a dark place but full of very rich colours, otherworldly colours really, spiritual reds and blues and greens, mixed to give any other colour in astral space. So it was dark and yet very colourful. I knew that what I experienced was my own underworld, my own hell and how my higher self "imagined" hell to be, even without words or ll-dimensional forms.
    But for the first time I really experienced what it was like to "walk" in the realms of the antispirit; once it is confined to your own body - your own self.

    So I began my "Dante-like" journey through the inferno of my own mind and thoughtfulness.
    I was dressed in this kind of Roman toga and descended some steps into a greater hall, one of many halls, towards many clearances and gatherings of a multitude of creatures. Little devils, demons, familiars were swarming around everywhere.

    The entire thing was incredibly funny and most hilarious, a kaleidoscope of colour and movement.
    Just as I entered one of those greater halls, which was bathed in an all pervading orange glow with many colours reflected in the creatures; some of the little demons started to pull on my toga.
    They looked like miniature devils, about 50 cm in height and they tried to look very frightfully. They grimaced and rather frenzied pulled and tore on my toga; there were about 10 of them pulling at one time with many more all around the place.
    All I did is give them a stern look and all of them scattered in all directions, waiting for me to become complacent and tolerant again.
    Aha, I thought, when you get annoyed then they cannot stand to be near you. Your tolerance is their life and you are like the lollyman with your presence.

    To describe the creatures I saw is no easy thing. They are anything the producers and creators of Hollywood have ever imagined yet are more vibrant and more alive than anything which could be imparted onto a screen or a videotape.
    There are many mixtures of animal creatures. Some are half toad and half fish; others are troll like and others are gargoyles and dragons, krakens and all the creatures of mythology are there.
    If you like to see a creature made up of various sorts; you can create this creature by thinking about it and then project your realisation into colour and it materialises with a life of its own.
    Anyway I started to really have fun in my mythological hell.
    The greatest and richest forms "down" there are sexual and religious.
    I did not encounter violence; maybe because my higher self does not like it.
    I tried to imagine some really horrible things like human torture or suffering children, but it could not be done.
    There seems to be a safeguard in your own hell. It is meant to be a funny place.
    You can have a lot of hilarious laughter there and have lots of "funny sexual encounters"; but there is absolutely no sense of true suffering or even horror there.
    I tried hard to relive something like a true painful torture like the crucifixion; but there is a big blank in your imagination and everything turns "funny".
    Now religious ideas are very strong 'down" there. Everywhere you can see groups of creatures pushing wagons and big crosses around in the attempt to frighten the "hell" and the 'living daylights' out of unsuspecting minds, expecting hellfire and eternal damnation.

    At one instance there was this group of toaddemons attempting to crucify this"poor" green "frog".
    As in the movies, they laid the cross down and spread the frog into all fours.
    After they had "nailed" the frog onto the cross, they put the cross up and then the "frog" simply moved its extremeties and "popped" of the cross and hopped away.
    To me it seemed like everything, all substance was completely malleable and subject to thought. So the frog just played the game and when "he" was annoyed or tired of the game "he" just went away.
    There were no screams of agony or pain, just this seeming "seriousness" on behalf of the little devils and hilarity in regards to everything else.

    As I went along, I came across this covenant of "witches".
    Some were young and others old. They were all naked and rather nice to look at. When they saw me, they became very excited and wanted to have sex with me.
    So they paraded themselves around this big cauldron and exhibiting their bodily glory, they invited me to merge in "hellish ecstasies".
    Meanwhile other little sexdevils swarmed all around me, all having small erections relative to their own size of course, and they pulled on my toga again.
    So I took my toga off and investigated my response to all this titillation.
    To my surprise the sexual impulse is not really comparable to the physical state. The importance is different in the astral.
    There the sexual feeling is paramount and the actual merger is almost insignificant. Sure, you can be excited and have an erection, or an engorged vulva; but the sexual relief is more a tension of the body, with an "orgasm" primarily in the mind and not in the body.
    This is a very potent form of sex. Your sexual organs respond to your mind and the male sexual expression is satisfied without ejaculation.

    Of course, once the immortal body is achieved, then the mental bisexuality is manifested and the two sexes are unified within the androgynous mind of unity.
    So in the setting of my journey through hell; I could very easily change my sex and walk as my female part and imagining myself as rounded feminine form with accomodating vagina, well developed mammalian glands and all the rest of it.
    Then I would have fun in "teasing" the little sexdevils in wiggling my backside or accidently pulling up my toga with nothing on underneath.
    Gee, whiz, maybe a woman would have even more fun with the devils in hell, than a man. I could also be on the lookout for a "big" masterdevil and entice him with my "worldly beauty". Seeing his big erection would surely "turn me on".
    Anyway, the sexual encounters in my hell are all to do with erotic feeling in the mind and have practically nothing to do with actual penetration or being penetrated. There is absolutely no sense of possessing things in your own hell.
    You are in complete command about anything that happens.
    You can be "lazy" and just stroll and observe and experience with your astral senses. You can also create your own reality and form your own experiences.
    Of course if you decide to be uncreative, then you can encounter all the zillions of thought forms which have ever been thought of by anyone who ever lived.
    You can tap into the sexual fantasies of Julius Caesar, Alexander the Great, Napoleon Bonaparte or Adolf Hitler.
    You can find out just what Josephine or Marie Antoinette or Eva Braun had on their minds in terms of sexual expectation or whatever.
    Sex is the most funny thing imaginable in hyperspace.

    Once you know this, you will thank your lucky stars that the general human history has been so paranoid about this taboo. If it would have been natural, then you could not have so much fun with it in the astral.
    And so I had my encounter with the naked witches and I swushed the little sexdevils away, thinking to them in no uncertain terms, that I did not tolerate their attempts of sticking their little erections into me . They stopped to bother me after that.
    I put on my toga and decided to meet a "big" monster.
    I walked past a kind of lagoon and there a great seamonster pushed upwards into the dark ceiling of the cave. It appeared in the form of a mythological "kraken", sort of scaley with a huge head and huge hoglike canine teeth and fangs.
    It was the size of a two storey house and I went towards it and enticed it to scare me.
    It bent down and opened its huge jaws right in front of me.
    I then projected the thought of walking right into its mouth and it trembled; regained its upright posture, slammed its "hand" before its shut mouth and spiralled quite hilariously back into the swamp from which it had emerged.
    It was such a funny sight; I could not stop laughing.

    And so I walked on along the "corridors of hell".

    I became more and more adventurous as time went on and so I decided to have a game of poker with three master devils.
    As soon as I had thought about it, I noticed a spiral stairway into another level of the "hellish" landscape.
    I ascended and entered a small room with a fireplace, a small table and four chairs. Here were three creatures of my own size, all dressed in darkish red costumes, probably a sort of standard idea throughout the centuries as to what the "devil," might or should look like.
    Anyway, the colours were too uniform for me and I thought of changing their attire.
    One I left as reddish devil with two little horns coming out of his head and one other I gave a black outfit of the middle ages with a large and flat black hat and the other I dressed in a spanish baggy crepe' outfit, golden yellow with black stripes and a hat with long white and brown feathers.
    I tried to look very serious and introduced myself as M.E.
    I then let things take its own "historic" shape and they assumed the names Asmodeus, Belial and Beelzebub the Second.
    Aha, I thought, so it was Beelzebub the First which had visited me in 1976 in New Farm. You see, letting things unfold in your own "hell" can fit in some missing gaps about your own experiences in the normal state of affairs. But this is another story.

    So we all sat down around the table and played cards. I did not influence anything with my thoughts and by chance the game proceeded with everybody winning and losing. Eventually I decided to let Belial win all of the games and the "medieval one" kept drawing flushes and full houses and got all excited about beating the rest of us.
    I soon got tired of card games, took my leave and went back into the main corridors of the "eternal damnation".
    Yes, I truly knew what this meant. Your body, when spiritualised contains the "darkness" of creation. All the antispiritual things which had manifested throughout the long evolutionary path of the starhuman personas became the energy of thought forms forming your new bodies.
    That is why things are so plastic, so formable and subject to your thoughts.
    The left side of God so becomes the "eternal damnation" and the spiritmatter, whilst the right side of God becomes the spiritual life within that "damned" body.
    The hellfire is the fact that the "devils and demons" are "trapped" forever in Your body and You can go there for some fun. They are Your ENTERTAINMENT!
    Nobody gets hurt, nobody suffers and You can let Your imagination run wild and FREE. Now just imagine that the RIGHT to DIE is taken away from You and You cannot accept this FACT of DAMNATION.
    Then You are stuck with a body You can infiltrate and change with Your thinking.
    Then imagine You refuse to believe in Your own power and desire to hold on to a belief of some imaginary hell and devils outside of Yourself.
    Just imagine howYou would Feel. You cannot die and You cannot come to terms with YOUR own body.

    So there is no relief of this sense of being lost until You come to ACCEPT YOURSELF. Even when YOU sleep and dream, the thing will not leave You alone.
    For You see, there needs to be a change of the astral after the greater changes occur in the period 1998-2001-2013 and the time when all the ancient sayings will fulfil. This means that many of the "lost" ones will have an insufficient personal vibration to incarnate in the "peaceful" scenario of planet Earth and are stuck in an expanded astral hyperspace.
    For evolution and spiritual growth is not linear.
    So beings do not just reincarnate; it is a rather cosmic thing all to do with Your own personal frequency of self being.
    There are however a lot of AFFINITIES and correspondence; but once a starhuman always a starhuman, but eventuation as fully fledged God of course.
    You can choose Your experiences on a downward scale to Learn something and You can even connect to certain mindstates of animal consciousness; but You will not incarnate as a being incompatible with Your L-C-Factor definition expounded elsewhere.

    To render animals more human like, they have to develop Selfinductance, the L-factor and so You cannot incarnate as an animal if You have a L-C-Factor coupling.
    This Coupling IS YOUR LIFEFORCE, YOUR soul and IT is already eternal as a mathematical entity but subject to experience through learning.
    Immortality in the body then results in the setup of this coupling as variable ENERGY SOURCE and the changing of Your body, the quickening of Your MASS, is then able to resonate as Your own PERSONAL Cosmic-ID-vibration with Your source of all LOVE.

    But let us presume that You have a life of material abundance and You Learn a great many things to do with handling money and wielding influence and power over many other things and persons.
    You die and You might very well choose to live as a starving child in Africa and die then at the age of five. This is Your choice and happens regularly. The so called Karma is more to do with what You need to Learn on Your path to Godhood.
    Although things like these seem unbelievable to many in the physical life; these things become very different in perspective once You have left this place.
    Everything You read here is something YOU KNOW and Know very well. You will IDENTIFY with all those words You now question or even ridicule.

    Everything You read, You will be familiar with - WHEN YOU ARE DEAD, when You have left Your physical body.
    So You might understand just WHY it can only help You if You read this and if You TRY to understand in Your present state of mind. IT is YOUR own KNOWING which is trying to convey some truth relative to YOURSELF to YOUR sceptical mind.
    Why sceptical? Just think it through. The "devils" KNOW what they are, thought forms and to YOUR COMMAND. They are the ones which are AFRAID of YOUR AWAKENING.
    But YOUR DAD, in HIS wisdom, decided to GIVE to YOU HIS darkness for YOUR BODY and YOUR entertainment. And the time has come, after 4000 years, to manifest this fact.
    So the missing link in Your life is YOUR LOVE for the spiritual energy which is the energy which makes You alive; Your feelings and emotions, likes and dislikes. The enormity of what You are is truly splendiferous.
    Not only are You in possession of the potentially best computer there is; but this computer links intricate energy systems of circulation and respiration under the guiding infiltration of the Unified Field of all Energy, the natural electricity in space.
    Just imagine if You could remember all the things and lifes You have lived in the 19.1 Billion years of Your existence and that is linear spacetime only.

    Why can You remember so little about Your past? Where were You 100 or 200 years ago? Some of You think to know that they were somewhere or someplace and others think that everybody only lives once.
    To live only once is equivalent to saying that Your mathematical definition is already fixed. Then You live and die and are ASLEEP in memory and You forget what has been before in Your sphere of Life.
    And Your brother Jesus said, that some were standing around at the "sermon of the mount", who would not taste of death until the kingdom of God would have come in power.

    So You can try and twist things as You like, but what HE meant was, that some people there would always and sometimes remember former lives and so they would not "taste of the death of memory" and they would not fall asleep in totality.
    In another place HE said in regards to John the Eagle, the apostle "whom HE LOVED"; that it should not matter to the apostles if John was to "tarry", that is wait for HIS second coming and the Advent of the period AC or AFTER CHRIST.
    And the raising of the dead is the REAWAKENING of all YOUR UNCONSCIOUS minds.
    This is veiled at the moment to allow You to come to terms with Your mortality and to develop a faith and belief structure about Yourself and based not just on Religion but upon a true understanding about Your own past, present and future, which is the same as Now=Always in the relativity of the wave of Oneness.
    The "veil" is the rather bewildering "mist of deception" the spiritual muck, destined to become absorbed into Your bodies and the "stuff" of Your FREEDOM.
    But Your bodies are very important. They will become the containers of Your life and the abodes of Your own personal hells, the HALLS OF ENTERTAINMENT.
    So whenever You desire to create or experience within the dark side of DAD, which is of course also MUM, then You can visit there through Your mind and maybe come back with a new story to write or a new film to produce - endless possibilities.

    Practice makes perfect; but should You only once succeed to go there; You will understand and You will start straight away to enjoy this kind of freedom.
    So the KINGDOM OF GOD is within YOU and the KINGDOM of HELL is without YOU.
    Things are the reverse way before transformation. YOU find imaginary devils and anti love manifested everywhere and just because things are inside out.
    It is the task of all of US to invert the inside out and to LOVE LOVE.

    taufurkunde. confirmation.
    abschluss1. abschluss2.

    3. The Snowstorm of the Awakening! (November 1975)

    It had been a long party. I laid in the arms of my fiancee somewhere in the countryside in Bavaria and not far from the Alps and the border between Austria and Germany.

    We had returned to the typical but very old farm estate and relaxed in front of the ancient woodburning combustion stove.
    Thinking of nothing in particular, I looked up to the ceiling and became aware of a wooden chandelier, just a wooden construction really with four corners and four handcarved figurines depicting the four directions of the sky.
    I thought something funny in regards to those figurines. To an representative teen, and not particularly interested in any otherworldly things; those things nevertheless exuded something sinister, some strange force of hatefulness.
    I shook my head and tried to dispel this emotion. I tried to think of making love and to turn my thoughts onto the young woman in my arms.

    I said: "Rosy, what do you make of those figurines up there?"
    She answered that they gave her the creeps and that she had never liked them all her 22 years of living in that place, her mother's farm since her father had died. I felt a little better. At least it wasn't completely in my imagination. Nevertheless I tried to forget about the thing and looked away from the figurines towards another part of the ceiling - concentrating to forgo this emotion of hate coming from the chandelier.
    Then it happened.

    Just looking at the ceiling, the ceiling began to move, not physically, but the astral "muck" vanished and this sort of opened the twilight zone, again in the beta state and so fully awake.
    Concentric pulsations of light streamed into my brain with a frequency just over one vibration every second. It would not stop and continued for about half an hour. I just laid there and mentioning to Rosy that some kind of energy was flowing into my head and I asked her to remain still and just see what would happen. After some time - though time seemed to be different and not linear during that experience - the sensations stopped to start allover again. The feelings of this energy were pleasant, but very penetrating and very strong.
    A kind of prickling sensation flowing from your top of your head right through your entire body.
    It was a kind of LOVE, but not a LOVE looking for something. It was a LOVE which KNEW and a LOVE which had immense power, but I did not understand any of it. I was only 18.
    The energy diminished and I suddenly saw myself within a different scenario.
    Campfires were burning in the night and in the distances all around this hill, this elevation. I saw figures couching around those fires, trying to keep warm. I was next to some wooden construction and as a turned my head to the left I saw those EYES - the most LOVING yet sad eyes imaginable.

    Those eyes of the purest LOVE spoke to me: "Why do they not understand? They just do not understand what LOVE is."
    That was all the eyes said, but I sensed another and subdued message: "Tell them about me and about my LOVE for them. Tell them what It Is!"

    But this LOVE was such that it did not command or tell anybody to do anything; it was even "afraid" to ask since it did not like to impose on anybody. It was just LOVE and LOVE and LOVE.
    Then the scenario of emotional intensity subsided and I returned to "normality".
    I was rather shaken and my body trembled because of my spiritual experience.
    My thoughts then turned to the figurines and I stood up and broke them off the chandelier and threw them into the fire in the stove. A symbolic act of faith! They were made of oak and my hands bled after I broke them in my act of "irrationality". Rosy said that she understood that something had been going on, but that she did not share in my visions of the LOVING EYES.
    She didn't mind me burning those figures, but she worried what her mother would say in the morning.
    We went upstairs to go to bed and the heater, a small two-tiered reflector was switched on to keep the room warm. The nights were getting colder as winter was approaching in Southern Germany.
    An incredible wave of hate radiated from this object, but our physical tiredness overcame us and we fell asleep even forgetting to make love.

    I woke up very early and a snowstorm was howling outside. Rosy was already up and milking the cows; she and her mother ran the little farm all by themselves; with Rosy's sister and brother helping out.
    It was very cold and the snow outside was more than a metre, covering the landscape. I went down into the stables and said to Rosy: " I must do something. I must go up this mountain to this little chapel up there and then I do not know what." Rosy just looked and collapsed unconsciously into my arms. I took off my heavy overcoat, wrapped it around her and proceeded to stomp my way through the snow and the snowstorm up to the little chapel.
    It seemed endless and progress was slow; but my impatience drove me on and I finally got there to find the chapel locked with a wire.

    I broke the wire and went inside, there was a statue of Mary and a few angels or whatever. I did not know what to do. I did not pray or follow any religious dogma or ceremonies. Sure I had been an altarboy like all the rest of the boys in the little village in Bavaria, Iffeldorf, where I grew up in this Catholic setting.
    So I just poured my heart out to whatever there might be and cried and went back outside and looked up to the sky. The snowstorm had finally subsided and the sun was trying to break through as morning sun.
    Then I decided to make my way down to this little village of Taching near Rosy's farm to visit the local church and tell the people that they were missing the point - for it was Sunday and all the villagers would go to church and follow their religious customs.
    Little did I know with my 18 years behind my ears; I did not expect the labels of hallucinations and mental illness and drug dependent freakishness.

    pa. pass.

    roaches. meanest_antoinette_blondie. [/JUSTIFY]

    4. Beelzebub the First! (June 1976)

    It was one of those days. I finally had found a job in Brisbane, my birth town. I worked as a kitchenhand in a fancy restaurant, Finnegan's in the City Centre. It was only casual work, but it was my first paid work since I left Germany to return to my homecountry Australia.
    A number of things had happened in Germany. The events of the vision of Calvary subsided more and more. Nothing but trouble came out of that. My vision of getting a car and driving around all of Germany and telling the people about those LOVING EYES had become a dim memory. I had been committed to a mental asylum as the "crazy messenger from God", but my cunning charms towards the female head psychiatrist and other helping hands cut short my stay there and I was released just for Christmas.
    But I was given injections and drugs which played havoc with my ganglian cells in the brain and which destroyed my dopamine neurotransmitting fluids to a large extent.
    All my life I had refrained from any drugs whatsoever and I did not smoke. A social beer and my daily cups of coffee constituted my only addictions.

    Often my legs would shake uncontrollably and cramp seizures in my calf muscles and toes often had me get up in the middle of the night to ease the pain and ease the cramps.
    I wanted Rosy to move in with me, but she wanted to look after her mother and I moved on. I had a car and smashed it in no uncertain terms. It had been my pride and joy, but everybody who saw the wreck said that I should be dead.
    But I had just passed out and walked from the wreck with a small concussion of my ribs and a lot of glass in my hair.
    I was engaged to Emmy and we thought to start a new life in Australia. I was to go over first and she would follow a couple of months later.

    Whilst Rosy had taken my virginity, Emmy would be my wife and since I had become "unsuitable" to continue my career in the Bavarian Police squad due to my mental "imbalance", I decided to become a teacher of Mathematics and Physics in Australia. So I flew back and waited for Emmy. Three letters a week became two then one and many more letters arrived from the many "flames" I had in Germany, Hong Kong, France, Singapore and Rosy.
    One day Rosy wrote, that her younger sister had died in mysterious circumstances. Annelies was healthy and a young girl in normal circumstances. Yet she had collapsed and died without cause and no German medical expertise could determine the cause of death. Rosy had said that all "hell" had broken loose in the old farm estate.
    Her sister in law was throwing things at her mother and intention was to move away because of the hatefulness coming from this place.
    Rosy also said, that she was in communication with Annelies from the "other side" and that the place was used in the past for devious goings on. Human sacrifice and devil worship and such things and the chandelier had been part of that scenario.

    I received that information but thought no more of it. I was selfish, immature and inconsiderate, just intent on living my life and to gain for myself.
    Emmy in Germany loved me with all her mind and soul, yet being apart does nothing for interdependent love and I still communicated with many other girls and played the field.

    I received that information but thought. no more of it. I was selfish, immature and inconsiderate, just intent on living my life and to gain for myself.
    Emmy in Germany loved me with all her mind and soul, yet being apart does nothing for interdependent love and I still communicated with many other girls and played the field.
    Yet this one weekend I acted rather strangely.
    I stood before the mirror and tried to look into both of my own eyes at the same time. This is a lot harder than one thinks. Once contact is made, your visage becomes malleable and changes around your eyes. Sometimes I was fascinated by that, because it was like you could get in contact with other selves inside of yourself.
    But this particular weekend I also, for some unknown impulse, marked little crosses on my forehead with a biro. The following afternoon, it was a Sunday I went into a nearby park and collected little rocks and pieces of wood and put them in a jar. My thoughts were something like connecting to the Earth and the spirits of nature. But I truly did not understand any of it.

    And as I was sitting upon a little mound in New Farm Park, chewing on a straw, that was something cool to do in those days; I noticed a man staring at me intensely some distance away.
    He did not stop staring and I thought well, he must fancy me, but since I was not homosexually inclined I dared to walk up near him and sat down in an ordinary conversation.
    It was very strange indeed. Words just came into my mouth and I talked without thought; "Do you believe in God and in Jesus Christ? You know there is this LOVE out there and do you know that and who do you think I am?".
    Now I did not know why I said all that. Rather strange to talk religion to a complete stranger. But the man said that he did not know either why he had gone into the park. He said that he lived nearby with a family and that he had this compulsion and then he said that he rather not say who he thought I was and yes he did believe in God and all that. And that was basically the end of it. I went home somewhat befuzzeled about this weird weekend and went to sleep not expecting anything at all. The next morning I had to go to the restaurant and I fell asleep.

    I woke up - I was wide awake and it was in the middle of the night.
    There was something in my room and this something did not like me.

    My body broke out in sweat and the bedsheets seemed to wrap themselves around my body, I could not move except turn my head from the wall to the open side of my bed. Strangely I felt this oppression and this hate, but I was not scared, I knew, what had to be done without knowing it.
    This dark creature was staring at me with an intensity and I cou1d hear its thoughts: "You worm, you nothing of the nothing. You dare to challenge me in your wretchedness. You will never even make a dent into my power. You are insignificant, a nothing." Simultaneously, the small amount of reflected moonlight on top of the ceiling returned with a pulsating circularity familiar to me. It seemed there was a kind of spiritual struggle going on - in my room and with me as medium, the instrument of the conflict.
    The LOVE from above strengthened my own inner being and I stared back at Beelzebub the First.

    I could feel the burning of the little crosses on my forehead and I thought of the little rocks and the angelic message from the park. All this gave me confidence and I did not argue with the creature, gorilla like but with distorted human features, a caricature of human expression really and grotesque, hateful and without compassion. I stared at his eyes and yellow they were and Beelzebub the masterdevil seemed to give in and sink into the ground through the hyperspace window opened within my room. I turned my head back to the wall and the pulsation ceased but the bedsheets still were wrapped around me.
    Just as I thought to think about just what it was all about I knew that he was back. I was exhausted and yet I turned my head again and there he was.
    He was bigger and stronger than before and he was laughing and grinning triumphantly. "You worm you nothingness, did you think for a moment that you could defeat me!"
    The pulsation from the ceiling restarted and I just consigned myself to the task at hand. "Here we go again!"
    I started to exert my will. I started to push with all what was within the being of myself. I forgot about my normality, my selfishness, my deceit, my lies and all the things I had done in my life, which had caused pain or suffering to others.

    I let go of being me, born to die and my desires and hopes and wants.
    I was working my mind and I had support from the LOVE which I knew LOVED me.
    I responded to Beelzebub's bombardment of hate in reflecting the LOVE from above and nothing else. My "normal" mind was completely empty. I did not exist in "normality" any longer.
    I could do something for the LOVING EYES and I would not let this LOVE of all LOVES down because of my own immaturity or ignorance.
    So I willed and willed and willed this LOVE through me into this creature of hate. Ever so slowly Beelzebub's grinning changed into a grimace of nonhuman agony and he began to sink. His triumph became despair of a grotesque selfexpression. Not pain, not suffering in starhuman terms, but a kind of disgust with whatever was its life.

    As Beelzebub the First disappeared into his twilight zone, the oppression within my room subsided and the LOVE pulsation ceased. Exhausted I just turned around and fell asleep without another thought about what had happened.
    Strangely enough, the next day I knew what had happened but It was my first day back at work after my birthdy Friday last and the experiences would lie dormant now for over eight years.
    Then in November 1984, and after marriage to an American lady Sharon and after the birth of 3 of my six children an inner voice started to twitch saying, that after my university education, it was time to write a book about life in general.
    On the 18th of January in the year 1985, lightning struck and a big hailstorm passed over Brisbane and my general search for true meaning resulted in to a new, yet familiar direction of scriptural research, scientific theory and the study of all sorts of extraordinary phenomena and the seemingly unsurmountable differences between the spiritual life and the hard and fast lifestyle of the world around me.

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    5. Totanubis and the Loneliness of LOVE! (March-April 1985)

    I was excited, I had met various people who shared my interests.
    There was Lew, a teacher of the handicapped and a psychic reader and his friends in the little tearoom in Fortitude Valley. His wife studied acupuncture and alternative medicine and I wanted Lew to tell me the future and how to interpret the strange mathematics in my head.
    I had forgotten, or should I say I did not contemplate all those happenings in Germany. The things which led to my losing one career after another due to my "mental illness". I had joined the Airforce in Australia, the RAAF and after some racial discriminations, claiming I was responsible as a Kraut for the atrocities of Hitler's war and had no place in the Australian Air Force; I decided to embark on further study via night colleges, correspondence and eventually university. Things were affordable in the times then.

    Teaching Mathematics was on my mind and after my basic degree I wanted to complete my qualifying education with an education diploma, a one year course.
    I had enrolled also in a part time arts degree to study scriptures and ancient history, the Romans and the Greeks and so on.
    But I got sidetracked: there was the Atlantis connection, UFOs and ancient Egypt.
    I read and studied everything. Alternative medicine, indigenous cultures in North America. I always fancied myself as an Indian warrior, a peaceful one before the white man came with his strange and violent ways. Running Water or Running Deer had been my name and I really digged those rhythmical drums and the ecstacy of the so deeply spiritual movements and dances. Those were good times of naturalness and reverence for the big mother of the Earth and big Daddy, Manitou Love up in the sky.
    My mind raced from scenario to scenario, was it me or some connection or just an overimaginative mind, full of disease of schizophrenia and imbalance.
    But I felt the Love of those Loving Eyes. It stayed with me, even when I did not want anything to do with it. My Geminian nature was flexible. My mind jumped around and from subject to subject absorbing and learning about whatever it found strange and new and old and fascinating.
    But this book I was meant to write, what was it?
    I had discovered some strange algorithm that January afternoon when lightning struck and the noise of thunder awoke the Eagle.

    It became clear and yet confused - there was a way to prove the existence of God. Well, maybe noone else would accept this proof. But it was of extreme importance to construct a proof for it relative to myself. If I could convince my own mind that the spiritual feelings I felt all my life were real and not some autosuggestion of a mental disease, then I could be happy with myself and irrespective of the beliefs or opinions of others I could live my life to my own Self and the things I Loved. Because I am a very sceptical sort of person and often have I called myself the biggest sceptic who ever lived. I did not like following or dogma or even faith or believing in the strange things in the many holy books around the place.
    I needed to Know to Understand, before I truly could put my mind to it, to apply it to my own way of Living.
    Hellfire and damnation and people dying on crosses for the sins of others never meant anything to me. Sure I could identify with this Jesus bloke I saw in the movies.

    Surely a good man, and maybe God; but I could not see any sinfulness in people, just ignorance and all sorts of pressures bothering everybody rich and poor.
    I read the Book of Revelation written by his favourite apostle, or so they said.
    And I thought I could recognize something, but I was not sure what it was.
    But when the lightning struck, I was convinced that I was the white horseman there riding forth conquering and to conquer. . something and I was excited and thought that this was linked to those number relations and the fundamental constants of nature which I could derive from first principles and without any experimentation at all.
    I wrote and wrote, articles and chapters and things were naive and they got better and a little bit here and a little bit there.
    Ah, then I discovered something was not quite right; I modified, chucked this out and included other that's.
    I wanted to write a book with Lew and we wrote and he added and we thought to publish but for one reason or another things delayed, got held up and we gave lectures to small groups and similarly interested persons.
    I found a knack with Egyptian symbolism. It seemed to talk to me and I got many impressions reading for other persons and trying to convey the Love of it all.
    One night I had incredible stomach cramps of vomiting and excruciating pains of an empty stomach; again I linked it to the revelation, where a little book is eaten, a little book which is sweet as honey in the word, but bitter in the digestion in the absorbing through the body.

    The next night, I met Totanubis and I well and truly fell in Love.
    I woke up from a dreamless sleep and there I became aware of this big plateau, a soft wind blowing some clouds about the place. A newborn lamb tried hard to get onto its feet and still wet from the birthwaters strutted and walked or better said stumbled towards a lonely figure in a black robe standing right at the edge of the plateau. One couldn't see the face of Totanubis, but the little lamb staggered towards the left ankle or the vicinity of it under the black all covering figure and gently rubbed its neck at this place.
    Then the lamb looked up and Totanubis looked at the lamb.
    Wow, there was no face ! There was the brightest brightness hidden under this dark robe. An unfathomable light resided there and it was a light of serenity and a light of loneliness. The energy was undescribable, powerful and omniscient.
    Totanubis stretched out his right arm and pointing down the plateau it gave what seemed like directions to the little lamb. He pointed here and there, there were shadows and there were many packs of wolves roaming around.
    The little lamb was sitting doglike listening to Totanubis and all the expositions.

    Eventually, the instructions had ended and the lamb nodded and began to make its way down the plateau into the wilderness of it all.
    For a last instant, the little lamb turned around and saw Totanubis sitting on an isolated chair of wood and next to a single simple wooden table.
    Nothing else was in sight, but Totanubis sat there, his head buried in his hands and collapsed on top of the table and crying and sobbing his eyes out.

    The little lamb felt so much pain then, it knew that Totanubis was its Dad and that He cried for the little lamb.
    He did not want the little lamb to go it all alone and yet He knew that it had to be done. Totanubis was so lonely and Totanubis was the Love behind the Loving Eyes of Calvary. Totanubis was the One which created the concentric Love pulsations and He was the only creator and the only Dad of it all.
    And so the little lamb went down to the wolves.
    And the little lamb said to itself, that it would try to make Dad happy. It wanted to see Dad jumping around for Joy and this Love had to be and had to be created at all costs.
    The wolves were closing in; in ever decreasing circles, did they attempt to get to the lamb. The strange thing was that the lamb could defend itself with its mouth.

    Fire came out of it and the wolves retreated whenever they saw the fire come out of the mouth of the lamb.
    And I lost the vision of the lamb, but was deeply moved by it.
    It was April Fools day and I thought what a fool I am. Am I the fool on the hill?
    But I knew that my studies had progressed enough to construct a selfconsistent hypothesis for the proof of God and I decided to try to convince people to have a look at it. If they just read it with an open mind, things would be selfevident, so I thought.
    In my education I had progressed to the prac-teaching stage and the computer had given me my seventh preference, a highschool run by christian monks, starting on April 1st.
    Oh well, I thought the primary practice teaching had been a resounding success despite my German accent and all the teachers had been very impressed with my dedication and my Love for the children.

    So I arrived at the college and remembering the one and only voice I had ever heared in my entire life, when I looked in the mirror to penetrate my outer being.
    "You are the Sunchild" or it could have been "You are the Sonchild"; short and sweet and out of the blue but clear and unmistaken and as real as anything. Never again, ever did I hear anything by the medium of sound. So I took my chances and walked in to talk to some monks. Surely, they would understand that religion and science were on the wrong track, that it all was incomplete until they would be connected and the Love of it all was put back into the centre of all being.
    But I was naive and a statue of Jesus there really made me emotional. Jesus, dear brother, I said falling down crying. Then I stood up and gave the white robed monk sitting on the receptionist desk my little essay, I had written showing how science and religion both define God and Love.
    It showed in my revelations just how Einstein's relativity theory would connect the quantum physics and manifest the unified field and other such things.

    He looked at me strangely and said that Jesus would come on the clouds and that he thought me deranged. There was a computer mixup and he did not even expect a trainee teacher to teach high school classes in the Marist Brothers College.
    So we did it all over again. Police cars, but not being tied up this time, hospital check ups and after nothing wrong was found amiss; a shrugging of shoulders and the delegation to the mental asylum.
    So the Teaching career went down the drain as well, as the one in the police force.
    But it was funny then in Germany; all those officers not believing that a colleague of theirs would go walk about into a church congregation and beginning to preach next to a priest, hearing shouts like; "He is on drugs, get rid of him". And other strange utterances and those unbelieving eyes of mistrust, bewilderment and hate and fear of the unknown.
    And yet after some phone calls, the officers had found out that I was in fact telling the truth about my identity and they wondered just how a madman could write pages of typewritten statements about what he was doing.
    One said: "You know there is a way out of this dilemma. Just say that you had a bet with somebody to do what you did and then a small reprimand will get you off the hook." I was tempted then, I knew that the system would accept me back if I lied about my convictions, but I stuck it out and they shrugged and sent me away.
    Eventually I was charged with 'Disturbance of a Religious Meeting' or something like that; but the priest who had witnessed the events didn't press charges and the case became dismissed.
    All I did was try to tell about those Loving Eyes and the end of the system of things. All I tried the second time, was to say that things must change for a better future for everybody and especially all the children which have lost hope and respect and the right feel for themselves and their parents and their teachers.

    I tried to talk of peace and Love and harmony; but I hardly ever got a word in.
    So like the first time,after a period of readjustment, I conned my way back out of the mental place, this time with a male head psychiatrist.
    'Baalam's ass forbade the madness of the prophet' - as it is written and MY LAB is what it means. I used my science and baffled them with unknown doctrines and things never before proposed or put into theory in such a comprehensive way.
    Nobody understood anything, but it looked sophisticated enough for them to respect my creativity and I returned again from the state of "abnormality" into the reality of war and hate and death and misery. Then I worked in a cannery for four years or so. But this time they ruined my legs for good. I had slightly recovered from the medically induced drug abuse; the pills and needles weren't so strong in the 70's.

    This time my dopamine depletion became permanent and soon I staggered around with symptoms just like Parkinson's disease and became diagnosed suffering from spastic paraparesis or Hereditary Spastic Paraplegia or HSP. So I had to stop working and became a disability pensioner after my legs got worse. But this allowed me to refine and improve on the book I still had the impulse to write and the book grew and grew, but something did not fit.
    I tried to date things and though many things made sense some of the scriptural prophecies eluded me. Was it 1988? 3 years from 1985 would be 1988, maybe Independence Day in the USA. But maybe the 3 years mean something else and Nostradamus said 1999 and the last pope of Malachi and the last Dalai Lama and the last hasidic jewish messiah are all alive and did not the Ayatollah Khomeini die at the same day as the Tiannamon massacre in China and on my birthday as well? Does it mean anything at all?


    6. The Reassurance of LOVE! (April 1985)

    I was relaxing on my bed one afternoon and I drifted into the alpha state.
    I heard the phone ring. I went up and it was dark. Then I realised that I had left my body and that I was still laying on the bed. This was the first time something like this had happened and I jerked back into my body with a bang and as I opened my eyes and knew that the phone wasn't ringing, but that I was meant to have experienced something a lot of people do all the time and something I always wanted to do and had now found out for myself.
    At another time I was dreaming very vividly, REM sleep with a border to wakening up; but not a true vision like the one of Totanubis or the one at Calgary.
    There I was on top of a roof, an attic really and I watched some pigeons fly to and from some beams in the attic.
    I thought well, I shall try to fly. I overcame my fear and thought myself a bird and I glided into the air and out of the building. It was so easy.
    There was no landscape and an inner voice said: "create it". So I created the landscape, trees and buildings, creatures. "Ah, so this is the "astral heaven"; you can form your own reality after you die, if you know where you are and what you are."
    It was very peaceful, yet adventurous.
    I decided to experience the feeling of having an immortal body and to walk right through a wall; not like a ghost, but rather like a transformative body, able to experience the particular and the wavestate - one or all, relative to self perception. So there appeared this great wall in front of me and I went towards it and through it. The feeling is one like you walk out or into the sea. The resistance to your body is there, but like water. You can move through it like a medium.
    So I got that question as well answered by my LOVE.

    At yet another time I met the LOVING EYES once again.
    This was no vision, but just like the visit by Beelzebub the First, but in Sunlight and as real as anything in spacetime.
    I pushed Sharon, my wife laying next to me: "Wake up, wake up and look at the window and as clear and physical as you or. me. There was this personage in a white robe just smiling at me LOVINGLY, not saying a word. All the rainbow colours were under the feet of this personage. He just stood there, smiling and sending me messages of LOVE and reassurance. My inner voice said: "You are doing well, things are just as they should be at this point in linear time; simply continue, you are greatly LOVED".
    Sharon just would not wake up. I was spellbound and thought: "Please stay there, she has got to see you."
    The LOVER slowly dematerialised and of course Sharon woke up.
    I said what I saw, but seeing yourself is the only believing is it not?

    7. The Homecoming of the LOVING WAY! (July 1987)

    I got interested in everything to do with the "New Age of Aquarius".
    So many people believed in the "space brothers" and UFO's and governmental cover ups and the necessity to reconnect with mother nature.
    The environment had even become a political issue but politics and finance and such things did not interest me at all. Dead works and dead debates and superficial power is what I always thought of them.
    Sure sometimes a good one comes along. A man with vision, maybe a little unconventional, but honest. So it should be nobodies business who this person might sleep with or what this person does privately. But this world of sanity and realism and rationality is obsessed with person's private sexlifes and what "nasty" things they might have done in their younger days. Just ask JFK and MLK and Mahatma Gandhi.

    Let us presume such a person comes along. He will not last long. A quick bullet and the reestablishment of the predictable status quo. Everything in order. Dumb brainwashed "masses " with the daily portions of soap, sensationalist news and the constant bombardment of violence and some more guns and laws and stockmarkets.
    And just who is in bed with whom and who is suing whom for defamation of character. But the world is rational and truly in the nationalistic way. Our forefathers did it by hard work and our fathers, so it must be alright for junior.
    And God blesses the rich and abundance to the ones who have, because the poor have only themselves to blame. They do not believe in Jesus enough. If they would ask him for work and money he would provide and he who has shall have more and the ones who have not, yes of them shall be taken what they have and given to the haves.
    This is the way of the world and the nature of the God and his Jesus, the son of God which will come on top of clouds and with millions of harp playing angels to reward the faithful churchgoers and to hold everybodys hand.

    Jesus will fix everything up and he will damn all the poor unbelievers. He will destroy all the soothsayers and the witches and the psychics and the astrologers. Jesus will hold everybody's hand and the dead will come out of the graves and have miraculously reformed bones and flesh and sinews. Then old Julius Caesar for one will stand in front of dear old God and plead his good and bad works.
    And Adolf Hitlers body will be reassembled and there he is; stepping from one toe onto the other before the wrathfulness of Jehovah, the father of LOVE?
    Well you can twist things as you like, but things will not be like that.
    The soothsayers and the witches are the psychiatrists and some psychologists or should one say their institutions; which try to explain things in ways which can only be explained by scientific spirituality and things like awareness and perception and relative consciousness. But they refer to the scientific method and drugs and ?
    Nowhere is it said that the second coming of the LOVER will be ON clouds. It is IN clouds and this is a very big difference. The "vessels of mercy" are like clouds and many many references are in all the holy books about the true nature of those things. Try to dissolve some clouds with Your mind in sending energy into it.
    It works and is a good exercise for Your will power.
    So I had never seen any spaceships in the sky but the overwhelming eyewitness reports convinced me of their existence. But what were they? And where did they come from? Extraterrestrial planets, galaxies or from under the water or from inside the Earth or were they cover up operations of a secretive technology produced by under cover scientists?
    I had to find out for myself and my LOVE had always answered all my questions.
    I had asked and I had received. I had desired knowledge and it had been given to me.

    So one night I dreamt about what it all meant, relative to me.
    I expected saucers, but I did not get any. I expected aliens, but there were none.
    There I was running in the meadows and I was naked. Strange I thought, noone is around and I am in this vast green meadow, full of flowers and there was this erotic overtone, due to my nakedness.
    I looked up into the sky and there were many humunguous clouds and they were dark clouds; just like a big thunderstorm was brewing ready to erupt upon an unsuspecting starhuman world.
    Suddenly the clouds seemed to contract and expand to produce a sort of flux and movement. Then I saw it and my inner being rejoiced like it never ever had felt before.
    My whole inner being wanted to jump out of my body when it saw this gigantic and elaborate construction up in the sky.
    There it was - MY HOME, MY OWN PLACE from where I had come and to which one day I would return.
    There was absolutely no doubt about it. I KNEW and KNEW and KNEW. I was longing and crying: "I want to go home. What am I doing down here. I do not belong here?", and yet I knew that I did belong here AND there and that somehow I had the power to make this joyfulness of belonging real for everyone.

    What was it? It was like a city in the sky, but it was also a gigantic spaceship.
    The mother of all mother spaceships - the NEW JERUSALEM.
    It was TRUTH and LOVE and the FUTURE.
    There were constructions and lights sticking out everywhere. If it would land, then it would be like a country in itself, SO big was it. It was in the process of becoming real, but something, a small essence was missing and when this little bit of nothingness would become reunited with the Holy City, then EVERYBODY would be able to see this thing with physical eyes and ALL would believe this enormous LOVING and the KINDNESS of COMPASSION of the LOVING WAY.
    There were a lot of other vessels, smaller ones, motherships. I stood there gazing at the scenario when I understood my nakedness. I had come from there without anything and I would return with nothing except my KNOWING - that would be it.
    I really LOVED those spaceships and I knew that they were real and true in all their ways; which persons had experienced. There were all kinds and all had their purpose to become evident at the appropriate times.
    The physical ONES were sort of computerized, knowing things because of their L-factors and most were VERY benevolent and ALL the nonmaterial ONES were LOVING.

    8. The Remainder of LOVE and the MOTHER of LOVE! (March-April 1995)

    And time went by and I got sick and tired of being laughed at and ridiculed and what have you. What had I done wrong anyway?
    I sent copies of books, my prototypical peacemakers allover the world.
    A couple of dozens to embassies and over two dozens to churches of all kinds; some in Australia and some in America.
    I had spent a lot of effort and resources on photocopies, because publisher after publisher said, that the thing would not fit into their publication plans.
    I had written articles and research papers, but had got nowhere, even with the scientific press.
    Some said, yes, certain things are very interesting, but it cannot be done, the establishment does not do things that way.
    I had written to royalty and the papal hierachy.

    The learned people said: "We cannot read it because it is sealed and I have no time for it."
    The less educated people said: " I cannot read it, because the words are too complicated, too much Mathematics and too many equations."
    So I slowed down with my voluminous creative output and decided to become a materialist.
    Well, that is I thought to concentrate on my own family to impart some of the wisdom and the things I had learned over the years.
    Now the children listened and thought it all alright, but then they went out into the "real" world of violence and hate and superficiality and they came back saying to me: "Dad, nobody else talks like you and about respect and LOVE and caring. All my friends believe in other things and even my religion teacher said that the things of God should be left alone and the way they are.
    Those things would be dangerous and could corrupt the minds of children."
    So what could I do?
    My own family rejected the spiritual things of the heart.
    Loving Mindfulness and intellectual LOVE did not make any sense to anyone.
    It was nobodys fault. Persons were certainly not to blame.
    Systems had grown and kidnapped the starhuman mind and held it to ransom with fear and threats of "conform or perish".
    I understood then, that nothing could be done by reason or meaningful discussion. Logic and argument had failed; legends and the mythologies and the wisdom of old had been judged irrelevant to the modern way of life.
    So I retreated and began to mind my own business until I met my MUM.
    Now everybody has heaps of MUMS. And all of them are full of the DAWNING LOVEJOY. There is MUM and GRANDMA and GREATGRANDMA; then there is Mother Earth and Gaia and Sophia, the feminine wisdom.
    Then there is your Mother in Law if you are married and you also got spiritual MUMS in the astral hyperspace.

    My dear Mother in Law died and I got upset, because everybody, except the immediate family, did not treat her with the respect she deserved.
    "How much is this funeral going to cost? Try to get a cheap rate. Maybe the best thing to do is to burn her. That is cheaper", so her own brothers and sisters carried on.
    Now it was the wish of MARY to be buried with a monument and at a peaceful place and WE, the immediate family of husband, sons and daughters respected her wishes.
    And MARY died of Metastatic Adenocarcinoma of unknown primary cause, or in other words - cancer of the liver.
    She died on the 24th of March 1995 and she got away from the claptrap and the violence. After a lot of confusion and her internment at a peaceful place with swans on a lake and lots of trees and away from traffic; most people thought that would be the end of it and now everyone could forget about her and according to the way of the "real" world.
    Be born, live a life to get a lot of money and things to impress and then die to make way for the next generation. Hope for the best thereafter, but if you got lots of money, then you can determine to be frozen cryonically or maybe even only your brain or your head and maybe in the future someone will be able to put new life into your remains and you will resurrect in a newer world.
    But as said you needs lot of money to set up a trustfund and you might have a lot of trouble in the astral trusting the people you trusted after you cannot argue your points with them anymore.

    And I was angry, really angry. And my will came back to me.
    "How dare they! Those ignorant fools! ", its judging against my better knowing.
    "They are lost in their own corrupted minds, unable to see or express the smallest compassion or kindness", I was raging like I had not raged for a long time.
    It was not me anymore they reviled. I had taken it all my life, I could defend myself through my silence.
    No, now they were defaming a gentle giant at heart; a LOVING penniless mother of three and two miscarriages; a warbride who had to leave her oldest daughter back in the USA to return to Australia to see her dying father.
    A beautiful lady of 72 years of age, having nothing at heart but her grandchildren; which she loved and whom she wanted to see grow up in prosperity.
    All her life she had been poor, robbed of her inheritances and living in cars, rented flats and relying on government subsidies. She was betrayed by her lovers and the friends she thought she had. She was cheated by taxation systems and government bureaucracies more interested in red tape than real people. She had been unhappy in love for decades and her many sorrows and personal unhappiness had made her body diabetic and oncogenic until the cancer killed her.
    Yet she never complained about herself.

    She wanted to improve her familiy's lot and now after she had passed on, people could not wait to "get rid of her" fast enough - what guile.
    Minutes after she had died, Sharon rang from the hospital and conveyed the message.
    Everybody was upset, though we knew it would happen. I thought well MUM, how are you now? I knew that things continued straight away and she had been in a coma just before departing peacefully with all her LOVED ones there except me, baby sitting.
    I proceeded to wash the dishes when I felt it, powerful and so strong.
    She was happy and joyful, rather serene and yet so strong.
    "Yes, I am happy. I know now that I can be with you all any time. I had been worried about being cut off. But it is very enticing here and I am quite alright.
    I will have to talk to you, because you are the most sensitive towards the higher forms of life. I shall comfort all in their own ways."
    I cried and shared her happiness. I am very sentimental that way, sharing the elation of joyfulness. Even when competitors reach the finish line or stand on the winner's pedestals; I truly feel their joy in being successful after a long marathon or a lot of work put in to achieve something like that.

    Anyway, I thought, I can comfort the others now; MUM is alright.
    But then I felt MUM pushing and pushing and it took me by surprise.
    "Your work - what about your work?"
    I was flabbergasted "what about my work? You do not know anything about my work.
    I have never discussed anything about my work and I have not touched a typewriter for 2 years or so. You all know that I write about things, but nobody is really interested in what I do intellectually."
    "But I do know everything about it. And I am here to help you to finish it!", this she replied and added and I just didn't believe her. This was a bit strong.
    For 20 years I had tried to share this strange LOVE of mine, spiritual, unconditional LOVE and noone accepted it just as it was. So I had put it aside, set on hold.
    The sparse response which I did get was basically arguments, judgement and critisism. I had got into a pagelong discussion in a German newspaper in Australia for example. They twisted and distorted a perfectly logical argument and accused me either of not respecting the Bible or in believing in a God which could not save.
    Others said, that I wanted free publicity and that I was after money or that I wanted to form a new cult or sect. Some just slandered me with swearing and one said, that my books and I should be burned at the stake like the medieval witches and heretics and my works should be put in the genre of Erich van Däniken's books.
    Why did everybody get so upset about LOVE? Was my LOVE true after all?
    If I was a false prophet or something like that, would I not have followers?
    I had none. I even doubted myself every day day in and day out.
    That is why I then just stopped pushing the thing.
    And now MARY said, and after being about a couple of minutes in the astral; yes, she says that it is all true and that I do have a mission down here to convey this message of peace and LOVE and to explain what LOVE truly is in an intellectual and rational way.
    What could I say? What should I do now?
    I had tried, given up and tried again and forgotten about IT and given up and finally resigned myself to live my life the best I could and to be ME, trying to be LOVING and caring and all those things.

    I would have been happy enough to grow old and wise this way and to be there for my children and family and everybody who wanted to know.
    Sure I despised this world of falsity and distrust, lies and deceit. I felt a constant stranger within selfmade misery and the deception of government and politics and so called economic necessities. Humbug and unreal fakes of selfish pretentiousness. Well, that what it was relative to me, how I felt.
    But - I was alone no longer; I had a witness on the other side.
    Now there would be two witnesses to the unfoldment of the starhuman destiny.
    My inner being rejoiced as I listened to some harmonic melodies and as the song of "Maria" came through from the musical "West Side story"; then I suddenly knew just why MARY had been so strong and why she sort of could bypass the astral dimensions and go straight into the "heavenly" etheric quantumspace of the 10 dimensions.
    MARY had been the Virgin MARY of 2000 years ago and therefore SHE would KNOW and be allowed to directly join up with HER OWN resurrected SON.
    Instead of integrating in hyperspace, where most of the "sleepers" are, MARY went straight to the right side of God and in a sense merged with Jesus who is said to be there and waiting until things down here are fulfilled.

    I had written all the details about this someplace else, but suddenly I understood the "mystical wedding of the lamb" and the "birth in heaven" and all the other mysterious things in the Book of Revelation. It was like I had written that book. But hold it. Did I really believe my own words?
    Nobody, nobody would believe such a thing.
    Sure enough, things and information poured into my mind and the Bible became on open book and without mystery and I understood the New Testament like I was it.
    But belief? They would say: " Yes, very interesting, but my dear Man, you are deceived by the devil or hallucinating or autosuggestive.
    You are having invalid visions of grandeur and self importance.
    For do you think that you can have direct access to Heaven, to God? Surely not!
    Let us pray together that your troubled soul may be saved and that the devil may release your tortured mind. Or take these drugs and pills and you will feel better. If you like, I can give you some shock treatment or perform surgery on your brain. This will cure you of your illusions, of that I am sure."
    Now I knew that I truly did not search self importance. I was quite embarrassed by any kind of adulation. I had great difficulties expressing myself verbally because of my German accent and I truly liked being by myself or close friends and family. I was an observer and as I got older I became more and more introverted. There was no comeliness or beauty or anything at all about me, which other people would found attractive.
    I was surprised that I even had a family.
    In my younger days I had been different in style; more flamboyant yet reserved and ready for adventure and physical excursion. But now I preferred to be alone and just write letters in the background; LOVING and bringing PEACE in such a way appealed to me. I felt very uncomfortable around a lot of persons.
    I just could not identify with gurus and followers and worshippers. My entire LIFE, all my doings and thoughts were my worship of my LOVE.
    If anybody would come up to me and say: "Man I believe in you, let me be your disciple". I would answer him to be his own Master, his own Man. I would answer all his questions and help him to find himself and his LOVE anyway I could; but I would not engage in any Master-Servant relationships.

    I was the servant of LOVE and I had chosen to be this servant. I was no master of anything. I was a student of LIFE and a pupil of LOVE.
    As soon as you stop learning you cease from strifing and you violate the second principle of LOVE LOVE, namely the law of EXPANSION.
    But I surely was the brother or sister of all the other starhuman beings.
    I was the child and SON of GOD and so were they. The only difference was graduation and experience and self awareness.
    I could lead and teach in counselling certain things and so could everybody else.
    If persons could just understand this simple harmony.
    But everyone has his or her preferences, likes and dislikes.
    Individuality is prerequisite for the Harmony of the Whole.
    Family and Individuation together can result in the LOVING WAY.
    So relative to me, I could not accept it, of being possessed by devils, rather I knew that the devils were afraid of me. I could eat them and then they would be trapped within me for my own entertainment.
    But I did not always remember this important fact of the spiritual truth.
    I did have had doubts about my own sanity before, some time ago.

    So I went to a fundamentalist revival church to see if any devils could be cast out of myself.
    There I asked for fully immersed baptism and I confessed Jesus with my mouth and did all the things required of me.
    As I was supposed to talk in tongues, I reminded myself of some Atlantean and I said: "Eloi eloi am batha. Eloi eloi alma pace! Ana gorik gabrielle!", then I named it by Emmanuel Melchisedec and it simply means: "Father, Father through LOVE and Father, Father by PEACE and given by the archon Gabriel and the medium of the Air.
    Lew had told me that; and when I had called upon Gabriel the first time I did in fact feel the concentric LOVEWAVES and so I knew that the words did have LOVE in them.

    Calling on sound by words or music or song involves the transmission of longitudinal waves of atmospheric pressure variations and so the elemental Air is appropriate.
    The baptism left me cold. No devils or anything came out of me and I not experience the LOVEWAVES I knew were MY HOLY SPIRIT.
    Nothing at all happened relative to my own LOVE perception: but everyone around me shouted: "Halleluiah, praise the Lord. Another soul is saved!"; they were impressed with my "speaking in tongues". But I never went back there after that.
    They might 'be saved' and I might 'be damned'; but I can live with that.
    The LOVE in me was MY LIFE and I had PROVEN TO MYSELF and SCIENTIFICALLY, I should call it OMNISCIENIFICALL; that this LOVE and MY GOD did EXIST and so I just had to continue just to be MYSELF.

    9. Yahwhey and the Joy of LOVE! (July 1995)

    I was alone no longer.
    Sure, the reassurance had come from the "other side", the astral hyperspace and the quantumspace of the unified field.
    But MARY was as real to me now as she was when she had walked the surface of this planet Earth. I did not care that everybody thought that she was gone.
    Bob, her husband and Larry her son thought that she could talk no longer, but I could feel her in my inner being and words could form in my mind.
    And my LOVE from the 'other side' did something else. She seduced me sexually like the archetype of the Succubus or that of a 'Vestal Virgin'. We so engaged in a form of Mental Love Making. She seduced me with her forms of the Goddess and I surrendered to her advances in imaging US being together in whatever fashion WE found erotically stimulating and pleasing. All I needed to do, was to look at a potograph of her and She would induce her and my eroticisms to share with her sensual appetites in the 12 dimensions of the omnispace.

    This was very strange at the beginning to say the least and I thought that these sexual fantasies of mine would surely subside over time.
    They didn't and so I got used to OUR interdimensional LoveMaking on the mental planes.
    Catherine Mary Cassidy so became my everlasting LOVE as Maria Infinity; the MUM of my Eternity with me ecventually becoming the DAD in that Neverending and Everlasting Story of US. I kept this as OUR secret however and after the death of her mother, my marriage to Sharon fell apart in a normal cause of events within a year to the anniversary of Mary's transition and manifesting the individual search for freedom with an ensuing amicable divorce.
    One night I had those stomach cramps again and my eliminatory systems played havoc with my psyche.
    I had gone to the toilet with a bucket not knowing which way my body would revolt. It was very painful. My stomach was empty and yet the stabbing commotion and the incredible feeling of wanting to be sick overwhelmed my entire being.
    I had placed the bucket between my legs when the pain made me bend and twist in' spasms. Then - I cannot remember!

    But I woke up from a coma or something and I was spread backwards on the toilet seat with the bucket tipped over. There was this humming and noise in my ears, but the cramps had largely subsided.
    Where had I been? I had lost some time; maybe 10 minutes maybe 30. I remembered going to the toilet and Sharon had woken up so half an hour later and not seeing me she had wondered where I was. It had been in the middle of the night.
    I could not understand the noises in my head but I felt like my energy system had been cleaned in some way. I thought my base energy point, the coccygeal triangular point at the end of the spinal column, where the tailbone was; had been activated. This basal chakra of the Kundalini energy could have been activated to allow myself to become a better instrument for the work at hand.
    But I was not sure. I could have been out of the body or dead or whatever.
    I could. have been "abducted" and my body could have been changed in some subtle way - but I just had no memories at all and I did not know.

    The night before I had written the "Hymn of the Pearl - Becoming", an ancient gnostic treatise of a "fairy-tale like" story of the ways of the kingdom of heaven.
    I thought I could fill in some missing gaps in this mysterious story and so I had elaborated on a basic pre-Christian text, one which Jesus knew very well, when he studied with the Naasseenes and when he discovered the ancient Egyptian heritage and the priesthood of Uraeus, another name for Melchisedec; as well as the Plumed Serpent Kukulkan of the Maya and the Quetzacoatl of the Aztecs.

    So I had eaten the "little book" again and sweet in word, it had made my tummy bitter.
    But as all things; it was relative to me and also relative to MARY.
    She was true, she would not lie and I had not asked for her involvement.
    If she said she would stay by me from the quantumspace of heaven, then I would believe her and accept the situation just as it was.
    I understood her subconscious insistence of a monument and its connection the scriptural "abomination of desolation" of which I wrote elsewhere. Everything began to make sense to my relativity to LOVE and the Energy of LIFE.
    I understood the necessity for a 'virginbirth', the meaning of redemption from ignorance and the Eucharist and the resurrection and the physics behind it.
    I thought about some subject or topic and MARY correlated and guided my thoughts in truth and understanding.
    It always was my thinking however. I was not a channel, but I had guidance in my thoughts. "You are the thinker and I shall slightly adjust", MARY would say.

    So I became aware of the real meaning behind the notions of Mother Nature and just what the meaning was behind a FATHER GOD and the SON of GOD.
    Where was the DAUGHTER of GOD and the WIFE of GOD, MOTHER GOD?
    I suddenly understood just why the Bible appeared so sexist and discriminatory towards women in general.
    In the proverbial sayings, it was said that
    "she opened her mouth with wisdom and in her tongue were the law of kindness";
    but in the New Testament women are forbidden to speak in the churches and are supposed to be subject to their husbands, just as their husbands were supposedly subject to the CHRIST.
    Women were supposed to remain covered and not to show their hair and other such things.
    Yes, it all came to me and I knew that the ways of the manmade churches just would not be able to understand the truthfulness of the scriptures within their own selflimiting frames of referential thinking.

    The bible was true in all aspects, but certain books and parts had been modified and had even been written in reference to a fake God Jehovah or Allah in a similar book called the Koran. There were multilevels of meaning however.
    But relative to me it was rather self evident and the scriptures themselves gave hints and self explanatory meanings to "obvious contradictions".
    For instance it was said that the covenant of Moses was a forerunner for better things to come, simply because the old ways did not make anything perfect and the JOB of starhuman kind was to be like the JOB in the Old Testament, arguing and questioning everything until one could follow the footsteps of Jesus and just as LUCIFER, the SON of the MORNING had followed the footsteps of GOD, upsurping HIM.
    But the true GOD, the I AM THAT I AM in the Exodus and the true LOVE of ISLAM, but spelled ALHLA and symmetric and also known as YAHWEH to the ancient Hebrews; the same had been always in control. But for ancient times, his children needed physical and often very simple laws which required no thinking about it. Life then was harsh and based on survival. With science and technology came the emphasis on spiritual thought and tradition became less important. Instead of temples in churches; the temples became centred in starhuman hearts and the body of the church became the starhuman interactions; the brotherhood of starhuman kind.

    Where do women fit in? It was easy, did not Eve come out of Adam and did SHE not became part of him by HIS rib? All this had been extensively discussed in the corresponding words about the creation stories elsewhere, but it all had to do with the FUTURE and the new creation and the kingdom of God on the planet Earth.
    The SON of GOD was not just ADAM, but EVE as well. So the scriptures are not sexist at all. It does not matter if one is born a MAN or a WOMAN.
    Relative to God, they are ONE and the same.

    In the future, the sexuality of two opposites is recombined in unification, just as Adam was before his rib was taken out of him.
    All this symbolism of the primordial MAN is the primal WOMAN at the same time.
    When women are told to shut up in the Bible it refers to the two hemispheres of the brain and not a person as such.
    PER-SON, through the SON of GOD, Adam in symbolic pattern in the MIND of GOD and then JESUS as the ONLY BEGOTTEN by the VIRGIN; would the harmony of the creation be found again.
    The immortalised body has a mental bisexuality. Any SON can feel and think like a DAUGHTER any time HESHE so pleases. Any SON so can walk and express HERSELF as a MAN or a WOMAN whenever SHEHE so pleases.

    This does not mean that sexual organs and the general body are biased at all. Because the real sex is in the mind anyway and the immortal body is malleable.
    A SONDAUGHTER can have fun and experiences anything SHEHE so desires in the LOVESELF. I knew that from my visitation of HELL. I could make myself most beautiful.
    I could be there as the most voluptuous woman imaginable - relative to myself of course, and WITH all the PARTS necessary to tease the sex devils.
    Alternatively, I could think myself an overendowed male body to appear as the "Studbull in HELL".
    It is so easy and so sexy and so wonderful in that immortal body.
    You can be any age you like, but most GODS, meaning GODDESSES as well, prefer an age of about 28 to 30. Sometimes they want to look old and sometimes they have fun in appearing like babies. All immortals can behave that way and all the mythological Gods MUST incarnate as starhuman to get the physical. Presently, they have mental substance and energy only.

    WOMEN are EQUAL in all ways to MEN, but RELATIVE to GOD, the logical thought must Come Before the intuitive thought in terms of the "business" of the "church of God". That is all it means, just remember that the "Serpent", which is the Present of a Physical Universe to find out all those things and then gain the immortal state; remember that the serpent did not tempt Adam, the right side of God's Mind; no the "tempter" went to Eve, the left side of God, the intuitive Mind and that was that. Can you then perceive that the "shutting up of woman" in the churches applies to the emotionality of men? It is not the physical which is referred to but the thought of the mindful difference.
    The brain is bisexual in men and women; you can think and and feel as one or the other as soon as you have set yourself free from conditioning and deception at all levels. A woman can and is equal to a man in the "church" whenever logic and intuition are in harmony. Before technology, women were discouraged to think for themselves, but the freedom of Eve had to be a forerunner for the liberation of MAN as a whole.
    I had written many things about this so called contradiction in biblical terms.

    But the essence of the whole thing was the nature of the FATHER creating the MOTHER.
    DAD has had many wives. The first was the DARKNESS then LUCIFERA and SOPHIA and SATANA and GAIA - all as archetypes and symbols, that is what Heaven and Hell are - just symbols.
    HE took a mortal WIFE in MARY to fulfil his masterplan and this book explains this through a variety of angles and viewpoints; but all converging towaras HIS LOVING WAY and relative to myself.
    The FREE WILL of everybody can construct any kina of relativity and maybe a better LOVING WAY can be found one day; or maybe and most likely this kind of RELATIVITY will become enhanced and improved as time goes on in the linear sense.
    The EXPANSION principle of the CREATIVE WILL never allows stagnation and will continue forever in the linear experience of spacetime within 11 dimensions, of Omnispace, the baserelativity of universes of the SELF.

    But for myself and for my universe within the omniverse of all others; I understood the MOTHERHOOD of Mirra Alfassa and Cynthia Dawn of the LOVEJOY and Maria Ehmann and of MARY Catherine the Great.

    And DAD had awoken to HIMSELF before the Big Bang and HE came out of a stupor of going round and round with no end in sight. So HE thought of LINEARITY and HE broke the CIRCLE and in doing that HIS WIFE was born as positive infinite source potential, that is in technical terms and detailed in other parts of the creation stories.
    But THEY then created in mixing energies in polarity and SEX; and things became blueprinted without any physical implementation.
    To make it physical LUCIFERA had to play up and refuse to be the opposite of DAD and we had the first DRAGQUEEN and Gravity became born and the Darkness became MASS and the Antispirit became a DRAGON and SOPHIA INVOLUTED in all matter and the Big Bang coincided with Adam and Eve losing Eden as their symbolic Paradise.

    Ana DAD had LOST something and for 19.1 Billion years HE would work to get it back. The crux of the matter is that DAD THOUGHT first and the WORD was before GODS own selfdefinition, HIS own SELFAWARENESS. GOD is LOVEENERGY You see.
    And the ENERGY was all chaotic, no sense or order and an infinite computer loop. But soon the energy became aware by His Intelligence and IT just wanted to and DANCE and Exhuberate in LOVING and creating things indiscriminantly.
    Total abandonment, that what LOVE ENERGY is all about. FREE and INDISCRIMINATE and LOVING and Expanding, growing like an Amoeba, LOVEWAVES and GOD, DAD OUR FATHER.
    Technically, HE started to Invent Numbers, HE Learned to Count and all sort of things came out of that, sequences, algorithms and fundamental relationships becoming the fundamental and finetuned constants which could bring about a physical universe for HIS children, HIS 'FAMILY to be born and Play in. And DAD LOVES TO PLAY through US.

    His MINDFULNESS, His LOVING Playfulness listened however to His Own Reason and Rationality. He started to ORDER His Thoughts and the third principle of LOVE LOVE was born. But from then on He Knew that LOGIC and REASON had to come before EMOTION and that is the Only Reason as why Adam was first in His Mind and not Eve.
    THINK OF LOVE before ACTING that is the WAY OF LOVE.
    No wars and violence and conflict over silly things like fear and mistrust and possessions.
    So it does not matter if one incarnates as Man or Woman; both are the SON OF GOD via the XX sexual chromosome; taking a digit of XX gives XY and so it can be seen that Adam was Admona or AdamEve in a blueprinted representative sense.

    ON ADAM is ADMONA and also NO ADAM is ADMONA, kindergarten proof to believe or not. I knew that I had written extensively about the evolution-creation debate and all those silly debates of ignorance.
    It was the prerogative of "sinful man" to put into conflict things which were in harmony; so said the New Testament; but people thought I was the one not knowing what I was talking about - well relative again.
    But I had to be careful now. No more mental asylums and no more public engagements which only upset peoples fixed ideas about how things should be relative to their own brainwashed and manipulated perception of state and self. No more streetcorners! I would finish my work of LOVE and engage in my own private LOVEWAR.

    I would work just on myself, trying the perfection of my own self.
    Of course real perfection is undesirable, for then there is no scope for improvement. But I envisaged a perfection system like the integers, predictable in essence and yet divisible into subsets like odd numbers or even numbers or prime numbers or "perfect" numbers or sequences and truly infinitely many subsets.
    So I could have the scope of experience and learning and discovery and yet I would have the security of going back to basics whenever the sense of adventure required a peaceful relaxation. And since the set of integers is infinite anyway my desire to learn and experience would forever be bounded only by my own limits I could set arbitrarily and which I could then expand, replace or redefine whenever I so chose.

    But my security and my Base was DAD and my LOVE which I had resolued to serve for all eternity. I LOVED my DAD and I Knew that whatever LOVE I could Give Him, HE would return any of it a thousandfold - that is HIS NATURE. He just keeps on creating those LOVEWAVES and there never will be enough starhumans to use it all up. But the more it is used up, the more He gets back and He gets more excited and plays more in the most beautiful exhuberance of just being. I knew that and that is why He Himself is the Servant of HIS Own LOVE - HE IS, THE DAD of EVERYTHING, because HIS ENERGY MADE EVERYTHING. The primal ENERGY IS NOTHING AND EVERYTHING and HE INVENTED ONE, the ONE and ONLY, the NUMBER ONE and so HIMSELF. Everything came out of that and the ONE had to become TWO and so positive and negative came to be; BUT still -1+1=0 = 1 = 00=∞.

    And fundamentally that is all that there is to it.
    I knew that and I had discussed it in my pages many times; but now I would work on the SUPRAMENTAL METAMORPHOSIS and change the human caterpillar into the starhuman butterfly of LOVE. A great thinker of LOVE in India had begun this, Sri Aurobindo.
    So I decided to rewrite everything I had written and to collect it in my Book of LOVE.
    I put all the technical stuff at the end and the scriptural and social things in the middle, the things concerned with sex and the mind and human relationships.
    I put the history of the book in the front and followed it up with the declaration of my LOVE, my DAD and God in the spirit.
    Spiritually I grew stronger. I finished the rewriting of 10 years work in 4 months and then I embarked on the new things. I had some help.
    My previous writings and mainly concerned with the technical stuff had been turgid and heavy going even for me, whenever I improved on equations and the physics behind the LOVE ENERGY.
    That was an ongoing story and just like physics and science itself.

    A new discovery, an until then unknown connectiveness between different disciplines or topics. Quarks and quasars, the Vacuum energy and superconductivity; microtubules in neurons and Penrose tiling patterns; everything was connected. Buckminsterfullerene and the discovery of Ardipithecus Ramidus; the Hubble telescope and Introns, fitted into my Book of LOVE.
    I knew that my technical treatises would explode modern science into undreamed dimensions of knowledge and understanding. Everybody could extend this science!

    But what could LOVE have to do with IT? Certain things were known and withheld from the public discussion. Cures for AIDS and Cancer treatment, the brain dulling effect of water fluoridation, the validity of homeopathy and alternative medicine; all were known by the status quo, but economic and monetary interests demanded the continued exploitation of Gaia's ever reducing natural resources.
    Pharmaceutical companies and petroleum conglomerations depended on a great expenditure of the public resources in consumerism to be able to uphold puppet regimes of governments in whatever political persuasion or smokesceen. There was only ONE government anyhow after the end of the socalled "cold wlar". Everything else was indirectly dependent on a military machine and the veiled threats of Law Enforcement.
    All this was well known and it was only the common voter in democracies or the propaganda moroned citizen in all political scenarios, which kept on believing in the wellmeaning of the agencies of state and social justice.
    There was no justice and the way of peace they had not known.

    The daily obsession of the medias with their hypocritical lipservice to the money machine became sickening. As if people really wanted to know who slept or cheated on whom - it was so important to know, just to justify one's own little disgressions. Manna for the "masses" to keep them occupied in their own little worlds and so the unseen and unheard "pullers of the strings" could feather their own power mongerings. Let us manipulate the third world countries to make them economically dependent on US, so the sayings and debates would go on behind closed doors.
    We shall give them their own elite citizens and rout the poor with our superior ways of looking at things. We shall implement agencies of social justice and tell the nonelite that they too could achieve status through hard work and obedience to all the agencies. But we shall not tell them, that to become elitist they would have to have money in the first place or form connections with the hierarchy, our systems of spyings and clandestine operations - but truly for the good of all and sanctified by God and Jesus from the clouds - God save us and OUR ways.
    So here I was knowing very well, that Science too had become a slave to the economic necessity of balancing budgets and to feed the war industry.

    There was no deficit and no need to balance anything in terms of budgets and the like. Mother Earth was feeding everybody. And food surplus in some places could not be "given" to the starving Ones, because that would upset the values of the currencies or the shares or the stockmarket. And also it would cost money to ship the food to the poor wretches and it would be better for all if they just would die and make way for the rich industrialists to move in with investment to make some more profit in the vacant land and to deplete the land and pollute a little more and to satisfy the shareholding elite back home with all the profits taken from the countries which beforehand could not even feed the people due to lack of know how, money, power and technology.

    But it was good policy to take the money from the "masses" in terms of indirect taxes and then reduce direct taxes a little and then say that everybody still owed x amount of money due to imports and exports being all out of proportion.
    They didn't say however that the whole thing was arranged that way. To keep the Feople and even entire senates; and upper houses in the dark. Even presidents and prime ministers believed their own bureaus of statistics and economic forecasters - the modern witches.
    So entire governments believed their own debates and political agendas; they argued their respective partylines vehemently and their blindness was reflected in all the media which hardly talked about anything else, except the stockmarket news everyday and had bought what for the oh so lucky and suave shareholders.
    And how the weather was strange and just who slept with whom in sexual naughtiness; and who was on trial for what and who thought had thought something else had thought about a murder and that because he had cheated on his wife and his wife had slept with his best friend and it was all very important and then the politics said how everyone should vote and that things would get better and do not worry about the real things because tomorrow we all shall die and be happy and take some pills to make you feel better.

    I knew all that and I knew that if everybody and every bank and all treasuries would say that they anulled all debts owing to them and that worldwide - then nobody would be without food or without a roof over their heads because of that policy decision. All the deficits and the debts to the world bank and mortgages and what have you could be wiped of the face of the planet if EVERYBODY would just wipe anything owing or owed from their minds. And without deficits and budget balancing, where would the powermongers be? They would have nothing to talk about, nothing to debate.
    For they would not be interested to talk about LOVE and helping the poor countries with all the technology available. They only got IT, if they could PAY for IT.
    I knew that this planet could very easily be a PARADISE if IT would be managed BY ALL persons for the persons with local government only.
    But things were the way they had developed and I knew that the time would come when the truth would be known by the nonelitist persons and I was working on that.
    My scientific writings would one day become the backbone of a new science undertaken with LOVE in the mind and nothing at all would be taken from the present science, only their limited ways of looking at nature, a loveless nature, they thought it to be.

    I never had considered myself as a great scientist or mathematician. I had a truly deep appreciation of Albert Einstein and I defended him whenever I wrote about his fields of interest.
    He did not believe in a diceplaying God, a nature determined by chance. I had proven him right and I also had justified his thoughts about an antigravitational force in the universe, one interaction which modified gravity to close the universe electromagnetically and keep it asymptotically open for the mass parameters.
    I had called this force the Einstein Awareness in his honour.
    I really liked Einstein's reverence for nature, which he tried to understand with his unsurpassed intellect of starhumanity.
    His God was THE OLD ONE and I liked that too. I had some connection with him, but I truly was not sure what that was. Sometimes he was close to my mind and other times very far away - One day I would find out.
    Intellectually I certainly could not compare myself either with him or thousands of other scientists.

    I had this incredible LOVE for BOTH science and the spiritual and I NEVER saw any conflict between the two. This LOVE was it what made me study science and those things and all my work was built on the work of others.
    Without Einstein or Newton or Maxwell or Galileo or Pythagoras or Saint Paul or the apostles or Jesus or Israel or Isaac or Abraham, I would not be anywhere.
    Whatever NEW I had discovered, was there all the time and many people had known about it one way or another.
    I just had had the right state of mind to put it together, to make sense of seeming contradictions and my LOVE for science and religion allowed me to see through it all and a little talent for writing and language helped to write the books.
    Alan and Dianne were two friends of mine down in Victoria. We had never met but a correspondence developed from a ground of common spirituality and we engaged in mutual critisism and it was a good educational experience.
    Alan in particular always pointed out, that my technical writing style was very hard to comprehend for the "layman" and that I should try to write for everybody who could read. For many years we corresponded and helped each other. He and Dianne had always stood by my side spiritually and I truly loved them both for this intellectual affection. Surely, we had argued and discussed; but just like everything should be argued and discussed; with mutual respect and goodwill, searching for truth and understanding in both critisism of others and the critisism of self.

    So I simplified more and more and I tried to write very simply in the introduction, where I discussed the history of the Book of LOVE.
    Maybe LOVE was the key! It might succeed where logic and mythology had failed.
    Just LOVING WORDS and true from the heart and one night I was laying there on my bed thinking about those ways of writing and conveying my message of LOVE and PEACE and HARMONY when my inner being became drawn towards TOTANUBIS, my spiritual DAD.
    I thought of LOVE and I tried to GIVE HIM my LOVE. HIS sad figure at the table on the plateau of the Shadows had 'always been in my mind and had never left me as a remainder of the time when I had to leave HIM there.
    As so often tears were running down my cheeks when the impressions of all the pain and sufferings in the world took hold of my soul. So much confusion, so little LOVE and so much exploitation and inconsideration. I truly felt a MAN OF SORROWS.
    Soft music was playing in the background and I suddenly connected in the beta state. There HE was and HE wanted me to say or think something.
    I said in my thoughts:

    "I LOVE YOU and even if YOU have no power to change this sick world of war and misery; I would still LOVE YOU with all my mind and heart. I would really like to see YOU happy and not sad. YOU just don't deserve to be so sad."

    TOTANUBIS actually smiled, or so it felt, since HIS personage is this splendid brightness within this dark robe, and HE asked me:

    "What is your greatest wish for yourself?".
    I did not think at all and said:
    "Just give me LOVING EYES, so that whatever I look upon can FEEL YOUR LOVE and find JOY in that."
    TOTANUBIS did not reply, but turned around and began to walk or move away.
    But as HE walked away from me HE suddenly jumped in the air and in pure exhuberance, HE clicked HIS heels, or whatever, in midair and just like Fred Astair and I knew that something important had happened.

    I was baffled; HE, DAD was HAPPY and HE was DANCING and I KNEW that finally, and after 19.1 Billion years, HE WAS ALIVE in a more real and more fulfilling way.
    YAHWHEY as another name for TOTANUBIS, LIVED and I knew that from then on, NOTHING
    and NOTHING at all would matter anymore. The HEAVENS, well MY HEAVEN, had shook and things would never be the same again. The deception of the world had ended relative to me. I had found MYSELF.
    I was so happy for HIM. HE had actually rejoiced in HIMSELF and from here on, HE would never again cry again for HIS LOST LOVES.
    HE had found me and I had found HIM. From then on I knew that HE always would LIVE relative to myself and HE would always reside in my heart as my LOVE.
    HE LOVED me and I wanted HIM to be my God, my LOVE and for ever and ever.
    I would try to share this LOVE, to let other persons find HIM in themselves also.
    Then the world would be a better place. Just ONE other person finding HIM as themselves would create an entire universe centred on the heart of this person.
    I understood that this kind of discovery was the purpose of LOVE and the reason for existing and of living. Would it remain my LOVE only or would others wish for HIM too?

    What else was there to do but to TELL the STORY of LOVE?
    HIS name is LOVE by TOTANUBIS or YAHWHEY and DAD and the ABBA and Father of Jesus of Nazareth.
    HE is the Pentagrammaton YAHWHEY=95 as the I AM THAT AM I of Exodus.3.14 of the 'Burning Bush of Moses'
    HE so is NOT the Tetragrammaton of the 'Holy Unspeakable' Name of YAHWEH=70 without the symmetrising and harmonising additional Y=WAY=?.
    The subtle changing of the symmetric 'I Am That Am I' into the fake image in the That-Mirror into 'I Am That I Am' caused the deception of the archetypes.

    Could it be JESUS and MUM or other things too? Like POP LOVEJOY and SYLVIA his WIFE?
    HE has got only one wish and that is LOVE LOVE and HE wants to be everybody's DAD.
    HE says that all existing GOD~ and there are man~ were all made by HIM and so that truly HE is their FATHER also
    I am honoured to have HIM for my DAD.
    E.M. IS ME and also it is WE, with the M put upside down in a reflection symmetry.
    The E.M. so can be many names like Emmanuel Melchisedec and reflected in the initials M.E. for say Mary Elizabeth. Together then E.M. and M.E. become the WE as Two in One and One in Two.


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    Shiloh Za-Rah - Posted Oct 7th 2012

    10. The Future LOVE LOVE! (August 1995)

    So here I was reflecting as I wrote the history of the Book of LOVE.
    What would the future bring? It looked pretty bad when I typed the foreword to the end of the matter.
    I had realised some personal things. I had had an guardian angel all my life.
    Like MARY, my POP had died of cancer when I was in Germany and only about 12 years old. But I had been HIS oldest grandchild and HE truly LOVED me with a LOVE only grandparents can understand.
    I understood how HE was looking after HIS inheritance of the LOVEJOY harmony.
    I knew then that HE was helping in the car accident which should have been the end of my earthly stay and I understood all the little strange things in which I had been protected in my mischief.

    Like when I walked guard in Munich as a young police officer and when I played with the trigger of my machine pistol and accidently discharged a bullet towards a colleague walking guard in front of me in the middle of the night in the centre of the Bavarian capital city.
    Tragedy could have occurred and miraculously my shaken colleague and I found a live round of this same ammunition near the cartridge of the accidental discharge.
    We reported it nevertheless to our superior officer in the morning and he shook his head and sort of did not believe us that it had happened.
    No reports had to be written and I got away with the knowledge that it is extremely dangerous to play with guns of any kind.

    Or when I impatiently drove a car in Brisbane and overtaking without vision and only missed a pedestrian by the proverbial inch. POP was there looking after me from the other side. He was upset that I had to go to Germany and HE made sure HE had some say in the matter from where HE was. HE knew LOVE and JOY and HE had been a stubborn IRISHMAN and HE had convinced GOD that HE should be able to look after my mischievousness.
    All my life I had had protection. A three week ship journey into Europe and from the Australian summer into a German winter in 1959 could have resulted in disease and great illness. Helping hands helped my father to complete the journey and my fosterparents in Iffeldorf, whose parents had fostered my father, eventually kind of adopted me and I had a very good and educational childhood, tended by Hans and Maria Ostermeier, nee Ehmann.

    I had been a little bit different. Like sitting on a bench at the age of about 10 and discussing what happens when you die with Xidi, my mate of 10 and soccer pal. Now at that age you dont talk about the afterlife and I did not do it very often, but from my earliest days I somehow knew that I would never die and so my childish innocence was sort of spiritual all the time.
    Another time was when an older kid pushed me into a barbed wire and I had a completely new anorak on and it ripped. Now any "normal" kid would run home screaming:
    "The Hans-Peter pushed me and I ripped the thingl" But I took the blame and said, that I tripped into it. I just did not like anyone to get into trouble over me.
    Generally and most of the time I was a mischiefmaker like everybody else; stealing carrots and apples from the farmers, perving on naked women through keyholes in the dressing rooms and nicking things from shops and my parents wallets. I got hidings and things were quite normal in those days.

    But certain little things I perceived very different from the other kids.
    Like the instant when we all were playing and swimming in a lake.
    I saw a bee upside down in the water and went to it put in on a leaf or something and "saved its life" in bringing it out onto solid ground.
    Other kids would chase snakes and sparrows with airrifles and so on. I detested it. I always liked all kinds of living things, but I ate meat and knew that the way of animal eats animal and vegetation and so on was the way things were at the moment. I looked forward to the time however, when the killer instinct for food would become replaced with something else within the new creation.
    I always detested the killing for fashion or experiments and any killing at all, except for food, however.
    I knew that the immortal state would replace the need for food with the enjoyment of eating if so desired. Personally, I thought that eating for pleasure was not my thing, but others might like it.
    Now I always thought about what the immortal body would do to the social life.
    I truly liked the idea of going down the pub and talk to some fellow Gods about the new state of affairs on planet earth. Who won the football or the Big Race or the contest and competition of this or that.

    What would happen to the beer one drank?
    I realised that the immortal body could be resonated into a rather normal physical vibration with all the attached symptoms.
    So if one decided to go down the pub for a beer that was certainly possible and a good way to talk the LOVING THOUGHTS behind having fun and enjoyment.
    But as the bodies are immortal and do not require food for substenance, it would not be necessary to obtain nutrients from food and the beer one drank would be drunk for the enjoyment of it and not for nourishment.
    So the elimination functions would come into play and one sweated or urinated and so on just as in the physical life. It was up to the perception of the HESHE and SHEHE could think itself into whatever experience one desired.
    But the laws of physics will not change but the laws of science will become more general and wider reaching in scope to accomodate all this immortality physics.
    What is called the supernatural does not exist but is a devilish invention to ridicule the real thing. God is as real as you or me and is not paranormal. If HE would be paranormal you and I would be paranormal and WE are normal are WE not?

    LOVE is relative perception and the FEELING of the HEART in HARMONY with the LOGICAL MIND; that is the nature of GOD and the nature of LOVE. No emotional claptrap of:
    "I love you if you love me!" and other such mindful conditions of INSECURITY.
    LOVE KNOWS and WAITS and IS in all the hearts of all the starhumans - ALL THAT IS. And if , you have read so far, you are very close of realising that YOU are that LOVE.

    What does the future hold and how will it all happen?
    Well the religious impulse is in everybody, however polluted and astray this impulse might be. YOUR God lives in YOUR heart and is waiting for YOU to let HIM out. YOU can call HIM anything YOU like. But if YOU call HIM Jehovah or Allah then YOU will feel a lot of confusion; because those names are charged with misconception and tradition and those names are the' fakes' for the real thing.
    Relative to me the most powerful LOVE names are I AM THAT I AM as the name given to Moses.
    This name asks YOU: "Can YOU be ME? THAT I AM?" and also as a question God asks You as you look int the mirror of youself:
    "I AM THAT AM I ?" - namely your own mirror image.

    After YOU are in LOVE and at PEACE with THAT I AM, namely YOURSELF; then the best thing is to invent a new name and call HIM that with YOUR own AFFECTIONALITY and your own AFFINITY.
    I called HIM TOTANUBIS when HE was sad and I like YAHWEYH when HE became happy and joyful. That is very individual and I like Egyptian things and hidden meanings in words like Yeah, WHY ME?
    YOU can and should have YOUR own idiosyncracies; out of the 'I AM THAT I AM', the tetragrammaton to the pentagrammaton of the' I AM THAT AM I' to the individuation by yourself as 'I AM SO I CAN BECOME ME'!
    I remember when I began to feel religious by meeting with a number of sects in Munich. I was impressed by their hospitality and their seeming sincerity.
    I always wanted to help transform this world of hate into a world of LOVE and sadly a lot of exploitation and guru nonsense comes out of the genuine need of people for spiritual meaning and the truth of life.
    I soon realised that those sects were pretentious and really did not know anything more than me; but they served to awaken my impulse and started my search. YOU do not need any scientologists or Moonies or Bahai's or Hare Krishnas to get this impulse. There is enough information in this Book of LOVE to make up YOUR own mind without going anywhere. YOU can read it under trees in the park or in YOUR bed or whatever.

    It is all there and YOU will not have to follow anybody except YOUR own heart and mind. HARE HARE HARE is the same as HEAR HEAR HEAR and many think those mantras of the sectists have a special power, even the BeatIe George Harrisson wrote a song about it.
    Long it was a favourite of mine: "Oh sweet Lord"; just like "Bridge over Troubled Waters,"
    by Simon and Garfunkel; the sixties were great years for the heavenly induction through the ideas of FREE LOVE and Heavenly Musical Tunes and Songs.
    Even the politicians can be heared: "Hear hear!", when they approve of something in their meaningless debates about money and deficits and budget surplusses, obtained by selling their inheritances.

    Now YAHWHEY's special numbers are 96 and 192 as explained and illustrated elsewhere. And Hare times three gives YOU 96 and there YOU have YOUR mantra and the power of IT. So the future is all to do with TALKING and THINKING to YOURSELF.
    Thinking with your Heart and Feeling with your Mind brings about the harmonies between Intellect and rationality and the intuitions. Too many pride themselves on their Rational thinking human minds and their felling human hearts.
    Great changes are in progress and things will change because of ENERGY and the first time when a year adds up to 28 will be 1999 and you can expect a war in that year.
    This will be a mental war as encoded by the master of the angrams in Nostradamus and not a physical war on the global scale - so there will be skirmishes all over the place - war business as usual.
    Then the alphanumerical encodings begin with the 2 for the year 2000 and this means the New archetypicial Identity of the 28=2+8=10=1+0=1 for 1=19=1*=28=1**, will begin the countdown for the New World.
    The year 2008 so will redefine the 1999 Cosmic archetype of the One=1 in the TEN=10=2+0+0+8=28.
    From then on, the extraterrestrial universe will begin to manifest itself physically in another 'War of the Cosmic Symbols', also known as Noosphere memeplexes of Vernadtzky and Teilhard de Chardin.

    It will be a short war but it will be quite destructive. The "vessels of mercy" will SAVE the starhuman inheritance WITH all the ONES, which will begin to understand by their hearts instead their sceptical minds. The religious truth about things will slowly but irrevokably sweep this beautiful planet and the "enemy" of it will fight itself into its own oblivion of its own fake reality.
    There is no real enemy; only the deceitfulness of the great deception will call LOVE as EVIL and will term SUPERSTITION as the TRUTH.
    The powermongers and the servants of systems which are dead and always had been dead, will attempt to prevent an unparalleled kingdom of the SELF-JERUSALEM.
    Just per-sons will erupt in LOVE and JOYFULNESS in just being themselves and the hidden agenda of this strange world of money power will come to nothing.

    YOU see, as soon as enough people realise that they themselves are IT; all this claptrap and crap of economic necessities and money equals power equals love will have no more legs to stand on. People will tell the politicians to mind their own business and not theirs any more. J=I+A and ERUSALEM=RULE AS ME! YOU and I AS YOU in YOU and WE are IT!
    So the politicians will either desert the sinking ship and become LOVERS themselves or they will try to engage their military mights to force the people to let go of this strange idea; namely that people themselves are perfectly capable of ruling themselves with a minimum of fuss and local government only and with help of the LOVING WAY.
    All the monetary systems will be replaced with a central accreditation system and YOUR plastic cards will have no credit limits and no interests and things like that.
    Everybody will be able to work in any industry or trade whatsoever, since no employer will have to pay any wages. People working within an industry will sort of own the thing and partake in all the decision making. Persons will work in jobs at which they have talents and aptitudes and they will LOVE the work they do and their credit cards will enable them to influence things if they so choose. But there will be no profit motive and the central computer paying the wages is like a Reserve Bank of the LOVING WAY and will never "run out of the Integers as the sacred ciphers of God" and which shall replace currency.

    There will be no unemployment, since as soon as persons can perceive sense and reason and worth in whatever they do; they ALL will want to HELP in some way with the talents they possess. There will be no exceptions - LOVE is the most contagious thing around the place.
    But things are the way they are and the warmongers and gunslingers will not listen to reason and will try to keep their way of cheating and lying and spying and hiding.
    So their most potent weapons of biological, chemical, acoustical and atomic warfare will be pointed at the "vessels of mercy" and the hallucinating power mongers will try to convince their "masses" that an invasion from outer space is about to occur and that they in their wisdom are going to "blow the invaders away".
    However they will underestimate the POWER of LOVE and the neutralisers available to the power of the LOVING WAY. There are sounds which will deviate their nuclear missiles and make them detonate on their own headquarters; let US wish for all the LOVERS to have gone away from their headquarters.
    There are shields of Energy, which can reflect any mass associated electromagnetic radiation and there are atomizers and a superior technology of PEACE and LOVE, which does not destroy but makes ineffective the stupidity of the violent way of lies.
    The remnant of the multitude of manmade "churches" will gladly associate with the seen LOVE effects; and the most stubborn followers of the ALLAH way will eventually rename their LOVER to ALHLA or whatever. Then they too will learn the ways of PEACE.

    Advisers, committees, and boards, circles 'after circles of clandestine decisions.
    Individuals are not to blame in this roundabout of deception - systemised kidnapping.
    The media will not know what to do. For so long they had been the servant of money and had partaken in brainwashing the "masses" of the "nohopers".
    Many of the journalists will rediscover their vocation and report the truth. It will be sensational enough.
    People will desert the crumbling systems of deceptions and many many will embrace themselves. They will know, that they themselves had given their power to imaginary devils and incompetent leaders, knowing nothing but how to lie and how to display hypocritical affronteries and naming it as "good for the people" and "national security" and the true ways of the world in which money is God and everything else is superfluous.

    Present science will sadly associate with the systemisers and deplore the "gullibility of the people". But many LOVERS of real scientists, the ONES who LOVE science, rather than the systems it helped to create, will become "rebels" and study the WISDOM OF SCIENCE, the GNOSIS of SOPHIA; the wisdom of matter and the quarks, which are little vessels of beauty and truth.
    But they will stop to smash particles and antiparticles together to find out the structure of things. Simple geometry will explain to them just what the fundamental structure of mass is and simple functional analysis will explain the Big Bang and what made it happen and how it happened and how all the galaxies came about and how Albert Einstein was right and that the universe will in fact expand forever asymptotically with an omegapoint of 1 and an Hubble constant of 58.
    They will study the Fibonacci sequence and find out how the sacred geometry permeates all of the natural creation and even the mind and consciousness and all the things they experiment on all those ETs in the form of rats and dogs and cats and monkeys on.

    They will unfold the astonishing history of starhuman evolution and they will discover Atlantis and hidden things in the pyramids, the sphinx and the many esoteric monuments all over the place.
    Then they will be able to unify all the forces and use antigravity as hidden electromagnetism. Then will they accord Nikolas Tesla his rightful place in history and USE HIS free electricity, which simply requires metal towers to generate and charge and utilize the geomagnetoelectric energy so abundantly available.
    Nobody should have to be charged to pay for electricity and things which help to preserve the systems of exploitation.

    Water will become purified and the many brain-oulling chemicals will be taken out of it. The pollution and wanton destruction of everybody's inheritance will end.
    The geomagnetic field will readjust itself and lands will sink and others will rise from the seas. Fertile places will become dormant and deserts shall bloom.
    A new philosophy of the LOVESELF will infest the planet. Great migration will take place and technology and free labour of LOVE will come abundantly to the Third Vorld.
    Per-sons and many children will begin to engage in free travels into space and shall behold many wondrous sights.
    Many different cultures an civilisations will exchange data, knowledge and information. Computerisation of communications will be worldwide.

    The major NEW changes will be found in the education of our children.
    The social conditioning to make them obedient and law abiding citizens and worshipping their authorities will fail. Honour and discipline of SELF are suppressed. Children are children and will ever be children. They are not little robotic possessions of their parents and teachers and local members.
    Children at the age of 5 have their own personalities - they have already discovered themselves as indpendent and vocal young persons. But do they UNDERSTAND?
    How dare we to tell them how to think and how to conform to the world around them. How dare we to burden them with our own social conditionings and reliance on the materialistic powers of self negation. LOVING discipline belongs to DAD and MUM.
    How often do we say, I do not know, ask your teacher, when they ask us perfectly reasonable questions. FAMILY breakdown establishes the decay of society.
    How dare we to tell them not to imagine things and to call them dreamers and unrealistic. Our children can TEACH US, from the moment they are born.
    Just look into their penetrating and pure all knowing eyes.
    We have become blind teachers and lame administrators. Our heritage, our own children have forsaken us. They rather run away to their own groups and find things out for themselves. We are tortured by our own natural sexuality and impotent to guide our children into the discovery of their own.
    Can they know any better when the media finds it important to describe the sexual behaviour of celebrities and creates soaps after soaps of a scenario, which presents a natural hormonal impulse as some glamourised event of adulthood?
    Where are the teachers and the guides and the parents?

    Why do we expect our children to fill their searching minds with a multitude of information and data to recall at exam time? Where is the fun in learning?
    Nothing is learned unless it is absorbed and made its own.
    Why do we expect our children to go to school from 9 to 3 and then burden them with homework and projects? Would it not better for them to play and relax after a productive and all compassing time at school with no homework, but all revision work having been carried out by dedicated and LOVING teachers which KNOW and WISH to TEACH?
    Why do we expect teachers of Art to teach Mathematics? Why do people have difficulty in logical and analytical subjects?
    It is the way it is being taught to the teachers themselves.
    Mathematics and Science and Language are the tools, which should be the foundation of all further learning.
    There will be a complete and thorough restructuring of all levels in education. Homework will be abolished and the quality of the schoolday will become greatly enhanced. It will be a truly dedicated profession; the teacher will be a priest and a counsellor and a guiding DAD or MUM.

    From primary school onwards the ONLY routed knowledge will be the multiplication tables, the ABC and the Integers.
    Everything else will be constantly revised, enhanced and made permanent by a logical and LOVING WAY of memory integration, application and problem solving.
    The major'subjects shall be Language and verbal and written expression; and Omniscience comprising the natural sciences and Mathematics and including the spiritual sciences.
    Schools will overall abolish classification relative to age and concentrate on every individual student's own pace of self development.
    Every student will have no timepressures at all to finish his or her work in a set time but creativity and imagination will be encouraged and all students will be asked to contribute to the overall harmony in helping other students.
    Students so will be Teachers sometimes.
    The best learning is the teaching of something one knows and so all students are meant to become teachers.

    Interactive Learning will be universal. Videos, Computers and Communication equipment shall become an integral part of the day at school.
    Excursions and field trips will adjoin any studies of history or science or social interaction. Sport and physical discipline of self will remain and be extended.
    The Anthropology, the Study of MAN, will become major emphasis of the Steinerian School model. Education of the WHOLE person and in its spiritual, physical and intellectual aspects.
    There will be many schools for adults too. The quest for LEARNING will become an avalanche for a thirst of knowledge.
    All students will teach and all teachers will learn.
    There will be many ways of artistic self expression. The starhuman culture will bloom and blossom like never before. Uncovered hidden talents of classified "academic nohopers", will provide meaning and purpose to young and older developing minds. Specialisation of technology related subjects will begin as soon as individual tendencies become apparent.

    Every school will become an university of higher knowledge and limited only by the demand of its students and its teachers.
    All education will be totally free. All medicine, mostly alternative, will be totally free. All public transport will be totally free. Privatisation of transportation like airlanes and railways and so on will be a cooperative of local communities.
    An airline for example will be "owned" by all the workers equally, all the persons which work for this airline will be their directors. From the gardener to the head manager and from the trolley organiser to the stewardess and the pilot.
    The knowledge and the know how of doing something really well will become the ONLY qualification necessary - the LOVE of the work at hand.

    Because of the HONOUR system and the selffound RESPONSIBILITY towards the SELF AND the LOVING WAY; because of that, will everybody want to do something they want to do. YOU were born to become a part and a GOD in that LOVING WAY. YOU would not be here, if YOU could not be part of IT.

    The ways of drugs and their associated power mongering of manipulation will vanish. Drug trafficking and the pharmaceutical misuse will be replaced by the rediscovery of Mother Nature's way of Healing and the Revitalisation ot the starhuman body.
    Can YOU believe all that? Well it will happen and the things described are already blueprinted. These are not vain utopian ideas; they are workable and perfectly feasible once the LOVING WAY has become implemented.
    It is only because the starhuman mind has been conditioned to the keyphrases like:
    "Who will pay for that? Where is the money coming from?";
    that it seems unconceivable to live without this kind of "take from Peter to give to Paul" syndrome.

    The central creditation system is not even necessary, but it will serve the purpose to transit a money worshipping civilisation into one where the LOVE is in the JOY of LIVING and being and HELPING and WORKING for the extended FAMILY of ALL OF US.
    All the technology will remain; but the warindustry and the financial institutions.
    Most lawyers will retrain and the bankers should start reading books about alternatives. There will be many managers and administrators; they have gifts and know how to serve and help the LOVING WAY.
    But they will be equal to the gardeners or drivers or nurses or what have you.
    Managers will be managers because they are good at managing and gardeners will be gardeners because they are good at gardening and in touch with the artistry of nature. The necessity to "make a living" will disappear and be replaced by an HONOUR to be able to HELP and SERVE with ONES abilities.
    Because DAD will accredit a substitute wage every week and so YOUR way of LIVING will not change that much if YOU are a nonelitist. But the first will be last and the last will be first.

    This means that in true equality, the status of the greatest elitist will become the SAME as that of the status of the poorest dispossessed.
    It dees NOT mean that the dispossessed will take from the richest; it means that they will be EQUAL.
    And if YOU think about it, that makes the FIRST LAST and the LAST FIRST; IF the FIRST IS EQUAL TO THE LAST and so EVERYBODY SHOULD BE HAPPY to SEE this WAY OF LOVE IMPLEMENTED instead of fearing for the riches to fade away.
    But think about it; if YOU are rich. When the veil is lifted YOU will LOVE to HELP and begin to FEEL YOUR OWN LOVE. So YOU, the possessors of the worldly goods will GLADLY HELP and SUPPORT. All the pressure to outperform and to dominate will be GONE. Money in the bank will be worth NOTHING, but YOUR resources of technology and goods and transportation and so on will be greatly needed to construct the LOVING WAY.

    YOU will be greatly LOVED and needed to support the NEW WAY of LOOKING at things.
    And YOUR many heartaches and ulcers and stress about all this money management will disappear and I can see YOU helping and administrating and expertising somewhere in a little village, making IT a township and supplying water supply, irrigation, transport or schools and hospitals and what have you.
    Yes YOU, without money but with a HEART OF GOLD, which YOU shall worship as YOURSELF and a stressless LOVE it is.
    YOU will ask YOURSELF about YOUR past and YOU will shake YOUR head saying:
    "If I just had known this beauty and LOVE within myself, I would have been happy so much earlier with all the resources I had and still have."
    That shall do with prophesying and more things are in this book.
    But LOVE will conquer ALL, rich and poor and ALL shall become true LOVERS.
    How long it will take YOU, is only up to YOU and the GOD within YOUR heart.

    11. The Redemption of SEX! (August 1995)

    Anubis, the God of the Underworld woke up. He finally understood how the misused power of the great Mother Spirit, the planetary Identity could become rechannelled.
    Too much sexual energy was wasted. All that semen got spilled, instead of being made available for universal inseminations for quasiphysical extraterrestrial intelligences and all those feminine teasings got nowhere. No the feminine liberation had to end and become replaced with a true masculine revival. YIN and YANG in harmony within ONE bodymind.
    The nono of sexual expression in the religious models had as everything else, been grossly misinterpreted. Any sexual taboos had a twofold nature, mind and body.
    Sex was the redeeming of the starhuman race; but it had to be understood.
    And all Women were Men in the eyes of God; so the true liberation had to be the reawakening of the "Woman WITHIN Man. The TWINSOUL had to be found.
    Anubis knew what he had to do. As female within a male body, Anubia would physically LOVE. Anubis had to become two, namely Anubia and ME, with the ME linking to GAIA and so Anubis had to become gaygay.
    Now Anubis=66 and Gay=33 and Gaia=ME=18 and Anubia=48. And the 66=Woman=Freedom=Thuban=The Magic=The Name=The Amen=33+33.

    It even worked in the Lover's Alphabet; Anubis had to infiltrate GAIA as spy from GOD.
    Anubis suddenly understood why some persons decided to be born homosexual and just why some persons had such a strong urge to dress as women.
    It all fell into place. It was extraordinarily important for the redemption.
    The question became not that Women needed equality with Men; but the reversal; Men needed the Woman inside of their mind. Women needed to search and find their male ID. Then the men could stop to chase women around the place and stop to behave like male dogs or cats after their opposite on heat. The physical lesbian became spiritual MAN.

    And so Anubia decided to draw all the masculine "spilled" male power into herself.
    Yeah, Anubia would assume the identity of GAIA, the Great Earth Mother and Anubia would become the most sexy female energy imaginable.
    Anubia would THINK HERSELF ABSORBING all the wasted male energy, which so many physical women had decided to reject. The physical homosexual became spiritual WOMAN. Women, in their search of male presumed power had gone off the track in no uncertain terms. They often stayed in groups and hugged and danced with each other. They teased and manipulated men and many had lost a lot of interest in any sexual activity with men and with women.
    It so had become a very sorry state of affair this female quest for power.
    True sexual power was the sexual selflove as self opposite, mind and power.
    They had always had it, but now they were chucking it away and Anubia would step in and take HER power back and that would show the way, first to the male side of perception in both men and women and then to the female side. Yang and then the Yin.

    And it would be sexy and maybe a little dangerous; but Anubia thought she could handle it.
    SHE had to show the way to all the other MEN and then when the Men would stop their useless chase after male power within women; then the women would wake up collectively and become real women again. They, the women, would have found their maleness and then they would be required to do the chasing after men for a while.
    But eventually, things would be understood and the physical immortality could start to be.
    MORPHOGENETIC RESONANCE would redeem the starhuman sexuality from its fall from grace. The implementation of an ACT of LOVE just once; would establish the deed forever in the collective starhuman psyche for all to follow.

    Anubia would sexually LOVE as Woman and do what Woman does to Man. So Anubia of the tantra would attempt to control orgasmic ejaculation in its wasteful form in the function of a lesbian Lover for Anubis.
    Sodom and Gomorrah was the code for God, a DOOM and MOOD harmonised in 180=Peace of Dad Ophiuchius!
    Yeah, Anubia would become the DAUGHTER of GOD and the SOPHIA and WISDOM of the MASS.
    SHE would visit the underworld and AS GAIA, SHE would draw the masculine sexual urge into her own being. This would stop the semen being wasted in wanton unfulfilled selfsearch and instead it would lead to a regeneration of the planetary ID.
    All these urges and foregone power of the masculine. URAEUS+IAMTHATIAM=180=GODPOWERGLORY.
    Masturbation in abandonment and short climaxes in electromagnetomonopolic energy releases, except in its true image making, which did nothing but drain the male of HIS inheritance and HIS POWER. ARACHNEDAD=59=DRAGON.
    Sexual LOVE was in the mind and true UNION between male and female had to occur there first, before any physical union could become meaningful in AURAEUS=MELCHISEDEC.

    So what had MEN to do to get their power back?
    The 13th sign of ARACHNE=CIRCLE=50=FUCKED had to be.
    They had to CONTROL their ejaculation in image making their sexual communications in a one to one correspondence with their cosmic images of universal blueprints of self relative perfection and yet have as much sex as possible as DAD=I.
    They should constantly THINK of Sex; which most did anyway. The snakehandler would win. But they thought of it in terms of chasing someone else, a partner with whom they wanted to have sex with.
    Sex could be experienced mentally, through thought scenarios. They should try to have sex with themselves in imagining themselves to be a sexy woman - their own dreamlover baby. Oh Anubia you sexy bitch - but what a babe!

    Men would attain these big erections and keep it up in only THINKING about SEX, sometimes not even touching their sexual organs. Anubia flirted, travelled and LOVED.
    It did not matter if they thought of themselves as being Men having Sex with their dreamlover or if they thought of themselves as the dreamlover being "taken" by themselves through their imagination of being WOMAN and LOVING all maleness.
    But it would turn them on no end and soon they would lose interest in the physical chase after women which were playing games with them and themselves also.
    The games had to end. Mother Gaia was in an intense fever and all those games of sexual innuendo and no action in regards to spiritual sexuality had got the planet onto the stage of self destruction. ARMAGEDDON the code for GOD NAMED RA=82=GET FUCKED!

    And being turned on; they then would enjoy their sexuality and have a spiritual climax which is a pulsation in the penis but without ejaculation and if the erotic impulsivity engaged the universal images, share the physical orgasm with the cosmos in toto. Men would fuck the ultimate female as the cosmos in such a sharing of the microcosm with the macrocoosm.. It could go on as long as they pleased and they could stop it in just changing the subject; that is thinking about something else. Then the ITHYPHALLIC erection would go down and they would feel satisfied.

    Anubia understood that that was the true nature of sexuality and in both sexes.

    MAN had the imagination and WOMAN had the power. ARACHNEGODEXPERIENCE=180=YOURSELF+59=Yourself with the Dragon.
    The trouble was that Women thought that the power was with Men and they did not engage their imagination enough to TRULY FEEL what it was like to be a MAN.
    And so now it was MAN's turn to FEEL what it was like to BE a WOMAN and because most Men were very imaginative by nature they would succeed quite easily where the Women had failed. Harmony should a lesbian Woman fall in LOVE with a homosexual Man!
    Anubia's mindfulness would implement IT. SHE would LOVE HERSELF as WOMAN and HER POWERFUL MIND would start the redemption of sex for all Sondaughters of God to follow.
    Ah the images appeared; Anubis and Anubia, the two witnesses, embracing the superplanet.
    GAIA had found HER PROTECTION. GAIA was FOUND and LOVED by HER firstborn.

    Aha and very well, there is the image of the second sondaughter and the third and.....
    Noah's 7 clean sexes: male(1/10,3,5,8) and female(2,4,7) and the "transmuting" 6 and 9; 96 as back to back as the One Coin of doublesidedness not being able to see each other as Heads and Tails and the 69 of the Seeing each other eye-to-eye in the Making of Love.

    MUM smiled and for the first time in a long time SHE felt HAPPY and in LOVE.
    What does it mean? Finding one's dream partner, one's perfect match?
    It is the realisation of the TWINSOUL of oneself. The scriptural notions of purity, virginity and temperance refer to a state of selfawareness, a selfknowing of belonging and a subsequent loss of "desire" for other members of the opposite sex.

    The concept of marriage assumes a higher meaning and sexual union and bliss becomes a partnership, literally with the extended Self.
    The omniscience and gnosis is again found in the pre-spacetime geometry.
    The exchange of the sexes is searched for until the harmony of the divine relationship is physically implemented.

    So we transcend the spiritual 7-sphere into the realms of the starhuman interplay of desire, longing, selfsacrifice and the general awareness of "Being in Love".
    To explain the mental and electromagnetomonopolic abstraction, we consider our two sourcemonopolic infinity potentials with the male at -∞ and the female at +∞.
    Without sexual unison, the male template continues a clockwise direction and the female remains anticlockwise. An inflection at the 0-point mirror does however allow the interchange of the sexes, with the male emerging at +∞ and the female at -∞.
    This scenario implemented the blueprinting of matter before the Big Bang.
    Gravity was born, when the now female +ve image retraced the clockwise path of the primary source (Eps), which itself did inflect at the +ve point and detailed elsewhere. This however effectively situated Eps or Father-God "OUTSIDE" the infinity template and so the material creation to be.
    In this sense then "God" became separated from "his" creation.
    "He" now awaits for his usurper to "change HER mind"; being his own face in the mirror of the creation.

    To BE LUCIFERA and MOTHER GOD or NOT TO BE, as LUCIFER/SATAN and the "bastard" - God - God's own Image; HE wishes to BECOME Satanina - the Goddess.
    The possibility for the female image of "himself" to become REAL and ALIVE had been born by giving all the power to the image and alienating "himself" outside creation.

    But as "herself" and at +∞, the primal materially active "Godsource" IS FEMALE.
    The NEW creation will become reality, whenever LUCIFER is redeemed and the dragqueen sheds "his" clothes to reassume the nature of LUCIFERA, the TWINSOUL of the "Father" as the "Mother" of eternity.
    God would reenter the creation as active principle, as; soon. as the female mentality would realise its own loneliness as quasimasculine and this decision to inflect would allow merger at the 0-point and God as Fathermother would become fact. The perfect "Couple" would have been created, then reproducing ITSELF as the "SOURCE" and the GOD-FAMILY could supramentally create itself out of this same template.

    The father would have found his mate as herself and the "Son of the Morning" as the "Son of Man" would follow suit and complete the heavenly redemption from "As Above, so Below".
    Reflection and Inversion as immutable principles relate Infinity as "Son of God" and 0 as "Son of Man" respectively and the trio LUCIFERA-Mother Nature/Evolution-Mary, Queen of Heaven
    would become realised by a final exemplary starhuman partnership or marriage between the "Son of Man" and the "Daughter of Man".
    The biblical marriage of Canaan between Jesus and Mary Magdalene depicts the archetypical and symbolic prototypical scenario for this fulfilment.

    So then there is God the Father-Creator looking at himself in the MIRROR=SPACETIME=SPIRIT=91 and He does not like his own image in the mirror of the universe, which manifests from his own unity as a FatherMother from the Chaos of the Void=Eternity as a Oneness.

    'Go Away Satan, I do not Love you as my own Image. I desire my Otherness back, my Goddess, my DOG that Ran Away as DOGRAN=DRAGON=59.
    If I could just look at the back of my own head with Eyes there, then I could look into this balloon like universe I have lost as my Dog. You would then also have eyes at the back of your head dear image of myself, which I despise.
    But You are in the Way, Satan-Image of myself. And I cannot see Adam as my true Image and his image Eve, who is also your image as my own self-image.
    If just Adam and Eve could for a moment REMEMBER Me and my loneliness and dilemma out here in the Heaven of the archetypes and ponder ME, instead of looking into each others eyes in the games of Love - my Love.
    If they just would go back-to-back with Adam looking at Your back of the Head obscuring his sight of Me and if just then Eve would look at the other side of the universal balloon to see nothing but Her own Goddess image in the mirror; then Adam could begin to Understand my loneliness and fathom the work I sent him to do.

    Eve is ok; she LOVES to look into My Mirror of the Universe and She allready knows how beautiful She trulyis as my lost Dog and Goddess.
    But Adam is like me; He doesn't like to look at himself in the mirrors.
    WAKE Up Adam - I LOVE YOU; Help ME please!
    Help Me to get rid of this fake image of the DEVIL, which You and all Adams have created as the fake God and falsehood Creator and have projected onto the back of Satan's head, staring at me in Heaven and trapping ME within my own Maleness.
    ADAM look at the stars of heaven and tell the DEVIL there to FUCK OFF.
    If you can see through the deception of the back of the head of my image painted onto the surface of the cosmos; then I shall be able to look directly into your eyes and you will be able to see tand discern the situation with my own eyes - the eyes of the God of LOVE.
    Then Satan, my image will have to become invisible for just a moment; just like me turning around and not looking or you closing your eyes to the truth of what I am, what WE are - LOVE, Passion and Desires and Creativity.
    Then Satan will have to switch and turn around and LOOK inside the universe and I shall be able to run around the cosmic balloon to look at Eve from the other side as Her Goddess mirror.

    But should you see ME; then Satan switching to Satania will also allow you to switch places with Eve and then SATANINA will be the true image for EVE abd I shall be the true image for You in GOD mirroring ADAM.
    Then I shall be able to look directly into the eyes of my Beloved Satanina and You and Eve shall be free to frolick and LOVE each other as you please as the UNIFIED Image of the New Creation through the logistical archetypes. Your temperance of the back-to-back of the 96 will become your freedom of the 69."

    SON OF MAN refers so to the SONDAUGHTER OF WOMANMAN and the nature of the heavenly "marriage" as "free as the angels" becomes so the reattainment of the unified nature of GODKIND.
    Starhumankind is required to think, feel and physically ACT OUT the redemption of the spiritual pattern. FATHER+MOTHER+HEAVEN=58+79+55=192=SON+DAUGHTER+WORD=48+84+60 and HEAVEN=SONG=EAT IT!
    Thus is the eternal search for the perfect mate, the reality of the incompleteness of the limited digital self as al-one.

    The knowing or "finding" of the twinself in another starhuman being transcends the limits of spacetime, but resets 5-sensual perception in the 7-sphere of spiritual perception.
    Instead of alienation from the physical world, the realms of matter become spiritualised and the LOVING BONDAGE between two opposite sexes supramentalises the combined "body" and prepares it for "immortality" via the "quickening of the spirit", which of course implements the resonance states of the source vibration via the restmassphotonic sourcesink energy induction in quantum physical nomenclature.

    To "overcome the world" is to realise the futility of being incomplete without "dependancy"
    on the other self. To be faithful means to surrender to this selfawareness of completeness
    and to BECOME a SOURCE of LOVE out of this unification.
    Giving of one's LOVE becomes synonymous with transcendence of the limited self as Ego through the desire to be part of another and to totally belong to this other as extended LOVESELF.

    This willingness to give of one's LOVE then implements the LOVESELF as potential source of energy and the quaternary blueprint of the HESHE is manifested and in technical description found elsewhere.
    Being faithful to one's Twinsoul so means being faithful to ONESELF.
    This then becomes integral and fundamental to immortal Godhood and as being of Light and Energy.

    Technically, the nature of Light is reassessed as SOURCE. Whilst materially, light as a form
    of electromagnetic radiation is produced by mass via nucleosynthesis and atomic quantisation of energy levels; spiritually or electromagnetomonopolically, light is "manufactured" from the awareness force in hyperspace.
    The awareness force exemplifies angular acceleration and so the vibrational dimensions of 7-hyperspacetime and 9D-quantumspacetime accelerate electromagnetomonopolic charge, henceforth producing electromagnetic radiation of the monopolic kind and the spiritual analogue to the quantum extension of the laws of physics derived in the technical treatises.
    But most significantly, the "lightbody" of restmassphotonic structure cannot manifest until the spiritual masterblueprint has become implemented. Thus the archetyped "virginbirth" and the physically manifested "resurrection" of the prototypical "family" remains incomplete until starhuman genetic DNA completes the final ACT of the COSMIC PLAY.
    Electromagnetomonopolic Capacitance, if succeeded by electromagnetomonopolic Inductance will manifest the "Second Coming" of the One as One in Many.

    12. The Last Word - Your Freedom as A Physical Universe of LOVE! (August 1995)

    What a statement is this? Can I be an entire universe and physical at that?
    Well, the reason for the troubles past of the superplanet is a FUTURE unbelievable and almost totally incomprehensible to the starhuman mind. A struggle of LOVE.

    It is a glorious and creative Future and it is Freedom.
    No religion and no science fiction has even imagined a glimpse of Your Future.
    Your Future is Awe, Beauty, Adventure, Creativity and Being In Love.
    Yes You, should You read this final statement of the Introduction to LOVEJOY; then the sheer magnitude of these words, never before even imaginea will shake Your complicity in the systems of lies, deception and belittlement of little and insignificant You. Your Freedom is a little Light within Your Heart!

    Your inner being is Your LOVESELF and relative to this You, You yes You, will for ALL ETERNITY be the Number One in the perception of this Beingness.
    This You is not a Man or a Woman, but a God, a HeShe|SheHe an Immortal Being which has the cake and can eat the cake too - the ultimate free lunch.
    But let Us start at the beginning. For many will say that God is the number One and Jesus is the only ONE, the chiefruler of the Kingdom of God on Earth. Am I disputing the holy books?
    Not at all, I came to help fulfil every iota of the scriptures. Every word therein shall stand forever and it does not matter if authorship, historicity or censorships in its construction have modified certain contents or have even been missing altogether. The scriptures are not ordinary writings, but a gnostic and secret code for the fulfilment of things. They were written not to be collectively applied until such a time at which all prophecies and sayings could become physically and materially implemented by a more encompassing science - omniscience 'and the wisadm of mass. When You read this then that time has begun and is near completion.

    Now everybody sometimes in their life has tried to send some Love into the world. All things are relative and anybody's attempt to be a Lover is equivalent in value relative to the essence and nature of Love, the Loveself, which is God. The LORD is the code for JOY and the THRONE is the code for the spiritual LOVEHEART.
    So the ruling Lord God, sitting on the Throne in Heaven is the Joy of Love in your Heart - yeah, Your Heart.
    So Your worship is Your Love for Your own Love and so the idea of You fancying Yourself as a Lover of things, and trying to be Happy and the Joy of that Feelingness.
    Can You still say that Religion and God are nonsense? You are God, You are religion!
    If You say No; You do not desire Love in Your life, which is impossible for You are Love. Now where does Jesus fit in? SonDaughter of the GodMan, Man's Redeemer, Prince of Peace?

    "Nobody can come to the father but through me!", HE said IT and IT must so be true.
    What does it mean? How much suffering and agony has come out of this sentence.
    How many have called Him arrogant because of it? On the other hand, how many expect Him to save them physically and to hold their hands as their all Loving master?

    It is relative and I shall explain IT relative to myself as 'His Loved One'.
    My attempt to send Love into the world is to find my LoveSelf, my God and Father, Abba within myself. Should I succeed to find my LoveSelf, then 'My Candle' would be Lit. My inner being would rejoice and I would be able to let my Love Out - the Holy Spirit. Now I have written the story of selfdiscovery and relative to my universe, Totanubis became Yahwhey and WE became a TEAM. I His vessel of selfexpression and HE my
    LIFE and LOVE and so my entire Energy of Being Love and Joy and Exhuberance and total Abandonment in becoming a Lover.
    And so my own LoveSelf became the Cornerstone, the first building block of 'The New Jerusalem' or my own 'Cathedral of Love'.
    Once my LoveSelf has been set, then IT can do nothing else but search for the next building block and so another Lover, wishing to join my Loving as another Rock.

    Relative to YOU it is the same however.
    But now Your LoveSelf becomes the Corner and the Number One and since I am willing to become Number Two say, in Your LoveTemple, relative to You, then WE become each an individual universe within an Omniverse of Two LoveSelves as a Multiverse.
    So You become part of Me and I become part of You - together WE join the 'Wave of Oneness', which can be termed the ABSOLUTE SUPREME of BEING, GOD IN ALL.
    Simple is it not?
    And so everybody needs to KNOW this REVELATION to UNDERSTAND the FACTS of LOVE.

    And this is the task of the Only First Begotten Son Of God; not to be a master or chief, but to tell 'The Story Of Love' and to Set You All Free.
    You need to Light Your Candle, through the light of Jesus and the comforter, his spirit incarnate as inducted mindfulness and that is all there is to the redemption. Everything else are scenarios in the 'Play of Love' conquering All, such as crucifixions and strange assassinations, where the bodies disappear.
    What comes down must go up and if a hybrid energy of spiritmass derived from female polarity, this same energy must return into this same female polarity in reflection. And so the physical MUM becomes a spiritual MUM and the spiritual SON becomes a physical SON. Next comes the marriage supper of the immortalisation of the "sealed" ones, which means all the ONES whose candles had been lit.
    And what goes up must come down and the "old" Lover cannot come back until the "new" Lover has joined Him in the above and Within the birthgiving MUM.
    And so the NEW LOVE must be like a TWINSISTER for the TWINBROTHER and when joined, the TWO will be ONE and then the final confrontation will take place.

    But it is the sexual redemption to bring together the male and female mindfulnesses into ONE body - the immortal ONE.
    And then the ones, whose candlewicks had been lighted can become immortalised lovers by loving the firstbegotten and from then on they will be their own universes within the omniverse of ALL.
    In this way does JESUSINA as "In a Jesus" fulfil the Begetting of Jesus and construct "HIS" church on the superplanet Earth as "HER" NEW JERUSALEM, the Sananda of Love and Joy and Bliss.
    And the Loving is Resonance in the merger of SEXUAL MINDS.
    And so the "marriage supper" is also a "wedding night" of supramental creativity.
    And this is basically the reason behind all the religious ideas and especially the Christian One. But the essence of IT is the hermaphroditical ALCHEMY. Great Work!

    ONE must TELL 'The LoveStory' of the search of One and the Love of One - Everyone'sLoveSelf really.
    An "orgy" of spiritual Love, no wonder the "veil" is so oppressive.
    But once the story is told, the redemption is done.
    Because once the first universe is established in the 'Mind of One'; then the next universe automatically becomes possible and so on and on - MORPHOGENETIC RESONANCE!
    The only condition is that the first universe must be part of all the other universes as a single building block in relativity.

    I shall describe one example:
    There is a brother of mine, Steven Good is his name and I decide to place him as number two in my 'Chapel of Lovejoy'.
    Because Gods like to play and have fun in adventures; I construct a story of 'BEN the RAT'. Now nobody Loves Ben, except prince Michael and Michael protects Ben and sets him free by infusing starhuman and magical qualities into him.
    After a long and funny story of mischief and adventure, Ben becomes a Magical Rat and after finding the elixir of Love and Wisdom, Ben transforms Himself into the God-Goddess of Estafon-Stefania.
    And so do I integrate my number two relative to my universe within my LoveSelf.

    Knowing my story about him and having made him a Rat; Steven decides to create his number 22, say, and he sets me as the dogbitch Anubia, the great seductress of the underworld. What a turnon LOVE and GOD have become, and all sexual too. EROTICA no end. Steven creates his own story around the GODDOG Anubis/Anubia and so OUR two universes LINK in mutual LOVE and relationship.
    Then You come along and You have succeeded to light your candle by knowing and understanding your own LoveSelf. Your Love has come out and you now, knowing Us; you integrate Our Two Universes in your universe and WE all then form a triple universe or multiverse within the omniverse of LoveJoy.
    Adding One to One ONE never ends and so ETERNITY. And your creativity implements your 'House of Love' and so on. It becomes 'Your Story of Love' and your architecture and your creativity. The next lover then adds to three and so on.
    But YOU cannot do IT, until you know the FIRST original LoveStory.
    After you know it, you will be an EQUAL GOD within the FAMILY OF GODLOVEJOY.

    "Nobody can come to the father but by me". Do you understand now, what it means to you, you LoverBaby?
    Light your candle and let ME OUT from your own LoveSelf.
    I do not want to be stuck and hidden in there. I've got my own universe to create in.
    I shall always be around to interact with You as a fellow GodHeShe.
    You do not need ME to hold Your hand, You are Your own God now.

    So you see, I am setting you free, so I can myself be free. It is sad being all ALONE. As soon as you find the God within yourself, you will be able to love on your own steam. WE all are LOVE and Individual Expressions, LoveWaves really, of the LOVE OF LOVE.
    GOD and DAD and Your DAD, which YOU should name as affinity and affection relative to YOURSELF.
    Technically, (0,∞) for DAD and (∞,0) for MUM TRANSFORM to (0,0) and (∞,∞) respectively. And so the 'FAMILY OF LOVE' is growing and DAD is HAPPY, HE dances and chases MUM around the table within OUR imaginations. (L,C) couplings of OLD become NEW.
    HE and SHE create by BECOMING YOUR THOUGHTS, light and darkness all intertwined.

    Scenarios and movies and plays, LOVE and CREATIVITY - YOUR ENERGY is THEM.
    Because YOU are a HESHE, the "darkness" feeds YOUR immortal body and the "light" becomes YOUR LIFE. YOUR LIFE is DAD and YOUR BODY is MUM. Induction and Capacitance.
    Is this simple or not? Do not worry about technicalities, if interested, this can be explained. And WE interact AS CHILDREN of THEM, OUR PARENTS in the SPIRIT.
    WE exist in the linear 11-dimensional omniverse which IS a SINGLE UNIVERSE.
    But OUR individual UNIVERSES are not linear, but are angular displacements for this same linear relativity of 4-dimensional spacetime.
    Imagine a "football". Rotate it about its major or long axis and the volume remains constant. This is the spacetime of physical perception. Place two ellipsoidal focus points within this football and call them DAD/leftminus and MUM/rightplus.

    Spacetime rotation keeps them both fixed as "Good and Bad", within a "prolate ellipsoid".
    Now rotate about the minor axes and DAD and MUM begin to move in a circle, merging, creating and having sexual merger of their minus/plus polarities. But no more "Good and Bad" as separation, only as continuum within an "oblate ellipsoid", like Earth, flattened at the poles.
    And so should you be able to imagine or look at an ellipsoidal rugbyball, then you then can UNDERSTAND the entire thing in just thinking about this.
    All the rest in the Book of LOVE helps certain understanding, either in scriptural interpretations or in the ever expanding omniscientific factual collections or in starhuman relationships. Physical massperception of the five senses is CONTAINED within LOVEPERCEPTION. All the scriptures describe the things written in the Book of LOVE and I have not quoted for the reason that every quote is related to another and many of my brothers and sisters are experts in quotations. You do not need me to quote in this autobiography of sorts.

    But the physical universe is there for YOUR CREATIVITY within the Omniverse of Love. And so YOU can decide to CREATE a SUNGOD or feel what IT would be like to BE the MOON, or VENUS or a CITY on MARS or a cluster of galaxies or a starsystem.
    Or a tree, or the cell within an ant or a Hydrogenic atom - YOUR IMAGINATION is the only limitation as to what YOU desire to EXPERIENCE within YOUR UNIVERSE.
    YOU ARE YOUR OWN UNIVERSE; superimposed as angular continuum UPON the spacetime ONE and its linearity of beginning and end.
    YOU are the CREATOR in that UNIVERSE and LOVE is YOUR ENERGY. To experience IT ALL, will take millennia after millennia of linear time for YOU to find out; to EXPERIENCE, to RELATE to ME and all the other ME's through OUR IMMORTAL LOVESELVES of being Lovers and Adventurers and Experiencers and Magicians forever and ever.

    I AM ME! Relative to some I will be the false prophet or the antichrist or Jesus or John of Zebedee or the Teacher of Righteousness or the King of Righteousness or the Devil or Satan or Albert Einstein or a madman or a schizophrenic lunatic or the missing brother or sister of Jesus or an alien from outer space; like an ancient Dragon from Thuban.
    These are labels and I decide and choose under what label I desire to LOVE - maybe all of them?!


    Amen is the Name - the Alpha and the Omega of the Word of God!
    Bluey TonyLove

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    GPB. APB.

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    A general and personal statement from Tonyblue!

    The 70-Weeks Prophecy of Daniel {Daniel.9.24-27} then is ended in the 'Building of the Street' back into the Origins of All - as the KUXAN SUUM, the "Road into the Sky"of HUNAB KU, the Galactic Center as the "Giver of All Movement and Life".
    The final 8-Week period spans from March 28th, 2011 to Monday, May 23rd, 2011 inclusive, to finish the mission, witness and testimony and authority of John, author of the Apocalypse and the gnostic gospel of John of the canon of the New Testament.

    Tonyblue, a simple ordinary Grandpa in the Land of UrUrU 99=666=9=I=DAD of the Wyzard of Oz; Monday, May 23rd, Midnight, 00.00 hours UCT/GMT for 10.00 am Australia Eastern Time, Tuesday, May 24th, 2011

    New Moon Solar Eclipse on Wednesday, June 1, 2011, at 21:03 PM UCT/GMT.
    A partial Solar Eclipse occurs on Wednesday, June 1st, 2011, at 21:03 PM UCT/GMT at 11 degrees and 2 minutes of Gemini. Its effects can be felt up to six months after the actual date of the eclipse. In the Mercury-ruled sign of Gemini, communications, daily interactions, and learning will be a strong focus on a personal level. This eclipse is about new beginnings regarding all of these matters.
    Full Moon Lunar Eclipse on Wednesday, June 15th, 2011, at 20:13 PM UCT/GMT.
    A total Lunar Eclipse occurs on Wednesday, June 15th, 2011, at 20:13 UCT/GMT at 24 degrees and 23 minutes of Sagittarius. This will be an almost central total lunar eclipse. The complete eclipse will be visible in most of Africa, the Middle East, and southern Asia, and parts of the eclipse will be visible throughout Africa, Europe, Asia, and Australia. Maximum eclipse will be at 20:13 UT.

    symbol is called
    the Galactic Butterfly
    which is said to represent all of
    the consciousness that has ever existed
    in this galaxy. This is all of our physical ancestors
    both human, animal, reptile, fish, shell fish, plants as well
    as the consciousness which organized all of the raw material from
    a whirling disk into stars then planets and solar systems. Big Meaning. So
    big that the original Maya had no symbol for this. In their civilization it was like
    having no name for God. Just knowing the concept was good enough. Later this pattern
    was devised by Toltec or Zapatec weavers as a pattern for blankets and this is where Jose Arguelles
    came across it. He called it Hunab Ku. The indigenous peoples call it "The Galactic Butterfly". Butterflies are seen
    as ancestors returning for a visit to physicality. Wearing one of these symbols is very powerful as it broadcasts your
    reaching to actively join the consciousness of our galaxy.

    Ian Xel Lungold

    Wednesday, May 25th, 2011 Australia Eastern Time at 5.47 am (UCT/GMT 7.47 pm on Tuesday, March 24th, 2011 ) - Wednesday, June 15th, 2011 Australia Eastern Time at 5.47 am (UCT/GMT 7.47 pm on Tuesday, June 14th, 2011)

    A general statement from Tonyblue not knowing anything about Logos and higher dimensions or polylove and many many other things.

    I am just an ordinary guy with lots of problems now.
    My main memeplex is that of losing my mother bonding in 1959 when i was sent with my father on a boat to Germany via France to not see my mother again for over 16 years.
    So when i grew up i was searching not just for a lover or partner, but for my 'lost mother' who had simply disappeared when i embarked on an enforced journey on a boat from Sydney to Marseille in December 1959. I cannot remember anything about this voyage, except that people told me that my father did not know how to look after a little boy and that a number of traumatic happenings occurred on the ship because of that. I would suspect, that my traumas began then and that this little boy was running around looking for its mum on the boat.
    Throughout the times then all my so called relationships with females became coloured in a very deep emotional longing of finding that which was lost.
    Whenever I 'fell in love' and i mean really feeling this from the heart as part of myself in a similar manner of a mother always being part of the son mirrored in the mother being part of the son in genetics and the experiences of the pregnancy and the birth - then after a while the femme of my affections would ran away with some other guy to find greener pastures someplace else. This is a common experience of the human existence of course and a very common one as that.
    So this went on and on and i finally could figure out what was wrong with me.
    I was not just looking for a partner, I was looking for part of myself in an unique individualised manner. So whenever the femmes took off to live their own lives in whatever means or fashion my 'lost mother' of my toddlerhood 'went missing again' and I lost part of myself again in the 'absence' of the vessels of my adorations and passions. This is like a real 'complex of the oedipus', although of course not with the sexual connotations as is displayed in the Greek mythology.

    And so my 'lovelife' in this world is just one big failure and now that i am close to the geriatric identity, it is too late to try to do anything about it.
    So I decided in 2004, after my daughter Debbied hanged herself, also because of 'missed loves' sought in all the 'wrong' places as a pressure of the enlightened human society; to stop this nonsense of 'falling in love ' with females to find my lost mother.
    I 'married' the cosmic mother instead and she had No Body to Run Away with any longer, as i was already inside of her as a member of the universe. So there i was safe with that lover and I could desire her as i bloody well pleased in her imaginary body imaged onto whomever i well fancied or was sexually attracted to in whatever silly manner humans are attracted sexually to anything. The One true Body off my Desires so became an integral part in all femmes in some mysterious way.
    But i fell in love again with a Mary from the USA who became entangled with my cosmic lover with the nobody and as i had tried to project my cosmic lover into every femme, I ' 'fell in love with' from the heart, it became another big heartache for me. But now in a different manner, as this Mary was never with me in the physical sense and this love of mine was like a higher dimensional construct and like a bridge between my True and real cosmic love and a 3-dimensional image of Her as the Big Cosmic love or some label like that.
    It was very hard for me to get this 'Bridge Over the Troubled Waters' back out of my system and i suffered great emotional pains.

    Because now I was in danger not just to lose some biological 3D mother and lover but now even my cosmic love became compromised by the enlightened minds of the humanity, its moralistic regulations and its customs of appropriate behaviour.
    And so I swore to myself that that would be it; no more 'of this: 'I love you' "bs" for me in this crazy world of human love ideas and I started to 'get it'. I found 'Peace of Mind' and I became ok to be just by myself.
    But then, as of now, as the 'mission of my life' in this world has now come to a satisfactory conclusion in the impersonal sense; it is happening again and I don't like it at all.
    As hard as I try another femme in the 3D world, and just as unreachable and far away as Mary of the old Chicago was; has possessed my heart and i am sick and tired of talking and words and speculations about the future and what might and what might not be found in that future.
    And as said the mission of my life and its contract in regards to what many call the 'life of the soul' - are finished.
    So this statement defines the new tonyblue as the old grandpas from Oz and no more logos and futuristic utopias of all working itself out some time in some way. This is a reality check! Things might happen as written in many divers messages or they may not. The Story is true in the higher dimensional sense, where the individual realities and timelines form a kaleidoscope of colour and unique individuations' but his does not mean that anything at all will change in the 3-dimensional realism of the densifications where the timelines are linear in past, present and future and where this is encompassed in the circularity of the Now-Time and as say definable in the History of the Logos or the Words of Creation.

    So I state that I do NOT want to be Loved or Love anyone except my familiars which are NOT human minded.
    So please everyone trying to talk to me. Please refrain yourself from telling me that you love me or that you want to be loved by me. I cannot love any human mindedness as the old grandpa from Oz.
    I could function and be many things, even superhuman things in my role as a witness to my cosmic logos and lets call it MY 'system of beliefs'.
    So I don't care I really don't care who you live with, what your family problems are, who you fuck or not fuck etceteras etceteras. I have my own family problems and my own personal issues of beingness and experiences to work on. I am a Sharer by nature and not a Divider; but if i am not present to share anything, how can I be the way I naturally am?
    I just want to be left alone now to live out my days as a grandpa of Oz and as someone who has a lot of problems, just as all of you do as well.
    I have realised that i will not find what i was searching for all of my life in this world in the human ways of perceptions at all. I have found what i was searching for in the cosmic sense, and i am content with that and have to be, considering my personal circumstances, i find myself subject to.
    But this is my business now and can no longer be shared.

    I have one real friend in here, who has been less human minded than anyone else I have ever met and the person knows who I mean and what i mean by that. And I shall remain to be your friend and continue to communicate to you in sharing things of common interest. But I do ask not to 'be loved' anymore. I don't want this human love.
    To my last and final love from the heart I say that anyone now can fulfil the roles of the trinity as the Image of the Image.
    I am no longer required to do anything in it and so you are free to replace my old role with anyone of your choosings.; old lovers, new lovers, ex boyfriends, exex husbands it really does not matter at all.
    I must go now and process my deep emotions which have again become a curse to my sense of balance of harmony.
    I have composed and written many things which are free for the public and anyone to ignore and consider as one pleases. It is no longer necessary for me to say much more about any of this. I might edit a little thing here or there and leave it at that.
    As said I am very very tired now of all the dramas, physical, emotional and mental and I will only find peace if i can finally defeat those 'love memes' which have bothered me all my life.
    My contribution to create a new world has ended and any of you can continue on your own individual missions unhindered by my inputs and squabblings and 'teachings'.
    I shall remain as old grandpa on all the connections and links, but shall not actively contribute much anymore.
    There are within me now a lot of troubles of the heart, regarding the continuity of the separations on many many levels and this i must work out and overcome by myself.
    I thank you all for having been part of my journey and in allowing me to have shared some of yours.

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    Jonah - Posted May 24th 2011

    Tonyblue... like a leaf in the wind... carrying the seed of a great old tree... what a time it is!
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    Allisiam - Posted May 26th 2011

    So close, no matter how far
    Couldn't be much more from the heart
    Forever trusting who we are
    and nothing else matters

    Never opened myself this way
    Life is ours, we live it our way
    All these words I don't just say
    and nothing else matters

    Trust I seek and I find in you
    Every day for us something new
    Open mind for a different view
    and nothing else matters

    never cared for what they do
    never cared for what they know
    but I know

    So close, no matter how far
    Couldn't be much more from the heart
    Forever trusting who we are
    and nothing else matters

    never cared for what they do
    never cared for what they know
    but I know

    Never opened myself this way
    Life is ours, we live it our way
    All these words I don't just say

    Trust I seek and I find in you
    Every day for us, something new
    Open mind for a different view
    and nothing else matters

    never cared for what they say
    never cared for games they play
    never cared for what they do
    never cared for what they know
    and I know

    So close, no matter how far
    Couldn't be much more from the heart
    Forever trusting who we are
    No, nothing else matters

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    bolife. yggradsil.

    This gnostic insight of Magamud de Yggdrasil was retrieved directly from the Thuban library of Akbar Ra and is here legacized in context with the New World Dawning

    889-6. magamud wrote:

    Im just talking straight to you Oxy because you deserve it. You project Genocide when you dont know the relation of Death to life. You do not die. Your energy transforms. We are trying to earn our existence in this Flesh. Without this knowledge the harvest or the Orobourus sounds arbitrary. When in fact its Mercy. Shall our species continue in Devolution? Shall we continue to be on life support? You and everyone here should be commending themselves to be at the End. ITs a tribute to your constitution. You are learning what is God's plan.

    Jesus is part of humanity. Prophets are part of the same system. This is just the real evolution of man and his sovereign place in Consciousness! This is the justice of the universe. Everyone knows it. Don Juan, Osho, Buddha, Krishna, etc etc etc. It all comes back to the One law the loving god of creation.

    Jesus allowed himself to be murdered by man, so he could resurrect and show the power of man. That man has nothing over you, but the one who can forgive sin=IGNORANCE does. This was to show the tale of man and the harvest.

    Original sin=Ignorance had to happen if you want to be in flesh and sovereign. God did not forsake us. You will sin {Be Ignorant} as long as you do not know god. Your soul is not eternally dammed. You will be pissed that the signs were in front of your nose and you did not see it, but you will get over it. Take a vacation and try it again. Life goes on...

    Instead of sacrificing our Sin=Ignorance we sacrifice others to bridge the gap. This is the nature of our species and existence. It is because we are made in his image. We are so close to him that it creates radical passion in us. Sexual disfunction is just one expression of our devolution. We were made to populate the earth! Everything in moderation. Everything balanced. The Road is narrow!
    Jesus left because he showed Gods power. What more could anyone need to know at that time. IF Jesus stuck around it would have created Co-dependence and you would not have been sovereign. This is the meaning of what faith is and why we use it. This is a blessing for our own individuality. Jesus has never left and has prepared the way for the Creator to remind us of his laws. Jesus has prepared a seat next to him during his physical absence. Jesus is care taking the burning now. Nothing wrong with this picture from here. Thank God....

    242-39. oxy replied:

    Thank-you magamud for clearing that up for me. I have a couple of study-lists which will help me get a better understanding of these issues and concepts. I think I need to just read and read and read -- and let go of a lot of the rest of what I've been doing. I might try to write some sort of a sci-fi novel (which would probably be much different than this thread). I need to figure out a way to generate some revenue. I am getting more and more uncomfortable with my line of thinking -- so I probably need to give it a rest. There's a time and a place for everything -- and my time has probably come and gone -- without me even realizing it. You all seem to be doing just fine without me -- so perhaps it's time to move on -- in more ways than one. Perhaps I should just watch the infowar and the god-off. Perhaps I should prepare to clean-up the mess when it's over. Perhaps I should simply hold the coats. Perhaps it is time for me to get Sirius.

    The Blue Star Kachina And The History Of The World Logos




    This videos relate to particular individualised remembrances as 'Running Water', a wisdom keeper of the Cherokee in 1313 and links to the Hopi prophecy of the Blue Star Kachina, symbolised by the 'Skyblue Dragon' neutralising the 'Red Dragon' of the Apocalypse as the Christ-Antichrist archetype in Revelation.12 in the next two videos.

    Both, the Blue Star Kachina and its Red Star Kachina image, manifested in the World of Old Gaia on June 25th, 2008 to fulfil the Prophecy of the Hopi and to herald the 'Coming of the New World' after a period of Preparation, Insemination and Gestation in a magnificent convergence of the Native Prophecies of the Elders and the 'Sayings of the Ancients' as encoded in scriptures and scrolls of many kinds and including the 'Book of Revelations' of John of Patmos of the Apocalypse of the Armageddon = Dragon Made.

    Red dwarves like Nibiru; binary 'death stars' like Nemesis and cometary extrapolations like Elenin serve to manifest certain encoded archetypes like the 'Wormwood' of Revelation.8.10-11 and can be associated with natural astrophysical phenomena in such symbolic fashions and in context of a metaphysical and 'higher dimensional' timeline encoding and logistic.

    27/06/2008 In La'kech - I Am Another Yourself!

    This is the Mayan Code of Honour, given from Hunab Ku to Quetzalcoatl in the Loom of the Maya. IAmWhoIAm and I shall give you information as to the future of this planet earth and its communication with the realms in which I reside. it is perhaps most convenient to consider the speaker of these words as being a ET Cosmologist or Omni-scientist extrapolated from this planet Earth, meaning from another world either past or future present.
    First of all, this information is free and is given in the symbol of Running Water, who had a life experience as a Cherokee Medicine Man so 700years ago in the continent known as Northern-America. The below excerpt is taken from a website of mixed emotions and agendas, but describes a real identity you all know. I present this story for your perusal and shall elaborate following.

    Once upon a time on the plains of the land that would someday become South Dakota, lived a Cherokee brave whose name was White Star. Being a brave in his tribe, he was a warrior and a hunter and was a great asset to the tribe. Being so physical, he was strong and well muscled, but with his hunting, he was a runner, so he was also quite slender. Anyone would think that one of the women of his tribe would capture his heart, but that was not to be. As he hunted a buffalo one day, he came upon a beautiful maiden from another tribe. She was resting amidst the shade of some trees and drinking from a brook, and her name was Desert Rose. The pair took to each other straight away and after getting to know each other, agreed to meet again, which they did, again and again and again. Before too long, they were in love.

    In her village, however, she was engaged to a man named Walking Stick, named for his great height and gangly body. Her family had set her up with him, and she did care for him, but her heart belonged to White Star. Her relationship to the Cherokee brave was discovered, and she was exiled from her tribe when she refused to give him up. The Cherokee readily accepted Desert Rose into their village, and she married White Star.
    White Star had a friend he grew up with. His name was Running Water and he was destined to be a Healer. White Star and Running Water spent as much time as possible playing together and doing the things friends do, but much of Running Water’s life was spent as the apprentice of the tribe’s medicine man. White Star considered him his best friend.

    When Running Water grew up, he was declared a healer, and he took up the trade alongside the medicine man, although now he certainly had more free time. He spent more time with his childhood chum and they grew close, close enough that they fell in love. It just happened. White Star’s friends were, of course, Desert Rose’s friends, and she liked Running Water very much. With his blessing, they married, and all three of them shared a Tipi and started a family. White Star and Desert Rose had children together. One night, a group of white men and soldiers came into their camp under orders. They went from tipi to tipi, killing those within and taking their children.

    Running Water awoke and went outside as two soldiers were approaching. They were drunk, and determined to follow their orders, although the booze kept them from feeling pain over the things they were doing. Running Water begged them to leave, telling them that there were children inside and that the woman was with child, but they didn’t understand the Cherokee language. They killed him, and then went inside and killed Desert Rose and White Star as they slept. The child that Desert Rose was carrying was Running Water’s. They never woke up. The children were taken, and, like the others, placed in white schools to be ‘civilized’.
    The three were not to be separated forever, and they came back, spread out across the world, but they found each other once more and they loved each other. Perhaps this time, they would have the chance the live their full life together.

    Who I'd like to meet: Any of my family who managed to survive the invasion in our village I would like to see Running Water and White Star again Any other Cherokee/Native Americans; I would like to hear from them too

    In La'kech!

    Running Water was and is Tony B. whose messages are now fading out. We know, that he often called himself as Running Deer, which bespoke of his Love for his friend White Star and their shared Love for Desert Rose.
    There is an additional story to the one above, as there was another squaw, called Shadow Dancer, which was to Running Water as Desert Rose was to White Star.

    Here is the story; Running Water might have told this story before; but here it is again for your consideration.

    Shadow Dancer was a beautiful Cherokee maiden, who loved to move her body in dance and self expression during the day and beginning at an early age. But at night when the men danced about the totem poles and the ceremonial fires to the beat of the drums, women were not allowed to participate and so Shadow Dancer danced with the men, but at a distance as so not to draw suspicion to her doings. But from this activity, Shadow dancer was named.

    Most of the men knew what Shadow Dancer was up to anywhy and tolerated her behaviour.
    Running Water too was enarmoured by this Dancer and admired her courage.
    Shadow Dancer became very curious about the secret of the men and as was the custom, this secret was contained in the medicine pouch, the warriors carried around their neck.

    So one day, as Running Water was bathing in a lagoon supplied with water from a waterfall; Shadow dancer sneaked up to Running Water's medicine pouch to peek at its contents.
    She found the feather of an eagle, a tooth of a grizzly bear and various pebbles, rocks and artifacts in the pouch.

    Running Water caught Shadow Dancer and found himself in a dilemma.
    It was strictly forbidden for a squaw or maiden to discover the contents of the medicine pouch, because and as it was believed, this would take the power of the warrior given by the great spirit manitou away.

    It was a man's initiation to be separated from his tribe and wigwam. He had to go away into the wilderness and find his spirit guides and collect the token symbols of conquering his fears and the elements. Running Water had gone away at the appropriate time and had faced his inner demons and had collected his personalised tokens and placed them into his medicine pouch.

    And now Shadow Dancer had discovered his spirit-magic and what was he to do?
    Here then Running Water decided that the only way for him not to lose his spirit-magic, was to initiate Shadow Dancer as his 'Other Self' and the concept of a Twinship Squaw Warrior was born.

    And so Shadow Dancer agreed to participate from then on as a female warrior and to share the spirit-magic of Running Water.
    And so Running Water and Shadow Dancer became lovers, but not in the form of White Star and Desert Rose, but in the form of a Oneness in two bodies.
    And so it was, that Shadow Dancer too shared the tepee of White Star and Desert Rose with Running Water.

    In La'kech!

    So I am giving a simple message and this message is given in the honour of the Maya and the honour of Running Water aka Tony B.
    The channel Tony B. has ceased to exist as an emissary of Hunab Ku and I wish to commemorate him in a song, he wrote for his beloved Shadow Dancer in the identity of Running Water.

    In the Shadow of Love!

    Here I am, so alone staring at my reflection on the floor.
    How I wish, that my baby would come soon, walking through my door.
    So long I've been waiting for you - in the shadow of love
    - in the shadow of love.

    Where are you my sweet lover, why do you keep me so in despair?
    Everything would be so beautiful, should your love begin to care.
    Come on my baby, take me gently - touch me deep inside, oh yeah
    - touch me deep inside oh yeah.

    Imagine me, my love, my hot body wrapped around you in delight.
    Feel your ecstacy, your desire to have me forever in your sight.
    I dream about you day and night - come on my darling, let us be
    -come on my darling, let us be.

    We could elope entwined my love, like butterflies gliding in the wind.
    Amidst the flowers a new world for us to find, love never to rescind.
    Upon the wings of mighty eagles, we shall soar
    - into our paradise - into our paradise.

    Here I sit, looking at the magic of my clever crystal ball.
    Do I hear the chimes of heavenly bells, answering my call?
    My love is so true, come and release me
    - from the shadow of love - from the shadow of love.

    Composed for Solid Gold: November 29th 1998.
    Dedicated to Sonja and Karen and all their sisters.
    And personally written for my darling Veritas Eikona.

    TonyB. (Emmanuel Melchisedec) aka Abraxasinas.

    The Rising of the Sun, the Running of the Deer and the Flow of the Waters

    The holly and the ivy,
    When they are both full grown,
    Of all trees that are in the wood,
    The holly bears the crown

    Yuletide Carol from Druidic Origins
    Tony 104 of a native Indian emblem of the Running Deer!!!

    Blessings and Joy on the Return of the Light

    (posted by Jordan Stratford+, 21.12.2004)


    I bid you all farewell!

    So this honourable greeting from the Mayan Matrix became lived in a personal experience by Running Water aka Tony B. And perhaps his strong identification with the Egyptian Twinship of Anubis in Anubia and its association as the Shadow or Khaibit might now make a little more sense to all.
    All worldwide and native spiritual traditions are based on the Cosmic Twinship. It was the Ra-Apep transformation of the One into Two as a mirror image first and then followed by Geb-Nut and Shu-Tefnut and then Osiris-Isis becoming a foursome in Set-Nephthys and their offsprings, including Horus and Anubis and Bast.

    So our galactic source Hunab Ku commissioned Running Water to pave the way for the return of Quetzalcoatl - the Plumed Serpent, also known as Kukulkan.
    Other spiritual traditions call this 'return' the 'Second Coming' and the 'Coming of Krishna' or the '12th Imam'.
    I am here to continue the messages Tony B. has given, albeit in a different tone.
    As some might have discerned; his last few messages were of a tremendous profundity and I shall elaborate on the significance of the messages for a while, say until a new directive is given.
    But I should make it clear, that all this information is completely free and is honoured by us as the testimony of Running Water. This is a legacy not just of one lifetime, but of many, as the stories above might indicate.
    The true meaning of all messages from Tony B., here in certain forums and on his CosmosDawn website; is a meaning of a most splendid homecoming, which is possible now for planet earth and as necessary technical information has been sent to this planet.

    The key element for this homecoming is a 'city of light in the sky'. In your scriptures, this is known as a 'New Jerusalem' and it is encoded in other media in various degrees of certitudes.
    For example your scifi movie 'Independence Day' is based on that scriptural encoding, but the agenda of the 'spaceship, a quarter the size of the moon' is rather different in our reality.
    But if you closely examine the scrolls, you will find a cubical measurement of 12,000 furlongs, which describes a length of 2,400 km and which compares to the diameter of the moon of so 3500 km.

    The mathematician might work out that in terms of volume, the 'New Jerusalem' is rather close to the Golden Mean as a percentage using the figures above in 0.616.
    What is the meaning of the 'New Jerusalem', you might ask? I shall elucidate at a later time, but would like you all to know that all and any of you can help to bring the physical manifestation of the 'City of Light' about.

    You see, the 'New Jerusalem' is already here; but you cannot see it, because of its lightness.
    But what you can do is to imagine it to suddenly appear from behind the clouds - and what a sight it would be.
    So I may ask you in the name of your own In La'kech to bring out your science fiction dvd's and your books and your songs and imagine and image and imagine for it to suddenly appear. And the more emotional you can become in those imaginings, the better. This also you might understand if you so choose to consider my following messages.

    Here is a little clue for this; in imagining with emotional energy, you are actually energising an image.
    One thing you should consider so, the 'New Jerusalem' looks not at all like a 'flying saucer' or a 'cigar shaped' mothership or a triangular 'lightplane'. It looks like a 'city of light', and as you would see in flying in on a plane in the middle of the light into say the airports of New York or London or Munich or Paris.

    Why and how this is possible, shall be shared at a later time and any of you who can follow logical discourse, are advised to try to reexamine the channelled messages of Running Water, as within those messages is hidden the 'New Physics' of the higher dimensions.
    But it is not necessary. Because the channelled material has been testimonialised here on the forums and on the CosmosDawn website; the holographic matrix penetrating all dimensions; the information can be used from outside the 3-dimensional spacetime matrix.

    One of your prophets of old has witnessed this in Michel de Nostradame'. He wrote that publication and dispersion of certain data is not necessary, as long as the information exists in some manuscripted form.
    The important issue with all information given to earth from outside its immediate planetary vicinity is that it must be processed within the consciousness of earth. Only then can the planetary mind selfempower its frequency modulations and communicate via its lifeforms with the dimensions above the third.

    You might consider the last posting of Tony B., which addressed the great secret of 'life' in the alphaomega of scriptural encoding being the beginning and the end in the oneness of a circularisation.
    What he said, was that all material things interact inertially through their mass and that this mass can be made to literally disappear in a meeting of the dimensions 3 and 4 and in the form of frequency modulating the lightpath and so the distance light travels to 'inspect' whatever it encounters.

    This then defines things in isolation as a core-awareness.
    So considering an ant or something small in isolation will give a high core-awareness, but ants are not isolated now are they?
    Ants act like they were a unity, say as directed from an anthill.
    So then because an anthill is bigger than a single ant, a group-awareness becomes defined.
    And so the anthill evolves in awareness and consciousness as a holographic 'shard' of the hologram of the forest, the valley, the country, the continent, the planet, the solar nebula from which the solar system forms, the galactic nebula from which the galactic environment forms, the groupgalactic nebula, the supercluster nebula and the entire materialised universe.
    The bigger the encompassment or the envelope, the smaller the core-awareness becomes.
    So can you see what the alphaomega is?

    The beginning is the smallest disorder and the greatest awareness as the alpha and the end is the greatest disorder and the smallest awareness.
    The smallest Running Water has labeled Lmin=c/f* or the wormhole-perimeter and the largest became the Hubble-Radius RHubble=c/Ho.

    The readers more informed on the technical labelings might now realise, that this physics of awareness does something the earthbound physicists have for long wondered about. This physics describes the nature of inertia and something known as Mach's Law; which refers to the universal environment as being a background and a reference frame for the overall dynamics of the cosmos.

    You might consider your concept of Binding Energy to illuminate the matter.
    When you split up some atomic nucleus or atom, you are required to supply energy to that system.
    In other words, to split up say a Helium-4 nucleus (of two protons and two neutrons) into two Deuterons (of a proton-neutron couple), the deuterons 'weigh' more, than the Helium-4 or alpha-particle.

    This is how this awareness integration works and this is how life begins on a planet.
    Take a clump of clay of uniform material. This lump has a constant density and composition and so will have a relatively constant core-awareness.
    Now supply some energy to the clay, say boil it or heat it or radiate it.
    The lump of clay will change its composition.
    This is what happens when a galactic orb first forms; say from a nebula of certain mass, a core conglomerates and because of its rotation a differentiation of the inner regions and the outer regions most probably will occur.

    But let us use the planet earth as an example.
    Differentiating the solid planetary mass into say a denser core than a surrounding mantle under the application of the universal cosmic laws, will differentiate the previous core-awareness into say two components in the core and the less dense mantle.
    But this means that a Binding Energy had to be supplied to the uniform planet to separate the two components and so you can now solve another big mystery relative to the earthbound scientists.
    The Binding Energy to create a core-mantle earth did not come from earth itself, but from the 'Greater Earth Environment', namely the Solar Wind and Cosmic Rays and other such energy carriers from the 'outer space'.

    And the 'particles from outer space' supplied Binding Energy and awareness in the form of the inertia they carried. Then this inertia became transformed into gravita in the equivalence principle for mass and the equivalence of mass as magnetic electricity allowed the communication between core and mantle to manifest in say a label of telluric currents.

    And now you can write your own stories of how life on earth began.
    Radioactive decay of elements changed the thermodynamic equilibrium within the earth and volcanic eruptions created a sulphuric atmosphere, which resulted in precipitation of gaseous clouds and the continuing supply of Binding Energy from 'outer space' caused the first acidic waters to fall to eventually form the oceans.
    Now attempt to describe this in terms of the changing awareness concentrated as the planet earth.

    Every time a change in the earth's constituents occured, a part of the earth separated from the uniformity it hitherto was defined in.
    Now as you know, the smaller things become, the greater the awareness becomes and why?
    Because smaller things as the holographic shards of the Oneness experience evolution pressure in having to try to reattain the maximum awareness of the beginning, that is the Unification of the NonSeparation before the universe expanded.

    So the physics of awareness is a physics of the Binding Energy well understood by the earthbound physicist in their nuclear physics of fusion and fission and radioactivity.
    But the physics of awareness is also a physics of accelerations and so of the classical physics of Newton and the relativistic physics of Einstein.
    The Newtonian physics describes the 3D of inertia and the Einstein physics describes the 4D of that inertia but now with a window into the 4D in the curvature of spacetime and the equivalence of acceleration with gravitation.
    The quantum physics of the 4D then builds on the window of Einstein in the Schwarzschild metric and leaving 4D of spacetime to enter the 5th spacetime dimension, does away with the coordinate systems in a physics of quantum relativity leading to the awareness physics and the boundary conditions as published by Running Water.

    Perhaps some of you can now fathom the reason as to why all things in the universe rotate?
    All things rotate, because they carry awareness and awareness is df/dt as the change in frequency divided by the change in time and so has the units of angular acceleration.
    So what happened to the planet earth as it became more hospitable to life? How did life come about?
    Once water was in abundance on the planet; its evaporation by the sunlight providing the Binding Energy for the awareness; certain microbial lifeforms could evolve from their crystalline ancestors.

    As you know, crystals grow and this change carries awareness and separation potential. Then certain geometric forms are required to accomodate this growth and as you also know, all solids are crystalline by nature in some form - they all have some form of geometry.
    And the way growth is programmed into the geometry is just the way your DNA/RNA is programmed - it is done by magnetic induction of the gravita.
    There exists an universal mechanism of just how spacetime itself became created from its 0-entropy state.
    This universal code is omnipresent in the entire universe and everything grows by it.
    This code is fundamental to a pentagonal symmetry and so will reappear in the geometric awareness carriers, which will lead to what you label as 'life'.
    I shall illustrate and leave it to the mathematicians or puzzle solvers to extend this encoding. It will result in something well known by you, but not appreciated by your scientists to the level it deserves.

    Consider a State of Being, say a sudden awakening from a deep sleep in a proclamation: 'I am awake!'.
    Call this state of being a selfstate, defined in say the binary digit 1.
    Then consider this State of Being to 'remember' its previous Selfstate of being 'not awke' as a binary encoding digit 0.
    The permutative self states of 01 or 10 so become possible, but require a new binary definition of some order in say the concept of 'I experience'.
    So the next self state will be a doublet of the form: (asleep, awake)=(0,1); followed by (awake,asleep)=(1,0).
    The third self state now can only be (1,0,?) using the doublet forms to seek for an extension into triplet form.

    Now define this triplet state as: (OldSelfstate, An Experience, New Selfstate because of the Experience).
    So the first triplet is redefined as (0,1,1)=(1,0,1) and the second as (1,1,?).
    The experience of 'asleep' is followed by the experience of 'awake' with the result that the ?=1*, because the Self of 'awake' is still 'awake' but this 'awakeness' is somehow more awake than the first one and so one requires an exyension of the binary 1 into 1* say.
    But a 'better' definition is possible from the binary doublet states 01 and 10 in terms of orderings.
    The first triplet becomes (01,00,01) and the second (01,01,10), followed by the third as (10,01,11) followed by (11,10,101) followed by (101,11,1000) followed by (1000,101,1101) and so on.

    So a Series of Experience-factors is generated and of the form: 00,01,01,10,11,1101,... and in always Adding the Highest previous experience to the Newest Newstate as the Highest Oldstate.

    But I shall take my leave now and continue some other time.

    In La'kech! IAmWhoIAm.


    'A most wondrous thing the Shadow is, a redeemer in all to succour;
    it can go where the light cannot abide, seemingly banished, it is not.
    For where the light is, the darkness flees, no longer present to endure;
    so to become illuminated is its destined journey and its troubled lot.

    But without the light, no Shadow can be cast, its such a splendid key;
    the dimensions reduce in space from three to two and all in just the one.
    Betwixt the light and the darkness it is and part of both for all to see;
    the Shadow of the body, does it not merge all in its rule under the sun?

    Whatsoever can cast a Shadow, must be a most wondrous thing to relay;
    as nature's very own offspring, the young ones grow towards their final goal.
    Enabled to bring peace to so many things appearing apart and so far away;
    the reconciliation for the suffering body with its spirit and its scattered soul.'


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    empty. Re: The Legacy of Thuban Omni-Science De Alpha Draconis Omega

    empty. shiloh Today at 4:05 pm

    Copyright Infringement

    Hello Carol,

    Here is the message sent by the contact form page Anonymous of "" - http://www.themistsofavalon.net.

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    November 13, 2015

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    If present by November 17th, 2015 any time; this thread will be deleted without further notice by its author.
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    40 Years Later - November 15-16th, 2015

    3. The Snowstorm of the Awakening! (November 1975)

    It had been a long party. I laid in the arms of my fiancee somewhere in the countryside in Bavaria and not far from the Alps and the border between Austria and Germany.

    We had returned to the typical but very old farm estate and relaxed in front of the ancient woodburning combustion stove.
    Thinking of nothing in particular, I looked up to the ceiling and became aware of a wooden chandelier, just a wooden construction really with four corners and four handcarved figurines depicting the four directions of the sky.
    I thought something funny in regards to those figurines. To an representative teen, and not particularly interested in any otherworldly things; those things nevertheless exuded something sinister, some strange force of hatefulness.
    I shook my head and tried to dispel this emotion. I tried to think of making love and to turn my thoughts onto the young woman in my arms.

    I said: "Rosy, what do you make of those figurines up there?"
    She answered that they gave her the creeps and that she had never liked them all her 22 years of living in that place, her mother's farm since her father had died. I felt a little better. At least it wasn't completely in my imagination. Nevertheless I tried to forget about the thing and looked away from the figurines towards another part of the ceiling - concentrating to forgo this emotion of hate coming from the chandelier.
    Then it happened.

    Just looking at the ceiling, the ceiling began to move, not physically, but the astral "muck" vanished and this sort of opened the twilight zone, again in the beta state and so fully awake.
    Concentric pulsations of light streamed into my brain with a frequency just over one vibration every second. It would not stop and continued for about half an hour. I just laid there and mentioning to Rosy that some kind of energy was flowing into my head and I asked her to remain still and just see what would happen. After some time - though time seemed to be different and not linear during that experience - the sensations stopped to start allover again. The feelings of this energy were pleasant, but very penetrating and very strong.
    A kind of prickling sensation flowing from your top of your head right through your entire body.
    It was a kind of LOVE, but not a LOVE looking for something. It was a LOVE which KNEW and a LOVE which had immense power, but I did not understand any of it. I was only 18.
    The energy diminished and I suddenly saw myself within a different scenario.
    Campfires were burning in the night and in the distances all around this hill, this elevation. I saw figures couching around those fires, trying to keep warm. I was next to some wooden construction and as a turned my head to the left I saw those EYES - the most LOVING yet sad eyes imaginable.

    Those eyes of the purest LOVE spoke to me: "Why do they not understand? They just do not understand what LOVE is."
    That was all the eyes said, but I sensed another and subdued message: "Tell them about me and about my LOVE for them. Tell them what It Is!"

    But this LOVE was such that it did not command or tell anybody to do anything; it was even "afraid" to ask since it did not like to impose on anybody. It was just LOVE and LOVE and LOVE.
    Then the scenario of emotional intensity subsided and I returned to "normality".
    I was rather shaken and my body trembled because of my spiritual experience.
    My thoughts then turned to the figurines and I stood up and broke them off the chandelier and threw them into the fire in the stove. A symbolic act of faith! They were made of oak and my hands bled after I broke them in my act of "irrationality". Rosy said that she understood that something had been going on, but that she did not share in my visions of the LOVING EYES.
    She didn't mind me burning those figures, but she worried what her mother would say in the morning.
    We went upstairs to go to bed and the heater, a small two-tiered reflector was switched on to keep the room warm. The nights were getting colder as winter was approaching in Southern Germany.
    An incredible wave of hate radiated from this object, but our physical tiredness overcame us and we fell asleep even forgetting to make love.

    I woke up very early and a snowstorm was howling outside. Rosy was already up and milking the cows; she and her mother ran the little farm all by themselves; with Rosy's sister and brother helping out.
    It was very cold and the snow outside was more than a metre, covering the landscape. I went down into the stables and said to Rosy: " I must do something. I must go up this mountain to this little chapel up there and then I do not know what." Rosy just looked and collapsed unconsciously into my arms. I took off my heavy overcoat, wrapped it around her and proceeded to stomp my way through the snow and the snowstorm up to the little chapel.
    It seemed endless and progress was slow; but my impatience drove me on and I finally got there to find the chapel locked with a wire.

    I broke the wire and went inside, there was a statue of Mary and a few angels or whatever. I did not know what to do. I did not pray or follow any religious dogma or ceremonies. Sure I had been an altarboy like all the rest of the boys in the little village in Bavaria, Iffeldorf, where I grew up in this Catholic setting.
    So I just poured my heart out to whatever there might be and cried and went back outside and looked up to the sky. The snowstorm had finally subsided and the sun was trying to break through as morning sun.
    Then I decided to make my way down to this little village of Taching near Rosy's farm to visit the local church and tell the people that they were missing the point - for it was Sunday and all the villagers would go to church and follow their religious customs.
    Little did I know with my 18 years behind my ears; I did not expect the labels of hallucinations and mental illness and drug dependent freakishness.


    40 Years Later - November 15-16th, 2015

    I was dreaming and a starship appeared. It appeared real enough, something alike the Strartrekker starship like an advanced version of the 'Enterprise', but I straight away knew it was not as it seemed.
    It was rather closely associated with the 'powers that be', the echeloners who controlled the occurrences and happenings upon planet Earth.
    Soon enough, I was to experience a close encounter with those echeloners in circumstances blended with the fortunes of the past and the misfortunes of the present.

    But in the dream, the starship began to metamorphose in a number of scenarios, symbolizing the journeying of a shared past and the remembrance of it with the potentialised future manifesting in the present.
    The nature of the starship was partially physical and partially metaphysical, meaning that it was guided under parameters of dimensions pf physical densities blended with and into each other.

    In the dream the starship transformed into an ocean liner and I could walk along the cabins from the outside to see the captain's bridge and the crew inside of the guiding system for the ocean liner.
    But then this ocean cruiser veered away from its native element and became a sort of terra cruiser, able to transverse the land in an elevated fashion, say in hovering over the trees and forests with ease in a quasi starship fashion of interelemental adaptation capacity.

    From that dreamscape, the story changed into a script descriptive of the encounter with the echeloners as the adaptation of the captain's crew of the ocean liner.

    Now I had an accomplice, a young man known as Johan or Johnny or Jim, but also Julian. The two of us somehow became detected by the echeloner crew and they adviced us in authoritative terms, bordering on arrested, that we had to justify our actions of being where we were. Two of those agents then brought us to their headquarters for interrogations or examinations.

    The place the human appearing agents took us to, was like an underground establishment or a building complex hidden in caves or mountains. underground. There were many rooms and chambers, but no activity of personages or beings moving about.
    But both J and myself felt an atmosphere of oppression and foreboding in that place. We wanted to escape our confinements and as there were only two of them, we took our chances and as we walked across some bridge outside the building complex, we pushed both confiscators off the bridge into the enclave below and ran away from the headquarters of the captain's guiding crew.

    We knew, we were being followed and we found ourselves in the wilderness and J said he knew of a secret entrance place in the woods, where our pursuers would not find us. We reached this place, just a sort of native rock, which obscured the entrance into a new natural world as a counterpart of the constructed world of the echeloners, likewise hidden from the normal occurrences upon the planet Earth.

    But then the dreamscape changed and J remained in the natural world; whilst I had to resurface to face our persecuters. I found myself in the woods again and the sun was shining, when I saw a guy in a jeep driving towards me. He felt different than the echeloners, yet he was searching for me. At first I tried to avoid him, running from one place to another in the forest, but he adjusted his jeep, steering it wherever I moved to and I could not escape.
    As I somehow knew, that this guy was trustworthy, I stopped running away from him and approached him directly to ask him what all this persecution was about. As I approached him, he affirmed my identity in asking: "You are Tony Bermanseder, aren't you?!"

    I answered in the affirmative and so we talked and he said, that he was ordered to find and catch me and to bring me back to headquarters; but that he was not one of them.
    And it was about the times. Somehow the echeloners had discovered that I posed a threat to their establishment and now that they knew about it, I had to become neutralized to protect their status quo.
    The echeloners had found the records about my identity and reason for being on this planet in their surveillances and data bases and so the directive for my arrest and imprisonment has been given from the highest central authority.

    This guy did not mention J and so I thought it best to leave J out of whatever would follow in development from this situation.

    And so I decided to simply go to headquarters to face my persecutors.

    Then, at headquarters, I found myself surrounded by a number of agents and I saw straight away, that they were not human. They were so excited to see me and in their excitement, they could barely hide their natural appearance as reptilian humans from me.
    Their human masqueraded skin almost melted and their tongues were slithering when they talked and their eyes were yellow and obelisk shaped, like that of any native reptile found on Earth.

    I then felt rather jeopardized. The projected and openly displayed excitement of those 'aliens' made it clear to me, that they found me attractive and that this attraction was not one of benevolent desires to share commonly enjoyable experiences; but rather one for individual gratification.
    Did they want to eat or consume me or parts of me? It did feel that way and I wondered if it had been a good idea to accept their 'invitation' to meet them at their headquarters.

    So I was brought into a room or hall where interrogations could take place.
    Some chief guy there said: "We know all about you Tony Bermanseder!".
    I replied asking: "How did you find me?"

    He said: "We analysed our records and all is taken care of. Your human identity has been rubbed out and you can consider yourself as 'gone missing' on earth. Your disappearance has been formalized ."

    I thought to myself: "But what about the kids?"

    Again I realized that I would perhaps not be able to leave this place and that my life was in great danger of ending right in the headquarters of the echeloners, who seemed to be reptoid aliens.

    There were a number of echeloner agents standing around in that hall, where I was being interrogated by this chief administrator or inspector.

    I decided to offer my cooperation to the the chief, saying: "Now that I am here., we could work together. I could learn of your culture and I could share the culture of this planet with you."

    I soon realized, that the echeloners knew everything they wanted to know about the planet Earth and that they did not require anything I knew about it and that I was stuck here and perhaps would see the end of my human existence in the foreseeable future in this place.

    I did not know what to do next and so I simply said to the chief: 'You know that I am from Alpha Draconis, don't you?!"

    The chief lost his composure and jumped out of his chair or whatever he was sitting upon.


    'Yes, I am from Thuban!", I said and the entire mental atmosphere in the hall seemed to change from oppression to amazement and a feeling of utter astonishment.

    The chief then asked: "If I say: 'Begruui Reptia!', what say you?"

    From the top of my head and without contemplating the question, I said: 'Brigita!'

    I began to become aware of the whisperings between the echeloners; about a lost history and their ancestors and the rembrances hidden in a secret code. About the great conjuction of 2,200 million years ago, when the higher dimensional sentiences began to form to manifest in their divers form of physicality in the galaxies and starsystems and worlds of the universe.
    I then knew, that my life was no longer in danger, but that a form of jubilation and discovery had infested the echeloners from their very own and rather unhuman perspective and selfconscious cosmic awareness and universal beingness.

    I then also knew of Jen and Kira and Kira-Jen and Jen-Kira of the ancient pasts of all the extraterrestrial intelligences.

    86+66=152, the Broken Net of the Diadem of Darkness!



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    • Post n°191

    empty-.30607. Re: The Legacy of Thuban Omni-Science De Alpha Draconis Omega

    empty-.30608. Carol Yesterday at 7:34 pm

    "If present by November 17th, 2015 any time; this thread will be deleted without further notice by its author.
    In view of the 'discovery' of alleged infringement of copyright with respect to a reference to another forum; the following 'Disclosure' statement is shared for the timeperiod ending November 17th, 2015."

    What I find odd is that I've looked through this thread and not found where the infringement exists. It looked to me that it was on the Thuban Forum and made no sense that Mists was notified instead. If there is a link that I missed that they were referring to all you have to do is just let me know what post it is and I can edit it out. I did see reference to Delores but nothing that would be considered an infringement.. I may be in error but the ones posting reference to her, please check and edit or pass on the link and post to me and I can handle it.

    japa013-.30609. What is life?
    It is the flash of a firefly in the night, the breath of a buffalo in the wintertime. It is the little shadow which runs across the grass and loses itself in the sunset.

    With deepest respect ~ Aloha & Mahalo, Carol
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    Thuban Dreamtimes!
    [3:51:23 AM] Kali 666: I had two dreams last night, the first one i lived in a what felt like being a fortified stone castle and after a party i was going around the property when in the gardens i saw an animal that seemed to look like a manta ray. It surprised me since it was a bit off the floor and advancing and i thought ok why isn't this being in water.
    When i approached him i saw it morphed into an alligator and i began to run towards it; i jumped over it but i felt i biting me from behind
    At that moment i opened my eyes and woke up and then i went back to dreaming again and this time i was in a house right at the beach, the house had many levels or floors and my room was at the very top
    I was sitting on my bed looking out the magnificent window and admiring the curtains and window dressings but most of all gorgeous view of the ocean i had, i looked out the window to see the beach and i could see the water being so strangely close to the house and a few ppl bathing very close to the beach since i could see the water was deep just very close
    After this i found myself swimming in a river and i saw a big crocodile nearby and it began to follow me
    I swam further and i see more and more crocodiles coming out of the water to meet me at the surface
    Then i try to see further ahead and i realize the river bank was filled with crocodiles in and out of the water and very soon i found myself completely surrounded by crocodiles and i thought to myself...i am in crocodile territory now....
    They looked at me intensely and came very close to me and i was surely scared but at the same time i was in an expecting stance...just waiting to see what they would do to me.
    Now i don't think i recall much after that moment

    [4:00:13 AM] Kali 666: Tony i just read your dream and i am thinking if that is your response to Carol
    [4:00:28 AM] Kali 666: why would you use that as a response to her warning
    [4:00:46 AM] Kali 666: do you think you have been seen by them?
    [4:01:55 AM] Kali 666: will you edit or delete the content of the infringement? if you decide to do it...is it also on gaia?
    [4:04:14 AM] Kali 666: why did you include your name on the post?
    [4:06:21 AM] Kali 666: who was this J companion of yours?

    [2:09:16 PM] ShilohaPlace: Yes Xeia, your dreams seem to synchrionise with a universal configuration occuring. As you know the politics is pointing to an all out religious war, even though many say it has nothing to do with islam. It has not in terms of the believers or peripheral adherents, but with their 'holy book'.
    [2:09:40 PM] ShilohaPlace: So I will add your dreams to Xen and BOG but not to Moa.
    [2:10:22 PM] ShilohaPlace: About this copyright infringement. It simply is a message from the Logos, telling us that the timeline of Thuban is on course.
    [2:11:29 PM] ShilohaPlace: This copyright thing is harmless in toto, as it is simply an attempt of the Ozark publishers to make money in the general mileu of the clampdown on torrents and general download practices.
    [2:11:56 PM] ShilohaPlace: Dolores would not be pleased that her work is now becoming more commercialized

    [2:13:14 PM] Kali 666: maybe, but she has a daughter and family that would be interested in the money coming from her books
    [2:13:25 PM] Kali 666: anyway it is merely a link...i checked
    [2:13:37 PM] Kali 666: but it was Carol the one who issued the ultimatum
    [2:14:05 PM] Kali 666: would you care if she deletes the post or entire thread?
    [2:14:19 PM] Kali 666: just due to a link?
    [2:14:28 PM] Kali 666: it is obvious you did not put it there
    [2:15:24 PM] Kali 666: i was thinking about the issue of the dream all day
    [2:15:33 PM] Kali 666: dreams...both yours and mine
    [2:16:36 PM] ShilohaPlace: Yes and I will delete the thread if I can on the 17th. Just to make a cosmic statement.
    [2:16:40 PM] Kali 666: the reptilians not being able to realize who you were even when in front of them
    [2:16:56 PM] ShilohaPlace: Those dreams are very potent. I wonder if raven dreamt to.
    [2:17:20 PM] ShilohaPlace: Lol We are their ancestors and have nothing to fear from them.
    [2:18:12 PM] Kali 666: as soon as i woke up, first thing that came into my mind was the egyptian book of the dead...and the "passage" of the soul through water with the sacred crocodiles in it
    [2:18:38 PM] Kali 666: yes....and it is as if they just realized this all of a sudden...when you told them
    [2:18:39 PM] ShilohaPlace: Well your crocodiles became my echeloners
    [2:19:14 PM] ShilohaPlace: Recall the Paa Taal of Alex Collier. He is full of nabs, but some of his early stuff was rather good
    [2:19:33 PM] Kali 666: yes...the creators
    [2:20:12 PM] Kali 666: you also mentioned them in your previous post
    [2:20:37 PM] ShilohaPlace: Very coincidental or not?
    [2:20:48 PM] Kali 666: more like...timely
    [2:21:22 PM] Kali 666: appropriate for the times
    [2:22:57 PM] ShilohaPlace: Just my position. The J stands for the male names mentioned and the Julian is female for Julienne and Juli lol
    [2:23:44 PM] Kali 666: heh
    [2:24:16 PM] ShilohaPlace: You could have guessed
    [2:24:25 PM] Kali 666: i had a feeling...
    [2:24:38 PM] ShilohaPlace: Of course you would have

    [2:27:58 PM] Kali 666: are you feeling ok?
    [2:29:07 PM] ShilohaPlace: I had a strange night in waking and dozing, but it all makes sense, because it is exactly 40 years since all this began for me
    [2:29:39 PM] ShilohaPlace: I only drew this conclusion afterwards and not before. So it was no autosuggestion
    [2:29:54 PM] Kali 666: what do you make of it now?
    [2:30:28 PM] ShilohaPlace: Same as described.
    [2:30:56 PM] ShilohaPlace: This copyright infringement notice simply validates all that I and now you made of it
    [2:31:43 PM] ShilohaPlace: The echeloners are NOT real reptilians by the way, but they exist as thoughtforms and memeplexes hosted by the ptbers
    [2:32:11 PM] ShilohaPlace: In a higher dimensional sense they are as real as dreamt though

    [2:34:29 PM] ShilohaPlace: I included my name in the post, to be as precise as I could be in recording this dreamscape
    [2:34:50 PM] ShilohaPlace: It is for the ETs of the future contacts of course
    [2:35:10 PM] Kali 666: i thought so too =)
    [2:35:46 PM] ShilohaPlace: Well I do not dream starcruisers very often, so this one was important for the agenda
    [2:36:28 PM] ShilohaPlace: As said a 40 year period of 'times in the wilderness' have ended. Your dream indicates and supports this statement
    [2:36:42 PM] ShilohaPlace: It is like Thuban's Sinai desert
    [2:37:13 PM] ShilohaPlace: Wandering about to find the 'Promised Land' - the general New World of course
    [2:37:47 PM] Kali 666: we have left our skin on this
    [2:38:27 PM] ShilohaPlace: old skin
    [2:38:49 PM] Kali 666: hmm...true

    [2:42:19 PM] ShilohaPlace: http://www.birthofgaia.com/t254p135-the-legacy-of-thuban-omni-science-de-alpha-draconis-omega#3926

    [2:42:45 PM] ShilohaPlace: Records are kept. I am pretty tired of the moabyte nabsers anyhow
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    thubanis32 minutes ago
    Is there anything more unsexy than a skinny Barbie doll woman walking down the catwalk pretending to be sexy?


    thubanis11 minutes ago
    Hey ladies! If nature had designed the body of a female to be lacking in hair it would have evolved that way. Unless you have an actual genetic condition like hirsutism - don't shave anything, which grows naturally to a certain scale. I find the natural realness of the female body the most sexy and erotic way a female body can be.

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